To those who have visited my blog before,you might be surprised with the different entry,.However i think only Yiling is the only one who actually visited my tab...

anyway,today was a hectic day for me..i;ve got wake up as early as 8.00 to get breakfast for my brother..then later have to rushed to fetch pooi yeng and goh and guess what..they live miles apart..!!well..then i have to hurry to this place...to take breakfast...in this new 'coffee-tim' and i ate...pork mee!..hmm..i guess that was not an interesting detail..well...after we finished breakfast,aunty tingyi arrived after parking her kancil..oo..speaking of that..it was pretty embarassing today coz..urm..when i was parking my car...there were 3 men looking at me while guiding me..oh man!goh and pooi yeng was covering their faces coz they were too embarassed...hehehe..sorry guys!haih..i just got my P license for almost 2 weeks now..so can't really blame me for being bad in parking my car...then after breakfast,we went to parade..imagine that..it was only 10.30 and the stalls were yet to be opened and we,4 or us went to jalan-jalan..4 soh pos!!we got the things we wanted and we went to school after that..heheh

that was what happened that i think was intersting today..besides attending tuition class..we can't really count that interesting,can we?hehhehe...anyway,..i spend the whole day thinking of soh ju..really miss soh ju a lot since she has left..she'll only be back end of this year...i guess...i'll just have to wait for soh ju then..=)

ACS play is gonna start this friday..will be going with chee keen..dunno whether he'll bring me along or not leh..=P then he can pay for the tickets lor..i don't have to pay a single cent lor..hahah...*cheekeen,if u ever come across this..erm..it's not what u see k...* will be meeting yi fang and yiling..both coming back to ipoh to see ME...urm...let me rephrase...to see ME and to watch the play..hahah..(don't deny k,yi fang ..yiling...) i guess this is all for today...

oh bother!!>..tuition tomorrow at 10 somemore...sigh..

-khian-

before i begin,let me extend my warmest welcome to yiling and michelle for leaving a note in my tagboard..but i'm still not sure which michelle..as we all know..there r ample of michelles in the world and a few of them are my friends..so..michelle-who-left-me-a-message..please tell me who u are,k?

anyway,i've just read yiling's tab and seeing her in agony..tears my heart into two..coz yiling wasn't really fond of her sister last time but now,she would give anything to get back on her sister's side..so..u can imagine how deep is the impact to yiling now since her sister isn't in talking terms with her. hmm..*yiling..i'm sorry to hear about u and ur sister k..i can't help u  but just keep trying..don't give up..i'm sure ur sister will get out of it...in no time..just be P-A-T-I-E-N- there..i bet yiling is gonna be cheered up if she's here..i can bring her T..

hmm..i've gotta go now..wai yen asked me out..so..i guess i'll put another entry later tonight..by the way,there'll be PASAR MALAM tonight..!!yippee!!can't wait..hehehehehhe...lotsa foodto the pasar malam..with all the delicacies there..especially *chao tao fu*!!not exactly a favourite among the norms..but who gives a damn right?

-khian-

Yesterday night,i did something which i regretted a lot..i went to watch the play in ACS..oh MY goodness...thank god i didn't have to buy the ticket coz chee keen treated me..plus he got free tickets from his brother..his brother was the stage manager for the play.Anyway,this year's title was 'THE OTHER CINDERELLA' although i must admit that Ista Kyra (she played cinderella otherwise a.k.a Lady Allen) did a good job playing as a spoilt brat...and MOhd Amin played well as the demon..anyway,i'm not going to do a review on the play coz i supposed Yiling will do it..=)

hmm...i'm enjoying 5 days of freedom now since mum has gone to Grik.She has to bring her students for a badminton tournament..hmm..guess i'll have the access to the car then..hehehe..but i finally realised something which is very important..that cars do not run with air and in order to make it work,u have to put in car petrol which obviously is expensive.do u know that i spent rm50 this week for my car and it is a KANCIL??!!sigh..i'm so broke now...

i had an argument with my brother yesterday..good-for -nothing..he invaded my privacy!read all my messages in my inbox and blurted everything out to my parents.then i think u all should have guessed it..i kena marah from dad and mum asked me not to fool around..sigh..arrrrggghh!!hate my brother..sometimes i wonder why we are born in the same family..

WHERE DO WE GO AFTER WE PASSED AWAY?..WE ONLY HAVE AN AVERAGE OF 60-70 YEARS ON EARTH AND WHERE DO WE GO AFTER THAT...?

My dad made that statement one day which makes me wonder..where do we go after life ends on earth?anyone has any idea?i honestly am not afraid of death..in fact i wanted mine to end earlier.i said so myself coz i tried a couple of times to take my life away.I attempted sucidal when i was 14..such a young age and i already do not value my life.i was admitted to the hospital recently for over-consumption of alcohol.see?just a couple of examples on how i treat my life..i get depressed easily,even if it's just over a tiny matter/problem.sounds silly to many people but to me,..i've no self control over myself..

sometimes i wonder what has god planned for me..to keep me alive till this age..what are HIS plans for me?...not many people are happy being alive in this world..*foo,u might want to comment something about this entry* i do not know why i hate being in this world..

some of u might be surprised on why i'm so upset when many of u see me as a very energetic person with no worries..ask 5sc1's students (2004) in MGS...i was always the one to lighten up the class with silly antics of mine..i do take the blame for making shereen laughed non-stop in class...hahaha..but deep down..does anyone know the agony of being ANG KHIAN...

i doubt.

~~Happy sweet 18,soh ju.....

....soh ju...i doubt u'll be reading my tab...but...just want to wish you happy birthday...big girl liao..must sang-sang sing-sing...have to love me and sayang me more liao..coz now more matured..hehehhehe...

i  hurt myself again.

emotionally.

i hurt the person who loves me very much.

over and over again.

you know what...i get jealous easily..this,i dare not deny..i always let the seed of jealousy grow inside me..which now seems to be overtaking my heart and soul..i can't control myself...which is something i hate myself..can anyone tell me how to overcome this?i'm in depressed mode again..

hurting the people i love..is not what i want..

i'm sorry...u know who u are..

can u please accept my apologies?i promised to be a better person..than who i am now..

my time on earth is not long..probably for 20-30 years..i do not want to waste time arguing with u anymore...do not waste away the time i have on earth..

since goh asked me to put in some commitment into this blog thing,i guess it's the other way of her asking me to update it.sometimes it's not that i do not want to put something into my site..i just have nothing to write..you know..writer's are always like that..hehhehe..

anyway..i had maths tuition today..and it was raining heavily..oh wait..this is not the interesting part..anyways.,..it was raining heavily and waiyen was saying...

"WHAT IF...SUDDENLY LIGHT'S OUT?WHAT DO U THINK MR'GOH WILL DO?"

anyway..for your info,MR.GOH is my maths teacher..he was teaching us something about sets..which i've no idea what izit about..it's either i've turned stupid overnight or the stupid mathmaticians (is that the correct spelling?) have discovered something so difficult for ME to understand..so..as usual,he was teaching the class something about algebra sets..and as usual also..i was not paying attention..heheh..i guess that explains why i still don't understand a word he's saying about sets..so..back to what i was saying...or rather waiyen;s saying..i answered:-

"HOPEFULLY HE'LL CANCEL THE CLASS LAR...SO BORING..I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS HE CRAPPING ABOUT.."

"NO..I BET HE WILL HAVE A PACK OF CANDLES SOMEWHERE"

"DON'T BE STUPID LAR..HE WHERE GOT CANDLES 1...HE;LL CANCEL THE CLASS 1"

someone suddenly said,"BOTH OF YOU..DON'T BE STUPIDLAR..DREAM ON..THE POWER WILL NOT BE CUT OFF"

A FEW minutes later..lightning struck..power down...light's out..suddenly..i felt that waiyen has this some kind of pychic power..anyway..to cut the story short..he didnt dismiss the class..coz the power was back on 10 minutes later..darn!so u can imagine..that me and goh(the other one...)kept persuading her to say it again..

omg..i bet this entry bores u ppl...now understand why i hate to write?..