to love or not love,that is not a question...hmm

sad isn't it..?to be in love and not to be together...

how leh...

no love,like want to die..got love also have to cry...

my hypothesis..

the more i grow,the more tears i shed...

guess this is the last entry before i return to uni..

hmm..let;s do a reflection on what i've done for the past few days during my holidays..

i was back on friday night..didn't do much that night coz i was pretty tired...

on saturday afternoon..we went out for lunch..purposely to cheer dai up..we brought her out for lunch instead of dropping by her place..so..there were ME, dahines,mel,mei ling,foo,yeesan,lydia,puiyeen..did i miss anyone??pardon me..i've a bad memory..we went to MP(this MP stands for Moven Peak,and not for Mysterious Person..) for lunch and DO let me comment about the service we got there.First of all..there was this waitress..who came and tell us that one of the set lunch there..which was FISH..something something...comes together with rice as the side dish..so,those who ordered this fish something something..decided to change to lamb chop instead..including me..so,i politely told the waitress that i'd like to change my order and she sort of ignored me..despite her ignorance,i kept reminding her that i'd like to change my order.. when all the others had their proper cutleries for their  food..,i decided to call another 'FRIENDLIER' looking waiter,telling him that i've changed my order and asked him to bring the proper cutleries for me..so,the sort of bitchy looking waitress saw me telling the other waiter came to me,slightly pushing the waiter away,said that she already changed the order and dumped the rightful cutleries on my table..man..i tell you..the place breeds bitches,man..u ppl should go there and have a look..or maybe you shouldn't ..waste of money...

on sunday morning..SUNDAY..kwong hoe..came and fetched me BACK to uni to attend a 3 hour lecture..err..sport science..apparently the last lecture for the semester so we had to go la..give face a bit lar..we were expecting a terrible attendance but turned out that other people also know how to give face wor..the whole 3 hours were spend talking to my fellow friends about how to spend our holidays...after the lecture,dad came with mum and bro to pick me up to go to Kuala Lumpur..HEHHE...i stayed in Citytel,the one which is located beside midvalley..or is it part of it..i don't know la..the whole evening and night,i went shopping in midvalley..the things i've bought was listed in my previous previous entry...at night,me and ivan went to catch a movie..tickets which cost rm11..we watched 'all about love' starring andylau..and some girls..

The next morning ,which was Monday..dad,mum,bro and me went up to genting..and yes,indeed ..i spend the whole day..shopping..minus the 2 hours which i've spend watching 'the legend of zorro' alone..hehhe..

Tuesday..hmm..what did i do on tuesday..i don't really remember..but never mind..we shall skipped that part..

Wednesday..aha..i went to dai's place for lunch..we had really really nice food *thanks dai*...and after the movie,went to jusco to watch movie with yeesan,karmun,shereen,NYET and dai..WE watched doom..or wasn't it.?i'm not really sure..coz i was watching TWO movies at a time..if u know wat i mean..

Thursday morning,..dad,mum,bro,me and granddad went to penang for breakfast and lunch..we had assam laksa,lobak,kueyteow soup,ais kacang,chaokuey teow..for breakfast..lunch we had seafood..it was a one day trip..and yes,i once again did my shopping in Gurney PLaza..ish..addicted to shopping d...Thursday night..i went to izat's place for raya...served nice satay..*thanks zat*..hmm....left quite early that night whereas the others left around 11 something...

Friday..yes..friday..i spend it with my parents..went to jusco to do some shopping for food to bring back to uni..friday night though..i went out with some NS friends in greentown ..did some catching up...

and yes..today's saturday..snuggled with my harry potter book on bed the whold day till i decided to come online and met yiling online..hahhha..

going home tomorrow afternoon...

 

 

 

IMMUNE TO SLUTS, BITCHES AND WHORES...AND YES..BASTARDS..(complimentary for yiling..)

back in utp d..

currently having the time of the month...

having terrible moodswings..just snapped at my friend last night..

aww man...

physics test is tomorrow..6 chapters will be questioned..and how many have i finished?

nil...

i just get to know that my blog has been getting unnecessary attention..i guess i'll privatized my entries from now onwards.. well,u see..not that i want to write things which i don't want people to know about..but these people...they laughed at people's blog..well,..blogging is meant to be fun..not to be laughed at.. it's not that they laughed at mine,but they laughed at someone else'..so..i don't want to be the next... cherio..

Thinking of you (drive myself crazy)  by n'sync

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark
I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame

 lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

I drive myself crazy

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

just had my presentation for thinking skills.. our task was to come up with an innovated,multifunctional,durable and userfriendly umbrella..

and we did very well..

need i say more?..this is our final product that we came out with..the rod of the umbrella actually slides in after using it..this is to prevent hassle especially during a rainy day..to those who have encounter the problem have getting him/herself or the car wet while trying hard to open and close the umbrella..aha!this is the umbrella which will save u that hassle..hahha...

a token of appreciation to group 3+6

1. Kenneth Chai

2. Lee Tze Yang

3. Tan Jia Min

4. Eeo Ai Ting

5. Lim Hwei Ping

6.Stella Anak Jagah

7. Ong Shiou Ting

8. Benny Sia

9. and me!!

let me first explain why our group's name is 3+6...

we have 3 civil engineers and 6 EE engineers in our group..and yes,there are 3 guys and 6 superb girls in this group..hehheheh...need i say more then?

went to some people's friendster page today.

i'm confused with my feelings..

my past is haunting me..

man!!..i hate myself..

i was so in love with this one person..or i thought i was...

left me when i was still so deeply in love..

when i was left,i was slumped to the ground..HARD..

today,i saw the picture of the one i loved..very much..

i don't know why..but there was mixed feelings in me..

are u send down by angels to love me once?

or

are u send by the demons to tear my soul apart?

it has been so long..and yes,i've moved on..

but yet..u kept pulling me back..

i let someone slipped through my hands once because of u..

and now,i've realised that i had made a stupid mistake..

and u know what..

it's all your bloody fault..

yes,go around showing to people that u are happy now..

oh well,..i can't curse u..and why should i?

u just let me go..u missed out on the most valuable thing in this world..

u missed out on me..

 

 

 

FINALS is in TWO WHOLE WEEKS..

TWO WEEKS = 14 DAYS = 7 SUBJECTS = DUNNO HOW MANY CHAPTERS..

and yet,i'm still hogging over the computer..

man...

i'm so screwed...

baby...(u know who u are)

i'm so in love with u now..i want to care for u..let me be the one..

there,i've announced it to the world..

do u believe in me now?

yes..am myself today..

feeling very terrible today..seeing the fact that i've fallen sick since the last 2 weeks and have not consulted any doctor..it's a wonder i still haven't collapsed...

i really missed home cooked food..i think it must be the food around here..i've flu..hot head and body,weak limbs,hoarse voice and yet,i've still a smile hanging on my face.. feel like shouting at the top of my lungs..but not capable of doing so..

*mum,i want to drink 'sai yong choi tong' so badly..*

>>Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree

WEEPING WILLOW (Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy,
>>attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful,
loves
>>to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced
but is
>>not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but
>>finds sometimes an anchoring partner
>>

there's some truth in it..-compliments of pinky

' angkhian, why ah..ur blog ah..so depressed 1..so different from the actual person geh?..why ah?..what's wrong with u wor..?don't like that la..?'

-amusing isn't it..?my friends from uni who obviously have been going to my blog..shot me with these remarks..

what can i say?

u know..blogging is actually a very nice thing to do when u have no one to talk to..it was only that day when i was feeling low..i have no one to turn to but i finally picked my handphone up and text messaged yiling..

of all people,yiling came to my mind when i had no one to turn to..

*thanks,yiling*

someone told me that i have terrible moodswings..ok..not someone..a couple of people..told me that..am i really that bad?so,a couple of snappings can actually make u forget about my constant laughter and smiles and non-sensical (dirty) jokes?

oo boy..

i'm tired of having smiles all the time..that's where my mp3 comes in handy..i purposely hang it over my neck ALL THE TIME to avoid conversations..i personally don't like conversations when i don't feel like it..but sometimes,out of courtesy,i tend to open my mouth..but otherwise,..i don't feel like doing so..it's hard to keep my face straight and say "hie,how are you doing today?"

not so sociable eh?..i've become different from the angkhian i used to be..and sometimes i wonder why..

bah! YOU are the bloody reason.. 

If you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1. Number 1 You are smart, frank, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, friendly, and authoritative. Famous Person always want to be and regarded as First on position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get married when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy, you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous issues!! But make sure in your life, youwill always have some people who will work hard to support. Because of your smart behavior, you will be hated by some people too. Your family life is very cool; you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children. You are Pioneer, Independent & Original. Your best match is 4, 6, 8 good match is 3, 5, 7. - big spender but will have a good profession in the future...hahha..good one..this!..made my day..

can't stop myself from typing la... addicted to blogging..? hehhe..foo must be delighted..!.. sigh..i wonder how's everyone doing now?harry potter's out tonight..but i can't watch..finals' in 2 weeks time..so,..priorities 1st..so..harry potter movie,it shall be!...oops..no..b-o-o-k-s.. it was just last night,i found out about something which have never ever crossed my mind..and i'm still shocked..

i just saw who i lose MP to..

their picture being together..

i feel like laughing..how could have i lose to someone who looks like tat?..

*serves u right*..

-u know what..because i still love you; i hope that the person who was beside u really loves you for who u are..and i hope that this relationship will last happily ever after for both of you..because i never want to see the person i love, cry silently at night..

-because u left me for someone else; i hope that the person turns out to be someone that is terrifying..and you would face many probems while being together..each time u cry, i want my image to be in your mind and your conscious keeps telling u that u shouldn't have left me..

if u happen to be living happily ever after with that person, i wish u all the best and yes, i certainly don't exist in this world anymore..

remember i once told u that even if i don't have you, i want u to carry the guilt for the rest of your life..even now,when i've some sort of moved on..i will never ever forget about what u've done to me..

you broke my heart..the very one which beat for you..

you crushed it..leaving bits and pieces of it behind..

you are the reason i lose faith in love..thanks to you, the world lose one caring and loving person..

~longans..

i saw longans today..my favourite fruit...also known as mata kucing in bm..

longan reminds me alot of stuffs..i remember that there was once..when i was with a FRIEND..we were passing by a market and we saw this fruit stall full with longans..we purposely stopped our car and we walked under the hot sun,just to buy longans..hahha..silly..

in the end,we ended up finishing a whole bunch of longans..sweet memories..

don't know why i post this entry..maybe because it brought back alot of memories..or maybe i was getting bored of sound waves..

in my uni's IRC now..IRC stands for information resource centre..(high-tech name  for library -la)..hehhe..

i'm missing someone now..no,..not MP..someone else..(you should know who you are)..missed your voice..it's just been 10 minutes ago since u hung up,but i'm already missing you..

XP

HEHHE..don't worry k?i'm letting bygones be bygones..

*just want you to know that i won't be letting you go this time..you mean the world to me..for now..=)

*goh,your life seems to be hectic..dimsum some time around december?we can have judy,jin naa,elaine,meiloo,laiyik..the old gang,perhaps?

*yiling,everytime u come back to ipoh,i've no chance in seeing you..so,next time,i'll go down to kl pulak..

*dai,how are u and monyet?..tarak miss me ke?mesti takde la..living in your own world la tu..see you when i'm back la..ok?

*yeesan,..your life also seems to be in a mess..everything's fine?my phone is always availiable..

*puiyeen,..can't attend your 18th birthday party..i know it's jst around the corner..but exams ending on the 6th..i know it's killing you,..it's killing me too..don't worry..i'll make it up to you somehow..SOMEHOW..

*meiling,really need to lepak-lepak with you la..long time no sit down and chat crap..the last time was a really brief one..

*foo..ahh..yes..foo..the most important one..vodka tarak naik harga la..boleh pergi minum-minum..ok?janji nya??

*mel,..nothing to say la..mel..oh yeah..remind me to crave attention from you when u are back k..

--to those who i've not said anything to in this entry is because i've no idea you are visiting my blog..ok?so next time..leave me a note or tag me..ok..

*yes,kahling..i've never forgotten about you..saving the best for last..=)

the subjects which i'll be tested this semester :-

1. Chemistry 1

2. Physics 1

3. Engineering Mathematics 1

4. Thinking Skills

5. Moral Studies

6. English 1

7. Sport Science

..pfft..why la..???...

blogging early in the morning.. class just finished..and yes,it's a saturday..am in the library now..was supposed to be dating with my books..but yet..i can't help but look into the computers section..so here i am.. sigh..

hahha,...can't stop ..so deal with it..hehhe..

i've with a very ham sup lou beside me..hehehe..btw,his name is lennis chan..one of my coursemates..very smart..but you should see his room..it's like a hurricane just went passed him..hehhe..u shud know how teruk he is then..hahha...but he's  a very cool guy to hang out with..can't help to have him around..hehhe..

his new nick is.. 'ham sap lou, boh lam pa..'(translate to hokkien)

a note to lennis: stop calling me ham sap po..ok?..

die lar..have to change new image d..next semester,i'm going to be a whole new not ham sap angkhian..have to be serious d..

hehhe...

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside of you and mess you up. You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you. Then, one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or a smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness. So, simple phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I HATE LOVE

-

taken from someone's page..

how true it isl..

Distance love is never easy,
especially when you are living far apart.
However each mile that seperates 2 person who
truly care,
can be joined with strong love they have got.

The loneliness you feel when you are far apart,
can sometimes easily defeat the love.
This happens especially when you miss someone
who u want to share ur life with,
and when they are not able to be by your side.

Have faith in each other,
and believe that they do feel the same as you.
When you are far apart,
you will easily doubted whether their love is true.

Have faith in each other,
and stand firm with your trust.
Though sometimes it might be tough,
for the sake of long lasting relations, this is a
must.

Think of one another's emotional needs,
let the other knows that you always care.
Make full use of the time when you are together,
open up your heart and share.

Respect that sometimes each of us need some
space,
but it does not mean that they dun want you to be
around.
We all need some privacy on our own,
never says we no longer need the love we used
to share.

Do not let the seeds of jealousy
grow deep in your heart.
If you let this happened,
your relationship will surely be doomed to fall apart.

Be honest to how you feel,
and never lead the other one on.
It is unfair and irresponsible to play around with
other's feelings,
and turn around one day and walk away.

Never give up for your love,
and hold on to what you feel from deep within.
For love that is sincere and strong,
will be held together, no matter how far you are
apart.........

*b..i'll always love you..=)

foo,..just for the sake of reminding you..

4th day in a row,i've been coming online..

hahha...just finished one chapter of chemistry..hmm..what is it..?..i can't even remember the topic's name..got the Le Chatelier's Principle..urm..oh yeah!..chemical equilibria..how could i forget..took me the whole day to finish it..

hehhe...urm...fu shen finally promised to teach me..which means free tutorials..anyway,fu shen is a cute senior who's in 1st year,1st sem..hehhe..or at least, I think he's cute la..hehhe..he's kinda smart-i think..so,..i guess our sessions should be fine..

hmm...1 more week to go..and still 7 subjects to bear..

i'll be coming back on the 10th..

people..please call me out..don't leave me alone in my home during the hols..ok?..

     9.99...

as stated above..that's my individual scoring marks for my drama presentation..and for overall presentation for the group..we have 9.99%..heheh.e..i'm so excited..

special thanks to tzeyang (our script writer..),shiouting,datuk ong kee hui,pinky and ME~!..HAVE to admit..that..i was a 'kayu' at first,.i still remember that me and kee hui had a hard time trying to act the scenes out..hehhe..(couples in love scene very susah one ok..) but tze yang's and keehui's one..damn susah la..gay part..hehhe...

Woke up just to came online..but the stupid call lab has no internet connection today.. Wasted my effort..sigh..and b was waiting for me..told b not to wait for me anymore since there was no connection..can see that b sounded disappointed..but what can I do.. It’s exam week in UTP..so,..the workers assume that no one needs to use the internet-I think..dong dong la..!!hehhe..*b,sorry la..i really meant to come online gah.. Hehehe…so now I’m writing my blog using Microsoft words,then later go IRC baru post it on tabulas la..sigh.. Yesterday, fell sick..coz..no one was here to take care of me..so kesian la..and it was pouring heavily..sigh..sigh..and I had this only blanket threw down the bed..the whole night,I was without my blanket..and the blanket ended up covering my floor..sigh..sigh.. exams in a week more...oops..5 days to be exact..i really need to catch up on my engineering maths..

“Remember the times when we had our long-distance conversations?..                                                                                       when we would spend hours talking,                                                    even when we knew we were going to suffer later to pay the phone bills.. even though the rates were high                                                             but yet we couldn’t resist ourselves..                                                                                                 I still remember the times when we talked..                                                                                                                   I had them all recorded in my handphone.. NOW..                                                                                                   When I checked them, we had 46 sound clips..                                            ALL which contains your sweet voice..                                                When I listened to them yesterday night..                                               When the rain was pouring heavily..                                                      And our favourite song was on..                                                                I realized I have yet to forget about you..                                                 YOU were always a part of me..                                                                                                        And always will be..”

REALLY HAVE TO STUDY LAR....

DIE LA..SO MANY CHAPTERS TO GO FOR PHYSICS..I REALLY CARI MATI LA..

MY FAVOURITE PHRASE..'mati tak berkubur'..

now really makan sendiri d..

sob....

well..let me share what i'm currently reading now:-

The need for a thinking skills course

1. Thinking is the most fundamental human skill.

2. You need thinking to make palns, take initiatives, solve problems, open up opportunities and design your way forward.

3. Thinking is fun and enjoyable-if you learn how to make it so.

4. Thinking is a skill that can be learned, practiced and developed.But you have to want to develope that skill.

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 Thinking vs Intellegence

The belief that intellegence and thinking are the same has led to 2 unfortunate conclusions in education:

1.That nothing is to be done for students with a high intelligence because they will automatically be good thinkers.

2. That nothing can be done for students without a high intellegence because they cannot ever be good thinkers.

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 Intellegence, Thinking and Knowledge

A car anology:-

• Intellegence is like the horsepower of a car.

• Thinking is like the skill of the car driver.

• Knowledge is like the fuel of the car.

 

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and that's only a part of my thinking skills lecture notes..ok..not a part..one slight small part of my lecture notes..sigh..so many things to study..so little time..and why am i updating my blog..?..to satisfy yiling..hehhe..

 

KENNETH, ME AND PINKY..a.k.a SISTER(KENNETH) , BROTHER (ME) AND..MUM IN THE 80's..muahahahah..

my thinking skills group going so gila taking pictures in the computer lab..hehhe..we were so obsessed with ourselves..missing in the picture was stella ..she went back to sleep wor..hehe..malasnya..but nevermind la..still got 5 superb girls..

from the left: tzeyang,aiting,kenneth,me!(khian) jiamin,pinky,shiouting,benny..

Ways to release stress when u study too much till late at night?..

..u know 'kool-fever'; the thing u place on your forehead when you are having fever?..hahha..see what we do with it when we studied too much of physics till middle of the night..

hahha..i find it funny myself too..punchee(on the left) was actually coming down wit fever..so being a caring roommate,i ran over to pinky's room..asked her to bring over some panadol pills.pinky did bring over panadol pills but also brought over 'koolfever'..in a way,i made a comment saying that punchee's not a kid,don't have to use koolfever one..pinky then showed me the box stating that it's for adults..hehhe..turns out that koolfever was meant for kids and adults..hehhe..i didn't know..

so to cut the story short..we stuck the koolfever onto punchee's forehead..then,..(u see..i never use a koolfever before..it contains somesort of gel which absorb your body heat)..so i started to play around with the extras...u know what..i told pinky that it looks like kotex..hehhe..it really does look like it.too bad i didn't snap a picture of it..hehe..then..me and pinky decided to try it on..and stuck onto our foreheads instead..muahhahahaha..man!the feeling was so cold..it's like my head was freezed...so numb..

like soh po's only..

another angle..

and you should see the way i study here in utp..so different from last time..

full of concentration man!...i also can't believe myself..(don't know who snapped my picture)..

pictures that i've long snapped..

ahh!..see..i still have my victoria t-shirt on..hehhe..

me and carina..from malacca..another 'sun-pat' fellow...

edrea's birthday..we celebrated in the field..near the basketball court..opposite the tennis court..hahha..it was a chocalte cake..*yummy!*..that time was..around 12.30 in the morning..wakka..

me and sharon pao..in carina's room..hahha..she ah..damn hamsup..more hamsup than me ah!!...

alright..till here only la..

in an hour more..i'll be having my second paper in the chancellor hall..and you know what i'm doing right now...yes..updating my blog page..haiyor..i had my engineering maths paper yesterday..and it was a flop..let me repeat myself..a F-L-O-P!..THIS is the first time i've ever done my maths paper with answers danggling halfway..so..people,..pray with me that i'll at least pass the paper..so that i don't have to retake another semester..ok?..people..pray for angkhian!..

will be having english paper later..kononny no problem la..but still..hearts are racing..pulse's running..hands shaking..sweat glands working overtime..whoa!..first time being so nervous..aiseh..

confirmed going back to ipoh on the 7th in the morning..then,going for movie marathon..sigh..still haven't watch harry potter and the goblet of fire..heard it was a downer...i don't know la..

i came out earlier from the chancellor hall..45 minutes earlier..not because i didn't know how to answer,..it was because i was having brain freeze inside..my whole body was numb..i never could stand coldness..and yes,i'm sort of angry with this defeciency..my whole hands were numb and i could feel that my receptors were dying slowly..sigh..luckily i finished the paper on time..and get to come out..ah!the wonders of the sun!

paper was fine..or perhaps..i knew how to answer the questions..thinking skills is tomorrow...hmm..burning midnight oil la..i guess...hahha..

since i'm free now..waiting for dinner..i think i should give compliments to my drama group..since we obtained such a high scorring..hahha..who knows..we might change our mind in 5 years time..and decide to grab the oscar award..right?..hehhe..anyway..let me start by telling you our drama's title..

 

 

what you are seeing is our drama poster..hahha..we have to come up with a poster before the drama starts..look closely and u'll see that i'm on the left of the picture..nah..*focus*..

ok..now..let's show u the cast..

the leading characters..supposed to be very lovey-dovey..urm..supposed la..

ok..the whole cast now..with one extra helper..which is STELLa..she helped us by clicking the laptop..changing our slides and our songs..basically doing everything back stage..

the 2 couples..tzeyang and shiouting..me and kee hui..stella and pinky..

*note:in the end..tzeyang and keehui were gays..hahha...