hahha..another week has passed..and MP has left malaysia...kinda feel good that MP has finally left..now...i'll just hope that time will help heal my broken heart..hahhahaha..man..i'm going crazy..

assignments are as high as the hill outside my dorm..hehhe...quizes are just around the corner..and i still don't know what's s,p,d,f..man..life's a drag!!

erm..**michelle lee,..sorry for leaving u out k..?we go penang together la..don't merajuk lar..kekekek..*hugz*

Remember that i said once that my mp3 player has been stolen..guess what..i found who it was..and i'm really disappointed..turns out..my coursemate stole it..and somehow..she's a friend of my other friend..and yes,she's a chinese..

haizzzz....chinese are minorities here and we were expected to stick up for each other and it turns out the other way.those who want to know the whole story..feel free to sms me or call me lar..it's not so nice to disclose this in the public..sigh..

hmm..one week has passed and many things had happened..putting everything into words is hard..especially when u have a crappy computer..AARRGGGHHH..can't even access to hotmail..the management has banned it..bodoh..now where do i check my mails??screw them!!...

u know when they say that it's through the hardships that we'll be able to see who's true to u and who's not?hahha;..recently i went through one myself..and i dare to say that the bonds between me and my other 4 friends are stronger now..something like an ionic bond lar..kekkekek..u know..i was really disappointed at some people who's able to twist and turn the story till some other people get the blame?and for those who agreed on doing something earlier turned their back away and put the blame on someone else when something went wrong?..people here are so complicated..so manipulative..

maybe dad was right..i'm too naive..but seriously..after going through what had happened..i think i've grown into a younger lady now..muahhahahhaa...not to see things in a complicated way..but resolve them instead..aiya..it's hard to put into words what happened..

feel like going for a vacation lar..

i'm back in the computer lab again..have been facing this computer for 5 hours straight..skipped my lunch again..maybe it's a good thing that i skipped lunch..can get slimmer and also can make sure my wallet stays fatter..hehhe..it's bad enough that when everytime i put on fat,my wallet intends to grow flat...!..

hahha...

man..lydia..i apologise in the public again k?..i'm sorry for leaving out ur name for the trip end of this year..heheh..don't lar merajuk..honestly,i only thought of you when i remembered about the incident with mdm lam..hehhe..no offence lar..but i think i'll never forget about u and foo..k?the incident is STUCK in my brain..muahahahhahah...

sigh..i finally decided on something..i finally decide to stay single for as long as i live!!being single rocks!!it's so difficult to actually love yourself and also force urself to love another person..so single it is!

=)

yiling,stay single lar like me..then both of us buy 'lou gu po' house..hahha..then,we can party every night..!!yeah!!anyone else who wants to join?..being single is great u know..really..really...hehhe...

how many sluts can they be in this world?..

isn't one enough?

i knew one before..she meant a lot to me..and i called her a slut..it was because she done a lot of damage to my heart..i thought that was the last of it..and now,back in my university,there's another slut too..oh gawd..how many sluts could there be in this world?isn't it bad enough to have one but now,..two?by the way,i've a friend here..who constantly throwing herself to guys..any type of guys also she very ngam 1..we got frustrated till we have to call her that behind her back..she can bitch about us too..

sigh..18 years of living and i've never use such words before..and see what this two human did to me..i'm always using words like bitch,slut and whore...my god..my sins are adding..thanks to them lar!!..

hmm..take note..i have a new e-mail account in yahoo now..so,please help spread the word around k?it's angkhian87@yahoo.com .UTP really banned hotmail..for what la?!so,tolong spread the word around k?

psst...please do e-mail me la..support-support abit lar..my new account..(don't want it to be so empty)..ok ok??

what would you do if you were told that you have only one more day to live?

the past has been haunting me..remember my question in my previous blog?..

my answer would be :-

get the next flight to melbourne,australia..tell MP how in love i am with MP..give MP a hug..and see what happen next

hectic week in university..

i've moral assignment due this week..same goes to sport science, chemistry quizes and test coming up soon..physics quiz and test dunno when..maths quiz..all the test..oh yeah..thinking skills' project..due after raya..worst of all..drama presentation NEXT WEEK...and my group has yet to rehearse properly..sigh..sigh..!!!

god,take my life away please..

who's going to be back to ipoh for raya?lepak lepak a bit wan or not?/..having a lot of break downs lately..have to menyeronokkan myself a bit..spend a night in clearwater perhaps??or anything lar..grab a tequila or something..which reminds me..foo,u were supposed to treat me vodka..since..urm..after form 5..sampai sekarang,cawan vodka pun tak nampak lar..

maria's?

got a little amused with yeesan's comment ..

by the way,yeesan..today's thursday..!hehhe..erm..i decided to update my blog lar..for the sake of everyone...or perhaps those who;s anxious for my update..hehhe..running out of reading materials,i presume?..

life's normal these days..we had EDX on wednesday which was yesterday..EDX is a exhibition where all final year projects are being displayed to the public..some sort of a competition lar within the university students lar which is opened to the public..so,yesterday was declared a 'lecture-free' day lar..to encourage students to visit the exhibition..

BUT..although it was a lecture free day,..yet i've to wake up in the wee hours to complete my domestic chores such as cleaning my room and also get my laundry done..sigh..then,settle down to complete my unfinished assignments..it was till 2p.m only i realised that i actually missed breakfast and lunch..(again!)..sigh..asked my friend to cook maggi mee for me..(and i kena scolding again..)3 days in a row,i've missed my meals and have to mentroublekan my friend to cook for me coz i was too weak to do it myself..hehhehe...gastric is killing me again..arrrggghh!!

hmm...i'm still waiting for my vodka..really have to get myself drunk to stop thinking about my problems..yeesan?..u still up for it?

yiling..LGP club is on ah!? u become the president lar..hehhe..and we go search for the clubhouse..ok..ok??then we can drink vodka there once a week..everything masuk foo's tab..(foo,if u are reading this,u can also join our LGP club for just rm20 a year..and u are also entitled to treat all of the LGP members vodka every week..) +P

chemistry test on the 27th..sending chillers to my spine..

why my yahoo account so empty one..?u ppl never e-mail me lar..see..see??...i feel so lonely..hmmph!!

if i die of loneliness..it's all your fault...

*merajuk*

Listening to lee hom’s ‘Can yOU feel My World’ now..

Made me wonder how many of you out there can understand the feelings I’ve now..

Hmm…let me guess…probably none..coz I have to admit that I don’t even know what I’m feeling now..

Know what I want to do now?..

I feel like running up to the highest hill and shout as loud as possible..there were a couple of times when I feel like doing so,..i put on my running gear and jogged around the field for a few times till I collapsed..to those who have been to UTP’s new sports field..u will have a rough idea about how many miles I’ve ran then..to those who’s not..hmm..let me give u a comparison..it’s 12 times bigger than MGS’s field..hmm…10 times bigger than the pologround..anyway,my point here is not about the size of the field la..i just feel tired inside..i’m getting fed up with my life..frustrated with my own actions..i feel like letting my feelings all out…and I realized that getting drunk is not a solution..i’ll end up having  hangover the next day..(trust me,I’ve gone through that!)

Anyone out there who’s going through the same thing as I am…?

Don’t suffer alone in silence..let’s share..

Yiling,I think we don’t name ourselves as LGP members lar..maybe we should put ourselves as YGP…’Young Girlie Pretty’..hehhe..

Hehhe…

List of the songs which I’ve been listening to whenever I’m in a grumpy mood..

1. Tu Ran Lei Le – Lin Jun Jie
2. Can You Feel My World – Wang Lee Hom
3. Yin Wei – Slyvester Sim
4. Bu De Bu Ai – Pan Wei Bo
5. Mungkin Nanti – Peter pan
6. Fen Kai Lu Xing – Rene Liu
7. The Day You Went Away – M2M
8. Waiting for You – Anson Hu Yan Bin
9. Na Nu Hai Dui Wo Shuo – Huang Yi Da
10. How did I fall in love with you – BSB
11. First Love – Utada Hikaru
12. Wait and see – Utada Hikaru
13. I don’t want to miss a thing – Aerosmith

Maybe you should listen to these songs..it may make you day..might not..but who cares right?

I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING (Aerosmith)

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever

And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this, I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

~dedicate this song to someone..hehhe..actually,my friend kept on blasting this song on her cd player until i also bengang and suddenly tersuka pula..bencinyee...

Drama presentation is tomorrow..consider the date today is 23/10..i’m writing my blog beforehand before going to the computer lab..using my friend’s laptop..no internet access here..so i can only post my blog on Monday or Tuesday..let me declare the ‘death’ of  my laptop which is now broken into 2 pieces…ok..let us now mourn for a minute…

Hehhe..anyway,back to what I wanted to say earlier..drama presentation is tomorrow..and I still can’t get my scene right..was never a dramatic person..you people should know better right..?..hehhe..we have less than 2 weeks to practice and I still can’t get my lines right..if my group’s presentation sucked,I think it’s me who is at fault lar..u can’t really blame me though..i can’t act the romantic scene out lar..and they have to put me in such state..sigh..sigh!! we’ll be having a full-dress rehearsal tonight..and someone in my group kept pestering me to wear a skirt..aiyo..he was like.,

’ angkhian arr..u are a girl ah..have to wear skirt lar..in the drama,u are a corperate woman..and a loving wife..have to be more girlish..and yes,..u have to wear a skirt on that day..look at punchee..she’s so elegant..u know why..?coz she;s wearing a skirt lor..so, u better wear a skirt la..’

I was like wtf..u mean I’m not a girl if I do not wear a skirt lar..izit???and then, I went pissed off with him for one whole week..really lar..he want to kena from me d..always say I look like a guy..then I’ll say oo..at least I look more leng chai..hehhe…oh,wtf..why am I even wasting time talking to him..i wonder..

Anyway,for the drama presentation,we have to present our posters and handouts too..i’ll include my handout here in this blog..but don’t know whether I can upload it or not..coz yiling never taught me how..hehhe..

~thanks,foo..nice to know that u are still around..

hey,everyone..drama presentation went well..slapped  my partner pretty hard..u can actually hear the echo of the slap after that..hehhe..everyone was stunned..even myself..i sometimes underestimate my own strength..

hehhe..will update on my marks after i get hold of them..

hmm..pretty sad lately..having a bad time in fact..can't tell anyone..that's why it's hard for me..have to learn to stop crying myself to sleep...

popped a very easy question to my friends in university one day..

took them 2 minutes to answer me..took another one 10 minutes to answer..took the other a whole night to think..and come knocking on my door at 3 in the morning to answer that question..

so,my question was :

'What is it that I have in me that is able to attract some people?'

hmm..sounds simple huh..?it is..in fact i can give u 100 reasons in 2 minutes..but it took them 2 minutes to give me one..so insulting..i know lar..i'm not good..hmmph...

anyway,the reasons are..

1. You care for people..very much..

2. You are nice to be with..people enjoy your company more than   others'

3. You are nice to have around in a tensed situation.

4. You are not serious about everything..(wtf!) yOU are only serious when u have to

5. You look cool..and some people like hanging out with 'COOL' people.

6. You make dirty jokes all of a sudden..

7. You provide never-ending laughter to our group..

8. coz u are horny..???????

from u people??decent people out there..?

went browsing to some one's blog today..

in her blog,she written something about love hurts..bla..bla..all the thing lar...

ok...let me tell u one thing dear,..

yes,love hurts..i've went through it before and yes,i'm still pining over it..it hurts when someone who u love very much suddenly turns to u and say..'let's quit!i'm sick of everything and i want a new life'..hurts,huh?

BUT

in life,nothing's perfect..i've come to realise that..it's after i suffered a heartache.only did i realise that we can actually be friends..very good friends..i enjoy the company with the person around..love can be something wonderful if u know how to handle it..that's what my dad said..yes,i might have failed once..doesn't mean i'll fail over and over again right?..

yes,dear..if u happened to be reading this..give the person a 2nd chance..when i say a 2nd chance..doesn't mean give the person another chance to hurt u again..but give both of u another chance to feel the power of love again..who knows what will happen in the end?

life's a gamble..play big..

erm..i'm back..no one commented about me..hmm..

sad...

back for  raya-vali holidays for a week..

hmm...actually just came back from kl and genting today..went shopping and met with a couple of friends..was practically hanging out in midvalley the whole day..spend a few hundreds and still can't be satisfied..

THINGS which i've bought in genting and kl:

1. a few discounted shirts from PDI

2. khakis from giordarno

3. 2 pairs of shoes from vincci..heels and a pair of sneakers

4. a few bottles of nails polisher

5. a bangle

6. a brand new watch from nike

7. 2 shirts from hush puppies

and yes,i still crave for the white windbreaker from NIKE..dad said it was way too expensive and not worth buying.erm..it's priced rm185..reasonable eh or isn't it?...my friend asked me to wait for megasales..hmm..guess that would take up alot of patience..hmm..

i watched 2 movies in 2 days..the legend of zorro and all about love..both nice movies..can't wait to watch more though..hehhe..=)