Told ya that my finals are over and yes,being the noisiest bunch and the hyperactive ones, we rushed down to Ipoh after the last paper.

Physics was so-so lar..

But anyway, the point was we rushed down to Ipoh to catch the midnight movie which was at 11.15. The Da Vinci Code.Alright-alright, you people must be thinking that the movie was like shown ages ago but yes, we were having finals at that time and I was getting the pre-exam syndrome when I do not talk to anyone and I kept having these frowns on my forehead.Aww~~..Anyway, we reached Jusco at around 8 something and decided to get our dinners in Kenny Rogers. We spend quite some time there,talking most of the time though and yes, waited till the movie started.I was actually having headache at that moment,with the feeling of throwing up all the while.I didn't sleep for the past 4 days, or rather I was only having 2-3 hours sleep perday.I was exhausted and mentally drained but then again,it was partially my fault for not preparing earlier. However,once the movie started, I was so fascinated that I was able to stay awake the whole movie.Alright,I didn't manage to finish reading the book but then, I think it was fine.
Ooops,before I forget, those who went crazee with me were:
ME-lar, Tzeyang, Punchee, Carina, Shea Teng and Kee Hui

[Punchee and Tzeyang was qualified to hold the camera coz we didn't want them to be in the picture..*shh...don't tell them..)

After the movie,which was roughly around 2,we headed to find shelter. The first stop was the Fair Park Hotel but the rates were too high and the building looks shabby..So the 2nd suggestion which was from me,was the Ritz Garden Hotel and we got this standard superior room which costs us rm165 a night,that comes with a king size bed and an extra mattress that we requested. 6 of us were crammed into the small room with almost no air to breathe.It took us 40 minutes to get prepared for the next activity which was the not so decent one..err..drinking and playing sessions.Go figure yourself!

[tzeyang was having a hard time waking up Punchee..aha!Now he knows the thing I do every morning to drag her to class eh?]

We slept around 5 something,with the original plan of having dimsum in the morning.All of us woke up at around 10,having to know that both tzeyang's and sheateng's car got a ticket each for not putting any coins into the parking meter.There goes an expensive parking space!! It took some people a very long time to get dressed for breakfast but no,no dimsum that day. Some of them losed their money in the little genting session so, being the host, I brought them to 'Kong Heng' in Old town.Shea teng wanted to eat Kai See Hor Fun and there was where I could think of at that moment.

Original plan was we were supposed to go to the Sam Poh Toong and do our toong-toong sessions but we were too tired and yes,caves are not fun at all. Plans were changed so abruptly that sharon and her ahem was asked to not to come at all. They did come too but all of us decided to go to Jusco to catch X-Men 3.Before that, we went to the Ipoh Airport to send Kenneth off to Kuching. 

I managed to see Nyet and Dai on the way entering the Jusco Cinema and yes, NYET put off weight (at least that was what I was told).Dai told me that the rests were in Kenny Rogers waiting for her and yes, I was crushed for not being asked to come out..sob..sob...Anyway,being the not-malu-type, I crashed in,having to see Mel, Dai,Meiling,Yeesan,Nyet and Lydia coming in later.I was a little embarassed actually coz the night before We came for dinner in Kenny Rogers with the same clothes I was wearing that day.Whoa.

We caught the movie and yes, It left me in awe. Hehhe..First time watching X men and I was so fascinated again. After the movie, Pei Chie send me a message from UTP,asking me whether I was free for dinner. Plans were totally 360^o changed.Tzeyang drove me back like an ambulance frantically asking people to leave their lanes free.Hahha..I think only a few of us knows why. Peichie came and fetch me for dinner in Tronoh;her treat and yes, we had a good time laughing or rather, I was the one being laughed.My jokes seem to crack her up and it was warm to know that she was enjoying my company.It really makes me high to know that I made someone's day..=)
Had to return to campus at 8 because she has this debate discussion going on but she promised me breakfast together the next day. This time, I offered to pay for the meal. Went back to my room after dinner and cleaned up the room. I had to pack as I was leaving the very next day.Take note that I didn't have any decent rest since the past week. I was again,asked to go for a mamak excursion. Went there,did the usual stuffs but then,this time there were lesser laughters as I saw something ugly before walking out from the campus to the mamak stall.Those who were there knows and yes,please let the number of people to remain the same k? Came back and we decided to talk for a while.We sat on the Tar Road in front of the main hall,had this little heart to heart talks and yes,there were tears but names shall not be revealed. We shifted the location to the other car park in front of v1-D and yes,they were supposed to accompany me to wait for Peichie at 8.30 to come pick me up for breakfast.When the whole group decided to leave,it was already 8.15 a.m. I rushed up the room and quickly grab a shirt. She called 10 minutes later,telling me she's already here. Had another time laughing with her.She has this much faith and trust in me that she told me a couple of her personal stuffs which made me felt happy and trustworthy. Frankly,I was not even close to her only until EDX but that was only superficial friendship.

Came back from Breakfast but found being locked out by Punchee. Her dad was already here and she left her key inside the room with mine inside too. I was locked out!~~ I went to the office to take the key and yes, an inevitable fine of rm10. Darn!!Simple money making scheme!!!!...Finally got into it and clear my stuffs.Packed nicely;easy transportation.Left UTP around lunch hour and had lunch in Ipoh with tzeyang and carina.Send her back home in Medan Gopeng and we bid farewell.

Now,sitting here,my eyes are swollen, dark eye rings and yes, a slight increase in body temperature..I think I'd better catch some sleep.
Will continue later.

 

The whole TANG family changed their handphones today..

except for me, of course..

Dad was in a generous mood that he bought himself, mum and bro a brand new handphone each..and for me..erm..nothing..I guess I was contented with my Nokia 3230....NOT!..but i just didn't feel like buying a new phone yet..hehhe..

Went back to UTP for the last time this semester to clear my stuffs..Managed to get Dad's pajero and drove them there..Wanted to go there alone, but then I'd need people to carry my stuffs down to the car..So, i brought mum and dad along. Hahaa..Wanted to go there alone coz Pei chie suggested earlier that we should go for lunch some time if ever I come back to uni BUT i can't make it..Needed to bring my parents along,so..hehe..So, I packed my stuffs quickly and loaded them into the car.Drove back and just before I passed Lahat, Pei chie called me,asking my whereabouts..I told her and she was like so disappointed.She wanted to follow my car along to ipoh to get to her uncle's place..hehe..too bad la..but if my parents were not around, I'd have probably take a U-turn and fetch her la..Nice to have her as a accompany..hehhe..

Came back and went to jusco to get the handphones.Had lunch in Sushi King and yes, shopping was done.

Ever had this feeling of ...erm..heavy heart..as in..you feel this hsavy feeling inside your chest and your mood would drop to level zero because of some particular reasons..You have no idea why you are feeling this way because things are just happening as it is and it should be, but you just can't seem to feel sad inside..
This heavy feeling which i called it,--it's hard to describe but I think you'll know what it is like when that feeling comes to you..It's like your heart still beats but each beat hurts deeply..It's like you are breathing but each breath you take needs a long time to get in..I just don't know how to tell you the feeling i had for the past few days..
Yes, I was happy if you were reading my past entries..But I can't seem to help feeling this way..
Have you encounter the experience of meeting someone which you have never dreamt of meeting?..You know that being with that someone is another mission impossible 4 but yet,you can't help falling deeper for that particular person..You have never been so close to this person but yet, you enjoy this particular person's company..Can't wait for the time to pass by just to see this someone..Every morning,you'll be waiting for a sms from this person and yes, you tend to send a message like every hour?..hmm..I dare not say that this is another phase in life because I am confused with what I am feeling right now..Talking to people whom Do not really understand what it's like to lose someone important in life,but yet still living,is difficult.They will not understand the fear of losing someone over and over again..what's more,the feeling of wanting someone but yet, deep down,you know it's a mere dream to fantasize about being with someone..
Someone whom has already have someone else in mind.

Excuse me for this sad,yet boring post of mine.I just needed someone to talk to, alright..maybe virtually..but still,I needed to let my feelings out..

Someone once told me,
" Loving someone is one thing; having to be with someone is another.If everytime you love someone,and all you want is to be with him/her, you'll be a very busy person. I love him and I know he loves me too,but there are some things about him which I am not able to accept. I hinted too much already to continue telling him. If he loves me, he'll change.."

Sometimes, loving someone doesn't mean you have to own someone.To me,things are in a different perspective. To hell the phrase of, if you love someone, let him/her go.If he/she's yours,he/she will return to you someday.Pure bullshit.I believe in achieving something which you have worked for.You think the God will just drop something down the sky if you believe more? To me, if you love someone and the love is mutual,just get together.Silly you may say,but yet,love was meant to be simple,uncomplicated.If love is a complicated issue, what's more with other matters? Can't we see things in a simpler mind frame?

I dare not say I love you yet, (because I have a very deep scar on my heart) but yet, you made me felt that you are the right one.The right one whom I think I want to spend my time with.

All i can say is this might or might not be an infactuation..

Should I let my feelings out or like what Carina said, is it worth taking the risk?

I wish you'd read my blog so that I don't have to tell you how I feel and perhaps, to face the rejection that I will probably get.

Hehhe, this is one of the depressing posts again..Or perhaps, not..

I guess, I don't really have the patience bone in me..I waited for a long-waited text message for the whole day..but no, I didn't get it.I guess, I'll just have to wait for it tomorrow..and if It doesn't come by then, maybe another tomorrow, and tomorrow..and perhaps,till it comes..

My dad once told me that I am a person who is afraid to see failure.I am afraid to face a fall, and perhaps, if I DO happen to face one, I'll most probably resort to running away from it. I guess, my parents understand me the most.They know how exactly I am..I am in fact, a perfectionist in nature.I want things to be done, the best..if not,better. I may seem to be a happy-go-lucky person outside,who talks nonsensical facts all the time but yet,deep down, i strive, not to be the best but yet,better than the rest.Hahha..As I grew older, I no longer am able to be the best among all; I just want to excel.Everytime I see my test results being returned,Deep down,i knew i can do better,though i never showed it out but yet, i felt crushed inside out. I struggled,just to be able to be on the surface,but not rising above the water.Sad but true.Sometimes, i fear if one day, I'll just drown inside.I guess,it's time for me to learn swimming.

I saw suetmei today,with her grandparents. I could hardly recognise her,i thought I made a mistake.She was so thin and yes,and still as fair. So thin.Aww man,how I wished I was in her shoes body..Looking back to my own reflection,Sigh..Just so disappointed,man!..i felt so low that I went to get myself a haircut..(ok,that doesn't make sense).I looked..erm..horrible,but mum reckoned that I look much better in this.So i guess,that haircut makes me look more like a girl.Hiyyukk!

Punchee texted me,asking me to go to KL for a holiday because pinky will also be there for 5 days.Whoa.5 days there and I only have rm150 in my wallet.I told her I'll try to make it,probably going down on the 7th.On the way to Melaka on the 9th for the Rotaract business..and yes,come back as a pauper.There goes my U2 jacket which I was eyeing on. Costs rm199.Was so close in buying it but it ran out of size M. Bedebah!.. 

Anyone interested in coming to the installation of Rotaract Club of Universiti Teknologi Petronas (RACUTP)? I'll be there.It's held in Casuarina.Tickets price at rm50 each.Call me if u are interested.

 

i just dropped my laptop onto the floor.Dented.
I scolded the floor for like 2 minutes,stopped because I realised my brother was watching. I looked at him,started to scold him. He shrugged and just walked away,i think I saw a smirk on his face.

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Forgive me if I scared you with my little story just now.I think I must be going out of my mind to be talking to objects.Just 2 days ago,I was talking to my handphone.I was like,
" Hey,you idiot! Why didn't you ring???Ring la..Ring la please.." (stare at it for a few minutes)

Shikes!!If the phone was alive, it must be thinking,
"Whacko!"

Silly but true.
(kelly Clarkson's 'Because Of you' is on now)

I hate holidays when I have all these excess time thinking of the past and unnecessary,unwanted history.And there's future to think about.

Just went to someone's multiply page recently.It's a wonder how someone can miraculously turned from a nice person to someone who's ignorant now.Aww man..

Just in case if I didn't announce my holiday before,here it is now.
I'll be back for 2 months here,having a long break from everything but then again,coming back to Ipoh--a place which I do not want to be at..Sigh,i guess God is just.He take away your misery and change it into another form.Abiding the law of energy: Energy cannot be destroyed;only changed its form.OH man.

Leaving to KL on the 7th.She's leaving on the 10th.
Can only meet when the time permits.But then again,things will remain the same.Like how it is now.

wtf.

Leaving to KL tomorrow at 9.30 a.m.
Supposed to meet Punchee at KL central tomorrow but this time,I am a little nervous.Something is just not right this time.Don't feel like going because something sort of asking me not to.I wonder why.But then again,tickets have been brought;AAAHH...perhaps,i'm just thinking too much.Waayyy too much..
This holidays I was supposed to stay at home.don't go anywhere..Dad was not pleased with the idea that I was leaving to KL tomorrow and for 4 days.Going to Melaka on the 9th but I doubt he has any idea about that plan.Sigh..I guess,some details are meant to be discreet.

I thought of that someone today again.I send 2 sms today but not a reply.Hmm..I guess,patience is the key right now.

Tzeyang asked whether I was in for this.Real towards this someone.I dare not answer.I was not confident but yet,I can't explain why I kept thinking of this person.Hmm..It could be an infactuation which hopefully,goes away as time goes by,or it could be the one who will erase MP permanently.I guess,time can only do the telling.

Went out with seong chen for supper just now.Had yumcha session in Maria's and yes,we talked alot..as usual.
Met with the loss adjustor regarding my accident which was like a year ago.He asked for my statement.Dang!I could hardly remember what happened the week before and now,I am trying to remember what happened a year ago.Hmm..and I was sleepy while talking to him.Sigh.

I guess that's all for today.Not updating for like 5 days.My absence shall not be missed.

Writing an entry in Punchee's place.
I arrived in KL around 1 and yes,they were already in pudu when I arrived.We went to KL sentral to park punchee's car and get on the Monorail to Sungai Wang.We had our lunch in Delifrance and went on a shopping spree.It was a real challenge as I have only rm150 in my pocket to last me till this Sunday.Some of you may think that rm150 is nothing but then again, I have to survive till I end my trip in Melaka.Whoa.Big deal you know.

However, I managed to buy a pair of long pants in 3.6 which was on sale that only took rm30.10 from my wallet.Hmm..so, I guess, i have to 'ikat perut' today.We were supposed to go for supper after a short nap in punchee's place..but then,the next minute we woke up was at 11 something..So,plans were cancelled.Being around in punchee's place makes me feel happy.She has these wonderful sibblings which really makes the whole family fun and happy.Both her younger sisters are good to communicate and yes,to fool around with.Punchee was so afraid of me being alone with her sisters due to some certain circumstances..hehe..only God knows why..so she never leaves me alone with them..hmm...

Lunch later is solely sponsored byt tzeyang. We'll be going down to Klang this morning..which is later after I drag Pinky out from the bed..He's going to treat us BAk kut teh (meiling,if u are reading this,please please,this has nothing to do with your earlier entry)..hehhe..and yes, because his mum wants to meet me..his mum has been hearing about my story so much that she's interested in meeting me in person..Hmm..I wonder why eh?...irresistable,am I ?..HEHE..aFTER klang,it's off to 1U for another round of shopping spree.....For pinky,ofcourse..haha..I'll just be there..hanging around with nothing mind but to save my money.Tonight,punchee's gonna bring me to this pasar malam which she claimed to be the longest in the streets..and yes, eating spree then.!!yahoo!..that's my type of holiday!!..

Gonna meet suet yeng tomorrow in pudu.and yes,now to drag pinky out from the bed.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

 

whoa..this is freaking me out man...wayyy too true..

Reached home today at 2 pm.Finally.

Been to KL and Melaka for the past 5 days and yes, I didn't have enough sleep.I was so pooped with all the shoppings and yes,exercising my jaw muscles with eating,eating and eating..Thanks to punchee who offered me shelter and brought us around KL..hehe..i shall keep her driving skills discreet because mummy said it's not nice to laugh at people's driving skills..hmm..so,you people don't laugh ok?

Been to SS2's pasar malam, 1U, sungai wang plaza, low yat,klang to eat bak kut teh, somemore where ah?I don't really remember but I had a great time with Both pun thon and pun jing and also her boyfriend in Sunway..They offered me company which I can't ask for more and yes, i really really enjoyed myself.Hmm..hehe..

Left KL on friday.Waited for suet yeng to come to KL sentral to go to 1u to meet Rotarian Arthur.Punchee and pun thon have to leave earlier due to certain reasons..(*punchee,if u are reading this,cheer up k?)..Left for Malacca and ate the famous cendol opposite the red colour building..i don't know what is it called..the stadhuy's building??or something like that..?After that, we rushed to the old folk's home..dunno what centre Cheng..sigh and there, we did our activities with the old folks which kinda remind me of my grandparents here..I really need to spend more time with them..after all the business,we went to take our dinner and then to Jonker street..Damn suet yeng,made me drop my candy on the ground..and yes,..miraculously, I met benny in Malacca..haha..so far also can meet leh..hehe..

Stayed overnight at Rtrn Arthur's place..in Kelana square..with me trying to stop suet yeng sleep the whole night..she was so angry that she poked me till I promised to stop bugging her..haha..

shall blog more some other time..Mom's bugging me to eat her tong sui..ish..oklar...

*That someone...is in KL now..hahha..probably coming down to iPOH and yes, ..having a drink together perhaps..yahhoooooo!!!

Having the luxury of owning a camera phone, I have always believed that pictures should be taken anywhere,at anytime..Therefore, having to spend my thursday afternoon in 1U together with tzeyang, punchee,pinky and boonhow, i fiddled with my camera phone alot.Seeing that I was out of place..u know..tzeyang and punchee..pinky and...you know..hehe..i was sorta out of the place la..being the lightbulb of the day..hehe..oklar..pinky and the guy nothing one la..just want to create the mood..hehe..

Before we left for 1U,punchee had to pick tzeyang up in Klang. We dropped punjing off in UTAR,who happens to be punchee's sister early that day and drove to Klang.Technically,punchee did the driving and yes, both me and pinky did the shouting.I guess you know why..haha..aha! refer to my previous post about not laughing at people's driving skills.So, shh...haha..we dropped by at tzeyang's place to see his mum and both his mum and I talked as if we were good old friends,despite the big age gap.hehe..we went for bak kut teh which is what klang is famous for,besides its port.

I still think the one in Ipoh taste better but then again,it's good to try..besides,the lunch was on tzeyang which is rare!..hehe..(ok,he treats me icecream once in a while though..)

After that, we rushed to 1U to meet up with boonhow and the shopping spree began.I too, was of course, there to do my annual shopping,even with only rm150 in my wallet.=P
Let's not go to what i have bought la k?It'll take up the whole space..

There was this promotion about the movie, 'Cars'.
Still deciding whether to watch it or not..

Boonhow was trying to provoke me the whole day.He kept pointing out those 'kain-less' shirts for me to try on..when he know that i don't have the body size and shape to get into one..wth..I so wanted to strangle him but then,i forgot,we were not in UTP.

He wanted to give me a treat to compensate his nuisance but then, i couldn't fit into the ride..hmm...

and for my readers..just a treat for always coming to my blog though I know who you people are..this is the 1st time you probably catch me in this and yes,the chances of seeing it for real would be pretty low..so..you people better open your eyes widely..

Tzeyang said I look like an aunty..bedebah punya budak..but actually i still think i look better in guys' wear though..aih..but then,once in a lifetime,must at least wear a skirt ma right..or else,regret later..hehe..so,feast your eyes..

 

My mum replaced my old wardrobe when I was not around and when i came home, I noticed a small box lying on the floor.
The very box which I put all the letters that MP once wrote to me.
The very box which I didn't want to see anymore.
The very box which I wanted to hide so badly..
But now, the very box is out.

I picked it up and placed it on my study desk.
I opened the box and in there,as I have expected,the letters which MP once written to me.
The letters which signify MP's love, care and support.
To me.

I was torn apart to continue digging deeper.
Part of me wanted to glance through;but part of me wished the box was out of sight.
The other part took control of me.I opened each letter and read each and every word.
Each letter/note was full of love.
Full of us.

Tears rolled endlessly after that.After the last word in the last letter, i begun to shake..I was badly shaken that I lied down on my bed.
I wanted this to stop..I don't want to be a weakling.
Don't want this to be in the way of my life.

I just wanted to be normal,just like everyone else.

It took me half an hour to realise that I was a fool.
Half an hour to wipe my tears dry.
Half an hour to put those unnecessary thoughts away.
Half an hour to stop staring at that piece of blade.

I put the box back into the new cupboard.
Locked.
Many told me to burn the letters which are no longer any means to me.
But i refused.
I want these to be part of my growing up.
It may be painful but before all these, I was happy with MP.
We were inseparable.In love.
The love is gone now but yet,I love MP.
but only this time,it's one sided.

I still wonder whether MP reads my blog.
Maybe MP does,or maybe not.

SUPPOSE that, if you've seen more than 80 movies, YOU HAVE NO LIFE. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 168 movies in this list. Total up your score at the bottom and tag other people.

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(  )  Rocky Horror Picture Show
(  )  Grease
(X)  Pirates of the Caribbean
(  )  Boondock Saints
(  )  Fight Club
(  )  Starsky and Hutch
(  )  Neverending Story
(  )  Blazing Saddles
(  )  Airplane
(  )  My First Mister
(  )  The Virgin Suicides

Total : 1

(  )  The Princess Bride
(  )  AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(  )  Napoleon Dynamite
(  )  Labyrinth
(  )  Saw
(  )  Saw II
(  )  White Noise
(  )  White Oleander
(  )  Anger Management
(    50 First Dates
(X)  The Princess Diaries
(X)  The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total : 2

(  )  Scream
(  )  Scream 2
(  )  Scream 3
(X)  Scary Movie
(X)  Scary Movie 2
(X)  Scary Movie 3
(X)  Scary Movie 4
(X)  American Pie
(X)  American Pie 2
(X)  American Wedding
(X)  American Pie Band Camp

Total : 8

(X)  Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer's Stone
(X)  Harry Potter 2: The Chamber of Secrets
(X)  Harry Potter 3: The Prisoner of Azkaban
(X)  Harry Potter 4: The Goblet of Fire
(  )  Resident Evil I
(  )  Resident Evil 2
(  )  The Wedding Singer
(  )  Little Black Book
(  )  The Village
(X)  Lilo & Stitch

Total : 5

(X)  Finding Nemo
(  )  Finding Neverland
(  )  Signs
(X)  The Grinch
(  )  Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(X)  White Chicks
(  )  Butterfly Effect
(X)  13 Going on 30
(  )  I - Robot
(X)  Robots
(  )  Artificial Inteligence

Total : 5

(  )  Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(  )  Universal Soldier
(X) Lemony Snicket:A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(  )  Along Came Polly
(  )  Deep Impact
(  )  KingPin
(X)  Never Been Kissed
(X)  Meet The Parents
(  )  Meet the Fockers
(  )  Eight Crazy Nights
(  )  Joe Dirt
(X)  King Kong

Total : 4

(X)  A Cinderella Story
(X)  The Terminal
(X)  The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(  )  Passport to Paris
(  )  Dumb & Dumber
(  )  Dumber & Dumberer
(  )  Final Destination
(  )  Final Destination 2
(  )  Final Destination 3
(  )  Halloween
(  )  The Ring
(  )  The Ring 2
(  )  Surviving X-MAS
(X)  Flubber

Total : 4

(X)  Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(  )  Practical Magic
(  )  Chicago
(  )  Ghost Ship
(  )  From Hell
(  )  Hellboy
(  )  Secret Window
(  )  I Am Sam
(  )  The Whole Nine Yards

Total : 1

(X)  The Day After Tomorrow
(X)  Child's Play
(X)  Seed of Chucky
(X)  Bride of Chucky
(  )  Ten Things I Hate About You
(X)  Just Married
(  )  Gothika
(  )  Nightmare on Elm Street
(  )  Sixteen Candles
(  )  Remember the Titans
(  )  Coach Carter
(  )  The Grudge
(X)  The Mask
(X)  Son Of The Mask

Total : 7

(  )  Bad Boys 2
(  )  Joy Ride
(  )  Se7en
(X)  Ocean's Eleven
(X)  Ocean's Twelve
(  )  Identity
(  )  Lone Star
(  )  Bedazzled
(  )  Predator I
(  )  Predator II
(  )  The Fog
(  )  Ice Age
(X)  Ice Age 2: The Meltdown

Total : 3

(X)  Independence Day
(  )  Cujo
(  )  A Bronx Tale
(  )  Darkness Falls
(  )  ET
(  )  Children of the Corn
(  )  My Boss' Daughter
(X)  Maid in Manhattan
(  )  Frailty
(X)  War of the Worlds
(X)  Rush Hour
(X)  Rush Hour 2

Total : 4

(  )  Best Bet
(X)  How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(  )  She's All That
(  )  Calendar Girls
(  )  Sideways
(  )  Mars Attacks
(  )  Event Horizon
(  )  Ever After
(X)  Forrest Gump
(  )  Big Trouble in Little China
(X)  The Terminator
(X)  Terminator 2
(X)  Terminator 3

Total : 5

(  )  X-Men
(  )  X-Men 2
(X)  X-Men 3
(X)  Spider-Man
(X)  Spider-Man 2
(  )  Sky High
(  )  Jeepers Creepers
(  )  Jeepers Creepers 2
(  )  Catch Me If You Can
(  )  The Others
(X)  Freaky Friday
(X)  Reign of Fire
(X)  Cruel Intentions
(  )  Cruel Intentions 2
(  )  Cruel Intentions 3
(X)  The Hot Chick
(X)  Shrek
(X)  Shrek 2

Total: 6

(  )  Swimfan
(  )  Miracle
(  )  Old School
(  )  The Notebook
(  )  K-Pax
(X)  Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X)  Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X)  Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(  )  A Walk to Remember
(  )  Boogeyman
(X)  The 40-year-old-virgin

Total: 4

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GRAND TOTAL : 59

CONCLUSION : Below 80,..means i have a life?aiks?i thought the more movies you watch,the more cool and hip u are..no?

*I am tagging no one.I am ONLY doing this for Goh.

I was watching the box this morning.."
alright, the box as in the tv set; not the i-dont-want-to-see box..
I was watching ch34, titled 'Vengence'
Some old series that were aired last time and re-aired..

So, this story is about this girl and this guy la..So,this girl made a mistake and the guy, being her boyfriend, took the blame and was jailed instead. This guy asked the girl to wait for him till he was released.
However, as predicted, where got girls wait for so long one? She got closed with the rich men and one of the younger rich ones went after her. She got together with this rich guy.
The guy who was her boyfriend, came out from prison, hoping to see his girlfriend but then, his heart was broken upon seeing his girlfriend who turned to a money-minded person,with her new rich boyfriend.
The guy's heart was crushed with the girl's action but he didn't know,the reason why the girl was doing all these,was to take revenge over the rich guy's dad.
The rich guy's dad happens to be the girl's parents killer.
The girl was however,still in love with the guy..but she couldn't voice her feelings out..
I hate this kind of soap opera la..
In love yet can't be together.

Dang!

It's sad that I have to read people's blog to know what's happening in their daily lives..I just finished reading someone's multiply page but there was no updates.She wouldn't pick up my calls, there were no replies..and yes, I went down to KL hoping to catch her working,but nope, I couldn't see her.I read her multiply's page only to know that she has finally settled down in Ipoh. I wonder what went wrong between the both of us..
Yiling asked me to cool down things between both of us but hey, what went wrong?If she has gotten a boyfriend in KL,that doesn't mean we can't keep in touch, can we?It's sad because before this, we had this bond,..i told her a lot of my stuffs and we could chat like 2-3 hours every night.I felt that she understands me but now,turns out that we were nothing but a lie.
No,don't get me wrong.We are not a pair; a couple..but we were only friends.Good friends.Sometimes when i get so frustrated,i just want to type her big name out,hopefully the whole world is able to locate her for me but then again,she has a reputation to uphold and I can't be that selfish,can I?

Sometimes, i just want to post:-
" [insert my friend's name here], where the hell are you?!!!you are not replying my messages and answering my calls!!..You have a boyfriend,so what???all i want is to know what happened between the both of us..why the cold treatment all of a sudden????"

Well, i wonder if she still reads my blog..Hmm..i know she used to do so but i wonder if she still does the same..I hope i was able to get the message across..erm..and yes, if matters get worst, i'll probably go to her place and ask for an explanation.Some of you may asked why am i being so upset for a girl; a girl who doesn't even give a damn even though u have send numerous smses, thousands of calls..
That's not the point. The point is I don't want to lose someone whom I can talk to.Someone who understands understood my jokes and laughs at them.Someone who listens listened to my cryings..Someone who cares cared for me..

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I am freaking tired today. Went out with seong chen to watch 'OVER THE HEDGE' which costs us RM8 perticket for only an hour's movie.Hahha..but the movie was funny and well,worth the trouble and money.I walked around Parade after that,hoping to get the things I want.A sling bag.I managed to find a couple of designs which I wanted but I did not want to make a harsh decision.So, i decided to put the idea off for the moment and went back early to sleep.I was so tired today that I didn't talk much to seong chen throughout the day.I guess, I was exhausted and still recovering from lackness of sleep when I was in KL.haha..

Have to go to the market tomorrow to help my grandmother. Family business. She does the manufacturing of err..what do u call those..Fish balls, the assortment of fish delicacies..aiya,what's the word for those..but then,i know you probably understand them.Have to be in the market at least at 5.30a.m to help her out.However,I am still deciding though.

The bed or the market?

Have to return to MGS on tuesday to talk to Pn.Sivaprasanna (the principal la..don't know what's her name la)..Rotaract Club of UTP will be having our installation this August and Sunil,the president needs performances.Rtn Arthur suggested the Angklung team from MGS to come and perform.Hehhe..Angklung is somesort of music instruments made out of bamboo--what MGS is famous for.The Angklung team. and then after that, have to go KAMDAR to meet up with suet yeng for some reasons.Can't review them though.

-Time to stop now.Prison break episode 3 tonight.

Well,alright,i know DRA was like twlight years ago..but then, i was reading Freddy's blog page and noticed that he has uploaded the pictures of DRA so,I decided to post some of the pictures in DRA la..

Picture of the all the Rotaractors who were present that day.

 
This picture taken when the whole RACUTP rotaractors were on stage;waving RTN arthur's famous wave..hehhe..

THE rotaractors of Seremban and UTP. 2 whacko bunch.!

RACUTP, RAC DAMANSARA,and RACSEREMBAN
[RAC camplang!!]

>>really learnt alot after I joined Rotaract CLub.Met with loadsa of working people and get to know myself a lil better.

 

I was awaken by a simple message on my phone.

Jiamin told me something which I can't help feeling slight disappointment in my heart.I think she deserves it though but I just can't help but felt a slight jab on my heart.

*Jiamin, congrats,k?*

shall update tonight,that's if i am not too upset.

I was waiting at a coffee shop just now because i tapao-ed something for my brother.At the counter, i couldn't help but notice that there was a shelf of cigarettes lined inside them.And at the tables, i saw men,with boxes of cigarettes on the table,and in each hands,they were busy shuffling the butts in their mouths.
At that moment, I was so tempted to dig some money in my wallet, and purchase one box myself.There were so many different brands on the racks: Salem, Marlborro,Peter.S, Dunhill,etc.Hahaa.there were so many different brands that I don't even remember all.I kept debating with my inner self,whether to buy a box or not..i REALLY wanted to taste the actual feeling of having smoke goes down my throat and then exhale the smoke out.
The men seem to be enjoying themselves.Though there were thousands of ads,warning people the hazard of smoking,yet In the streets, people are still not worried about their health,and yes,boxes and boxes of cigarettes are still being sold everyday.

Why?..

I remembered when I was back in High school,the teachers always asked us to write essays about the hazard of smoking,the reasons why people should not smoke and you know,that type of questions.The usual reasons are always--their health,cigarettes contain nicotine,turpentine,don't know what other components, a wastage of money, their bad breath,yellowish teeth and fingers,affects the others who are not smoking, bad for their children.How come even after writing so many essays as such, school children still smoke after school? Even degree holders, university graduates, PHD holders,doctorates--they smoke though knowing such hazards of smoking.

At that moment, i took my wallet out,saw a few pieces of rm50 note,but i couldn't seem to find an amount of RM 3.20 to get a box of Mild Seven.
Why Mild Seven?--because according to some of my smoker friends, mild seven is usually for girl smokers because it's Mild.(hehhe!)
I was in deep thoughts to whether to give the man, a brand new RM50 dollar note, or just walk off with what I wanted to tapao-ed earlier.

At that point also, I was doing some mental calculations in my head.I was thinking what if I get hooked onto smoking,will my allowance be able to cover this extra expenses..Smoking was never in the budget.I was also thinking whether this will hurt my family because in my family tree, none, and I mean,NONE of them smoke. Not my uncles,not my aunties,not even my cousins and my family is a very big one.Amazing huh?But then again,I am so under stress now,smoking cures stress,right?At least,that's what my friends told me.Or that's what the advertising companies want us to think.

I once told Peichie while we were having breakfast together,that I might want to try smoking soon.Guess what she did to me?
She hit my arms.
Whoa.!Like me and her very close wor..But then again, i know she wanted me to stop having such thoughts.

In the end,guess what I did.
I kept the money back,thinking of the sling bag in Radioactive that i was eyeing on for a very long time.
And perhaps,come back again the next time,having such thoughts crossing my mind again.

Since World Cup is here right now, I can't stop wondering about something.

Don't get me wrong; it's not like I do not like football but I won't spend my nights up,watching football.

I can't help wondering whether Malaysians who are abroad now,
those who are in London, supporting the England team.
All those who are in Germany, supporting the Germany team..
and those who are in [insert country's name], supports [insert the country's team]

Hmm..but can't blame them also la..Malaysia team isn't able to qualify for it also.

The day started early today.
As early as 6 a.m.
Went out for breakfast with my dad,
Met with my grandmom in the market after that.
Helped her out for half and hour,
Then SuetYeng came with her Saga and off we went to MGS.
Met that Pn.SivaPrassana and we talked business
Finally when everything was done,we went to AMC,
Talked to a couple of teachers and managed to meet up with my mum before we left.
Incase you didn't already know,my mum is a 'lao shi' in AMC.
Went to kill 4 hours in Parade.
Bought a ring which doesn't fit(only realised when I came home), a choker, and a pair of shorts from Oreef.
Lunch was in Sushi King.
Went to Kamdar after that~~for some Rotaract Business..
Met with the children of the Home that we were sponsoring..
The kids were nice;Obedient, disciplined.
Finally reached home at 6 p.m
--Exactly half a day.

p/s: Oh yeah, I really hate stuck up adults.
       Brainless yet they don't realised.

Day started early this morning too..
At 6 in the morning.
Went to the market to help my grandma out.
There were so many people today.
I was talking to the aunties walking past by.
Smiling to each and everyone of them.
My grandma, as usual, chatting with her neighbours of her stall..
I had my MP4 hung over my neck while playing with my phone.
This aunty who happens to be the neighbour is very annoying.
Kept telling my grandma about the luxurious things she has done,
the numerous trips she has taken with her friends,
Went out to the most expensive dinner in dunno-where..
My grandma was so kelian to be stuck there,not knowing what to do but to listen to her babblings..
My grandma doesn't even like her,and secretly told me before that she doesn't like that woman.

I was minding my own business though because I was trying to tolerate the annoyance and prayed that the day will be over soon.
I continued playing with my phone and listening to the music.

It was up to one point that my temper were raised by that stupid f**king woman.
She was talking as usual,telling the magnificent stuffs she has done and all of a sudden, I didn't see this coming though.
She was like,
"Raymond ah (my dad), really spoils his kids hor..especially the daughter..You see the phone,..even I don't use such high tech gadgets..and what's that over her neck?..Why does she need that??"

OMFG.
It's a good thing that I didn't have my bluetooth headset on my ear,or else she would be thinking what kind of business I am involved in..

Even though I was playing with my phone and had my earphone plugged but I was able to hear that piece of statement.The most unforgivable thing that she made that statement to my grandma,in front of so many people.
What was she trying to say?

My grandma was on my side though,saying that my dad was not spoiling us but everything we have and owned is from our hard earned effort.Plus I always help out the family,it's not surprising that my dad loves us very much.

GOod for grandma!!

I was so pissed that I looked at her with the anger in my eyes-that sort of look, and said,
"Come on, my dad never spoils us, we are just lucky that he loves us very much.My dad is also lucky to have me as his daugther.So it's a win-win thing.
(in my heart)--Sei Lou gu PO!..u jealous izit?!!!??!Kenot arr????

She was speechless and I could see her defeat in her eyes.
padan muka!..She tried to cover her malu-ness by laughing..but too bad la..kenot cover because Angkhian knows that she was out of the league.

My grandma smiled at my answer and she was so happy that she slipped a RM100 note into my pocket.I didn't accept though but i managed to tell her that,
" Ah ma,don't have to give face one this kind of people..So annoying,i also can't stand already.Sei Lou gu po!!!.."
She chuckled.

Ah Ma- 1, that woman- 0

I know i can be over the limit at times but my patience was running out.
However, I didn't told her off in a harsh manner,because I was not going to sink to her level.

I slept for 4 hours in the afternoon.
But now,my eyes could hardly open itself now.
I think I want to get back to my bed la..
But before that,must watch at least 1 episode of Prison Break.

Tomorrow going back to MGS with Suet Mei.
and at night, going pasar malam with..the Atan gang!..~~
Lols.

oh yeah, just to end my misery after such a long period..
I was used to being laughed in class, especially during ICIS lecture..
When Ms.Ainol,a.k.a the lecturer came mentioning about the differences of Dial-up and broadband..
Sei kenneth and tzeyang would be laughing their heads off;staring at me.
Dang!..
There was even once Kenneth immitate the sound of the dial up tone right in front of my face.
Finally,it's time for me to get out of these..

I finally am using streamyx..
So,stop laughing k?

Went to watch Fast and Furious 3 : Tokyo Drift with Suet Mei today.
Oklar--since I love cars so much.
We initially wanted to watch Cars,but then we couldn't possibly hang out in Jusco for 3 hours before the next show, so we took the next best option which happened to be Fast and Furious.
Didn't regret it though.
Nice movie and ought to be watched in the cinemas.
Don't get pirated CDs ok?

Got my certificates certified finally.
and managed to have breakfast in YiFatt.
It's been a long time since I had breakfast there..
With the whole bunch of Guides and Rangers..
Hehhe..This time with a non-guide.
Suet Mei.
Different experience.

Was watching some movie.The actor said,
" It's ok to be pulled down in life at times. It's when it's not ok when you get keep down in life. "

--pondering--

Lately I feel tired easily.
My bed time starts at 12 these days..
and i wake up like what..6 in the morning?
So not used to this man..my bed time used to be like 2 in the morning???and now, already 12 am and I'll be yawning like dunno what only..

haha...

Went to Pasar Malam with Jinnaa, elaine,and Goh!
Judy didn't make it because she was too pooped with school..
Sigh,sixth formers and their workload..

 

I was browsing through friendster page and I realised that many of them are already attached..
Many of them who are currently studying abroad, many of them who are still here in my hometown.
I looked closely to their pictures; there were plenty of smiles carved on their faces.
They were, very much in love.
At times, when i'm on the streets, and I looked at some of the youngsters..
All of them have their other halves..
Some of them who are, i think..err..13..14 of age..,have hands around their waist..;Clinging hard to one another..
Gross?..

How shall I put it..I can't say I am jealous because I went through that before..
I know how it is to be very much in love with someone..
I can't say I envy them..because I still enjoy singlehood..
But yet, I can't help but think what's wrong with me..
I was telling Goh last night, about people being a pair these days..
So rapidly..
and i guess, she felt the same way as I am.
(Not that we are desperate or whatsoever, but you know,we are already 19 and the people in the streets are merely in their teens..)
~Time is running out, i guess?..

Tzeyang once said that there was this one person who was good to me..but i just turned him away.
Hahha..
If he is such a good guy, why can't I feel the love eh?
AND he told me that Love can be cultivated..
But no, I just can't feel it..

What is wrong with me,,?

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I have so much thinking to do that i exhaust myself even before my bed time..

I have always been sceptical.
I do not believe things easily neither do I take in information quickly.
I do not believe what people told me because I tend to have this strong feeling,telling me that people are just there to influence me.
I doubt objects.
I always think that my handphone is dead because it has been awfully quiet these days.
I think my Mp3 is failing on me because it no longer plays the music smoothly..
One thing which I totally doubt it's working as it should be would be the:

This weighing scale.

I stepped onto it this morning and I believe, I had the shocking experience of my life.
Worst than getting on a rollercoaster ride.
I was shouting all the way,legs shaking upon seeing the readings.
I got down from the scale,give it a nice knock and shaking,and get up to the scale once again.
The reading was the same.
Got down again,ran a few rounds around the room and get on it again.
The same reading again.

How could my weight increased in just merely a few months?
Especially now when i'm on holidays.
There was no chance for mamak sessions, no extra junk food, no nothing.
Except home-cooked meals and once in a while, a treat outside but nothing other than that..
The most I have eaten was last night in pasar malam..but was it possible for the increment of my body weight?

I quickly got my cellphone and dialled my dad's number.
He thought something bad happened until I related the story to him.
He was alil amused with what I said and told me not to worry because the scale was working perfectly well.
I have indeed got heavier!!
Gosh!!!...
Horror...
Dad's said I have to exercise regularly and i guess, it's back to the badminton court now,eh?
I am looking for sparring partners.
Anyone on hols who wants alil bit of action,u know my number.

I ended the conversation with my dad.
Called mum and told her that I was going on a fasting season.
My mum laughed, which I think she thought I was joking.
She said that it was impossible for me to not eat.
Afterall, Ipoh is the place where all food are availiable.
She kept reminding me that when my holiday ends, I'll be rotting in Tronoh,regretting my actions now.
In other words,she was saying that I was not going to make it.

Darn!
Even my own mum thinks lowly of me..
Haha..but i have to give credits to her,she knows her daughter best!

I looked at the weighing scale and kicked it aside.
Who needs it after all?

I cried for the 2nd time this week.
Curse my self-control to look into people's blog and their photos.
I..can't stand not being able to click on people's blog.
And..i saw MP..and the other half and read MP's blog.
I even read the past entries.

I miss MP very much.

Wei Ern send me a song just now.

Whole Again sang by Edge of Fire.

Holding back my tears now..
hehe..and I told her I am gonna be fine.
Who am i kidding,eh?..hehe..

On an unrelated note, someone send me a virus through msn..and blardy hell..Now my computer is infested with this stupid virus which I can't do anything about it..
Totally gruesome..and I want to kill the fucking person who wrote that virus because it totally affected my computer's progress..

Alright,gonna go get myself some tissue paper..
just in case..don't want to wet my sleeves too much..and u know..the mucous and all..
Ok,don't want to sound yucky..don't want to wet my keyboards either..
So,here i am,to wish my readers, goodnight or should I say, a very early morning..?..
hehe..

-.......

Just attended somebody's wedding..errm..i have no idea whose it was...err..according to my mum, is her cousin's son's wedding..but seriously,i have never seen this fella,let alone talked to these people..So, I just attended it..and got my free meal..Which honestly is not free because according to the chinese custom, the people who attended the dinner has to give some sort of angpow..err..don't know what it is for but the money would be used to pay for the dinner la..(that's what I was told)
I don't really like these things because u know, the noise and surroundings,..and my aunties..who kept introducing themselves to me..and bringing their grandson, their sons along, introducing them to me..Asking me whether I am still single,..what I am doing, whether I am working, etc..I was getting a little disturbed..you know, with the questions, and yeah,i managed to catch a glimpse of a few cute guys who were there in the dinner.I told my mum that I was feeling a lil uncomfortable with aunties walking up to me,with their sons/grandsons..telling me their names and leaving us awkwardly,staring away from one another,hoping that the ground open up itself and swallow both of us.Heheh, it was obvious that the situation was embarassing, as I kept telling my mum that I am only 19 this year;there will be no need for aunties to come introduce them to me..

-me and my mum,managed to snap pictures of us..For the info of my readers, I only attended this dinner with my mum.My DAD and that -brother of mine had to attend another formal dinner elsewhere.

Dang!Where are my eyes?!!!

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I was walking around in parade that day with suet yeng and guess what I saw.?

Into Eat Cafe!..What's with the name ????

Hahha..for those who do not attend class in UTP, we have 2 cafes in UTP, which serves extra expensive food-to cheat innocent and naive and moneyless students like me..but then,they have nice tables and chairs la..
The cafe's name is IN2eat cafe.

Hahha..nothing la..random entry also la..

You know today, being Sunday and all,especially this time of the month..Hah!No, you silly,..the time where all Daddies and Fathers are being remembered for everything they have provided their children.
Happy Fathers' Day, Dad!

You know,me..being a fillial daughter and all..err..quite la..i decided to bring my parents and granddad to CAmeron Highlands..U know, a day off..and not to forget,I get to drive Dad's Pajero up the hills..so,i took his keys, and drove them up.Wahliao,we reached in 50 minutes time..using the new highway.I was a lil scared..u know..the road being curvy and all..but still, i managed to arrive in one piece..together with 3 other pieces..not bad,just not bad at all..

First stop was in Kg. Raja,to have lunch.Err,alright la..Vegetables are freshly picked..
Second stop, was in EQ's farm. The strawberry park.Didn't pick no strawberries,but just buy them off racks.Managed to rest for awhile here,to have somethings to eat as dessert..

-Mouth-watering strawberries with whipped cream which caused me, or should i say, Dad a whooping RM5..but then,the satisfaction was there..Yummy!!
Next, we had the :

 
which costs dad RM1 perstick.
It;s strawberries on a stick,dipped with rich honey syrup.
Slurrrppp!!!!
Look at me,having one piece!..

Hahha..i wasn't even counting the calories each time i took in a piece.Shikes!!

Mom and Dad,looking out for something..don't know what they were looking at..but certainly not at me, because I was too busy gobbling up the strawberries on the table.

Mua granddad.Couldn't resist the temptation because I was busy eating.He is a diabetic, so i only allowed him to have ONE piece of the strawberries with whipped cream and also the one dipped with honey.
Could see he wanted more,but i said no.I said if he was to be a good boy, i would get him the strawberry soft toy..He frowned.
hehe..a kidder my granddad is.
On the way back, we did in fact, saw the strawberry-like balloon..and he was tugging my shirt,acting like a small young kid, telling me that he wants it.
I looked back at him and said, " You really thought I would get you one of those?"
He looked back at me and nodded.
I was like, " Grow up.."
He was like, " But you haven't"
I was speechless,man!

The trip didn't end there.
Dad wanted to stop by this tea place, to have tea before we head back.
So, alright la, today's Father's Day after all, so i dropped by la.

Some tea house.
Don't ever go there.The prices are meant to kill you, and your wallets!

 

--the tea plantation.

--the tea plantation as well as the tea-drinker.

--the tea plantation and the tea-drinker's mum who happens to drink tea too.

--The fillial daughter, the loving granddaughter, the strawberries eater, the tea-drinker, the driver of the day, the cute angkhian.
[Let me remind you that this is MY blog,it's up to me to self-praise]

I enjoyed my day.Despite the thoughts running in my head, i still enjoyed the strawberries,food and tea.
Next stop, penang,next week!..Food eating fiesta!..
oh wait,...i have to go hide my weighing scale.

Living on a jet plane,
don't know when I'll be back again..
la..la..la...

Alright,except I do know when I'll be back though.
Coming back on Thursday.
so, that would be...err..1, 2, 3..days!!..
Away from my computer, and i still haven't finished watching prison break...
So exciting yet i have to wait..sigh..

Someone is hating me right now..and i can feel it..
even from Australia.

How could i made a fool out of myself??
What did i do?
Where did i go wrong?
I made one stupid step and resorted in being hated..
I just missed you, cried in the middle of the night,having no one to turn to..
All i could think of is you, so i text messaged you, but yet..i know,it was 6 in the morning in Australia..
How could i have the resistance to not message you when you are the reason why i couldn't have my eyes shut?
I know i have irked you, irritated you,but yet, i can't help myself.
I am sorry.
Just don't hate me.

I can't possibly imagine living without my roommate..
Thanks for the booster..

Back in IPOH finally..I must admit that i was pretty homesick for the past 3 days away from home..
Oh come on man, you people must be thinking,..how could..err..Angkhian..ANGKHIAN who never even thinks about home, her parents, ..who never sticks home, could actually have homesick..

hehe..unbelievable but it was true..I felt a tinge sadness when I was sleeping on the bed,away from home..I couldn't sleep for the 1st night..I kept turning and tossing..and i really did missed home..Sob..
Sad but true eh?

I shall not reveal where I have been for the past 3 days..
I will wait till i get the pictures uploaded and then, i shall write about it..
Hmm..just finished reading people's blogs..and well, i totally woke up after finishing with wei ern's..haha..totally eyes wide opened..hehe..

I'm walking..metaphoric-ly..
walking, i said, not running..I need more time to reach the finishing line..

 

Someone said,
" Time can make everything go away "

but i can't help wondering how long it would take to make everything go away.

*wei ern,if u are reading this,..
Sheesssh, i am walking la ny...

hehe..

Ever regret badly for something that you have done..?
Knowing that time could not be turned around anymore..
and right now, you are having this fight with your ex boyfriend..through MSN..
Fighting about the past, and not because of the future..
I felt so painful inside..
not because I yelled at him, but because we can't reach a conclusion..
i felt useless because this conversation was going nowhere..
How can two people be together if one is not there to tolerate?
How can two people be in love, if one is not doing anything to love that other person?
How can two people last, if there is no more love?

I know, someone once said that there's a nice man across the streets..All i have to do is just put in a little faith, and there, my future is guaranteed.But do i want my life to end up that way?Do i want to be CONTENTED with the path that's ready for me if i end up with the nice man?

Many factors to be considered if i were to be bounded into a relationship. My history is one.The guy's history is one too.
And if the nice man doesn't make a move, can i walk across the street and say hi?and what happens next?Do i have to ask him out?what happened to the days of when guys are supposed to do the 1st moves?..

As what i said to suet mei which made her laugh non-stop, I am a matter of fact, very traditional..very conservative in thinking..

(yes, you can start laughing and stop now)

( now, stop!)

...yeah, i know,in my previous entry, i gave many the impression that i would pretty much like an attachment right now..but if the guys are not performing up to par, how can the attachment be there..??
Tzeyang and many others said i was just being picky..being..err..choosy..and one day, i'll just end up being alone. I dare not say that i'm not afraid, but what can i really do if guys who are after me, are not..err..what I want..SHould i close my eyes and just say yes?..and having to take a gamble whether I will be happy with that particular person..

i know, life is a gamble, but if the stake is my happiness, i would probably think twice, or thrice..

You know, it's hard to meet up with the people you spend your last 11 years in school, especially when everyone is basically scattered everywhere around the world..and it's even harder when the people are only currently studying in KL, Malaysia..
I know there's no other way I could actually see Foo, so last night, I went to Maria's to see her, Mel and Meiling for dinner.It was indeed a long time since we last meet, as in me and foo..We had a very long chat but guys, so sorry for my phone calls..Usually my phone is quiet, but don't know why, it kept ringing last night..
*sorry*

Next stop would be chinese meal.Hahha, can't wait lar..because there's so much to update about our lives.Now, we are in different states, different countries, different group of friends, different type of education..everything is just so different among us now..So, we have to take a very long time to update ourselves..hEHeh..

When was the last time I met up with KarMun?..

Whoa, the time is dated way back during Chinese New Year..when I went to Ginn Yit's place at night, and that's the last time,i saw her..and to think of it, we used to see each other every day in school and tuition every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday..and i guess, life is a little less quiet without her around..She would be the one who kept me alive during Biology labs with her nonstopable topics..with puiyeen and eventually, yeesan will passed the juicy gossips to me at the end of the table.hehe..She's always the one who draws on the white board together with puiyeen and I would be having a hard time..iN between of laughing and also getting worried about who's gonna get the board clean because I was the..urm..'Ketua Kebersihan' ..However, amazingly, this tiny prefect of 5SC1, is not only the noise maker ONE of the noise makers..(we can't leave Puiyeen out right?), is our top scorer in the whole form..AMAZING huh?
I used to be quite noisy and cheeky too but how come my results ain't like hers? Maybe is due to the size la..who knows eh??

Finally, today,when I was having my afternoon nap, puiyeen gave me this phone call..and the 1st thing she said was " Eh, i still remember your number leh.. " and me being rather blur when i was awaken by phone calls,answered " yeah,so?You called just to tell me that? "..
So,to cut the thing short, we met up with Karmun in Yeolde English..
Had dinner..Dang!michelle lee couldn't make it..and there goes, i have not seen her for a very long long long long time!!!...
We had dinner there and switched location to crazee ice cream..but before that, puiyeen had to go get some cash..aiyo,can you imagine, they went out with only RM20 in hand??Whoa..I can't do that man!..

You people ought to know who's who no?..The one who's wearing a shirt with Beethoven's face on it is Lydia.The one behind her, is her lou gong chai Puiyeen,and the one beside puiyeen is Karmun..The one looking bloated and fat, is..the writer herself..

See..?Wrong Coordination..The tall ones are standing..and the..erm..not-so-tall cute ones are sitting down..See,kesian Lydia's head..and luckily, i was hunching a little..hehe..

>> 14 years of friendship.
 We grew up together, from the same kindergarden..She was small sized and I was also slightly taller..2 years later,when we accidentally met in primary 1, she was still pretty small sized, and i grew slightly in size..10 years later,as in now, she grew a little taller, and i grew..erm..fat..Sigh...
Here, may i present you, one of the noise makers, yet still smart as Karmun who's leaving to US in August, under JPA..(DARN!)

*Pui yeen, how come hor, we had the same education lar,but why are you so much smarter ah??? life's so unfair man!*

 

 

You Are 71% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love. But you're not really getting the deep love you seek. Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style. Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

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England just scored 1 goal..I am not watching no footie but Bro is lying on the floor, with eyes half opened..watching the match..Secretly,i hope that England gets kicked out..Don't know why, but i don't wanna see England in the next match..Ecuador should win this match, but i dare not voice my thoughts out.Bro is a hardcore England fan.If i voice my thoughts out, i fear that my laptop would be thrown out to the streets..Hehhe,..so, shhhh...
Gosh, the whole stadium is singing England's song already..No hope already la..*shakes head*..

Spend the whole day in Jusco today.Had this really REALLY really heavy breakfast in Coffee Bean..and yes, continued with a whole day of shopping..Dad purposely made his way to Jusco today; there was this Golf Carnival or something like that..So dad wanted to go and see, and add something to his collection of putters..and mum,as usual,wanted to get some golf tees..
[ i don't get it, you know..mum doesn't play golf but she buys golf tees to wear..]
Sigh, i am not complaining though..Dad got me one golf tee coz it was nice on me..or probably i look nice in it..hehe..Prices are cheap, with discounts and all..So,it was worth it..It was kinda crowded there today, everyone seems to be indulged in GOLF..i wonder why..even the aunties are playing this sport..seems popular..hehe..

Went to NIKE shop and i saw..saw..the shoes which i want...it cost RM329..and i kept pushing dad into the shop to see it..So, Dad was giving me a choice, it was either that pair of nike shoes or a brand new Tennis Racquet..Sigh..but the pair of shoes are nice..i bet i look nice in it..*i look nice in everything la..*
By the way,sales is over now..and it would be months for another sales season to come by..Sigh..

*Suet Mei, if u are reading this, we must go parade and do some shopping..my allowance just came in..and i want to get something from Body Glove..you buy the 1st item which is 10% discounted and i get the 2nd item which is 50% discounted..Alright??

Ecuador has yet to score..having both my eyes closed already..Sigh..Still have less than 2 weeks to go,before having to pack and get my ass back to UTP..again..How come holidays come and go so fast??..which means..Results are gonna be out soon..very very very soon...Darn!

 

whoa, Meiling..I didn't want this to happen..but my post reads..

FOUR FOUR FOUR

hehe,but this entry is dedicated to you..and my brother..

Clock strikes 12 and today is the 26th of June.
19 years ago, you were born, and 15 years ago, a horror happened to my family : my mum had my bro.
Yikesss!!..

~Happy Birthday to the both of you, especially to you,Meiling.
13 years of friendship..Remember the times when we used to fight?..hehe..literally..but still, now,we are friends..
The time when we ranaway from home??..Classic!..
The times when we were in the librarian board?..
The times when we talk..and talk and talk...
I hope, we will be able to grow old, together..hehe..and then, talk non-stop..hehe..

~Happy birthday to you, you lil brat!
I know you read my blog..so, you better appreciate this.
I hope you like the Adidas watch i got you..and don't tell me it's spoilt in the next 2 weeks..like what you did to the previous Nike watch i gave you..You are weird man..Your character is exactly like mum's..and you give me headaches.When I am not around, i know you sneaked into my room and slept on my bed..I know,you went treasure-hunting in my drawers..I know, you took my baggy and nice shirts and wore them when i am not ipoh..
I know i've probably scolded you for no apparent reasons at times,sometimes, i did curse you because I was too pissed with you..You know you are annoying..i don't know why you love annoying me that much..but then, i have to love you..( that is what dad and mum always say, that we've gotta love each other..)..I know, you care for me..because everytime i go out with people, you always called to check on me..When I am in a bad mood, you would stop bugging me,pestering mum to ask about my condition..Even though you occupied my bed when I am not around, you would move out the instant i stepped home..Everytime I asked you to do something,though u hesitate,but yet, SOMETIMES you do as you were told..When my mood is low, and I hit you for no reason,you never hit me back..you would understand..and hit me back later when my mood gets better..
*take note: mum and dad are getting old.Don't give them trouble and headaches anymore..k?be a good boy..

I have never say this to you face-to-face but I just want you to know that 'Che che loves you'..(and please stop calling me ANGKHIAN)..

 

Someone just accused me for not being able to read any chinese words..
HAHA..just because I speak Mandarin and Canto out of tune, doesn't mean I don't read or write them.Sigh..I am not exactly a RIPE banana,ya know?I am just..partially..not that bad yet..

Wanted to write about some general issues but then,someone important is online right now..So, i guess,..everything must be put away..Hahha..
By the way, went to watch CARS with Suet Mei today.OMG.She was laughing so loudly that luckily, the cinema was not crowded..hehe..She was complaining that I didn't laugh out loud though i find it amusing..But u know, i have always failed to express myself out loud..For example, i have sat on rides which are scary, like the rollercoaster, but during the ride, i never shout out loud even when i was afraid..i just kept the feeling inside..Weird?

MuM just complained that since the holidays started, i didn't help out much at home.Sigh.I guess, tomorrow,i'll have to wake up early, help do the laundry and then,hopefully,she would get off my back..She couldn't stand the sight of me,being in front of my computer 24/7..hehhe..

I wonder how this picture got into my computer documents..
Which means, this particular person has been using my laptop all this while..and the culprit?..
The BIRTHDAY boy!..
I have to admit, he has grown into a handsome and smart young man..He's tanned and you girls, should see his body..I bet you'll go goo goo gaa gaaa..over him..I wished my boyfriend would be just like him..as in the body shape and size lar..oh wait, i am sounding as if i am trying to promote him or something..
He doesn't need any promoting..He's hands-off..
He already has one sweet girl in hand which i have no idea who she is..but then, his phone kept beeping signalling received sms..So, conclusion?

First thing first..

Happy Birthday Goh..Happy Sweet 19!..
We were never that close until we were together in Atan's.We had to stick close to one another to jaga our backs man..It was nice knowing you..and since now you are part of the LGP..,hehe..we can get to be closer than ever!..

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Was watching Wimbledon just now..oh man..i wonder if i would be able to handle tennis next semester..I think tennis needs a lot of upperbody strength-which I have already lose as i grew older..and i have to exercise regularly to develop the muscles which have grown to fat!..Dead meat!~
Dad kept asking me whether I'm really gonna take tennis..coz my right arms gonna be big in size..and I'll look weird with big right arms..

Read today's Star's paper..the headlines..
"Enough, Dr.M"

I don't get the big hoo-hah lately in politics.What is this about Dr. M going together with the Oppositing party,against the government?..All i know is Dr.M was the country's Prime Minister when I was born..up to 2 years ago..When the Office changed..When he decided to step down and allow Pak Lah to be in charged..
and all of a sudden,everyone in the office is against Dr.M..

HUH?

I've always respected Dr.M..I dunno why..Maybe I find him an intellegent man,with fore vision..and he was the one who came up with vision2020..wawasan dua puluh-dua puluh..and it's kinda saddening, to see suddenly,everyone turning the tables against him..
and most importantly, He's the Chancellor of UTP..and will the government think that we,as the students of UTP..somewhat like Dumbledore's Army (DA)?

Some things never go your way; Some just do..
Sometimes, things don't really go your way..and things go out of order.
I need something which is important to me and to my family.
It sucks to know that my chances are near to ZERO..I regretted trying.
I never liked trying.I must get what I want.
I don't fancy going for something which is out of reach.
And to know that this time, I have failed.
I shouldn't have tried in the first place.
That way, my hopes would never have been raised in the 1st place.
Pray?
Does it work?..Does it work that way?
Will it even work?
Praying is just some sort of psychological way, to lead ourselves to deeper lies..
If praying were to help, I didn't have to go through everything ..I just had to pray from the start..
*Jiamin, I really think your chances are quite high,compared to mine..I wish u all the best..and luck..

I shouldn't have went for it in the first place.
Now, for the greater disappointment..I hope I would able to handle that well..

Goh,..i'm sorry kay?Didn't mean to throw tantrum at you..Aih..Don't know what's wrong with me lately..I think maybe the Big P is just around the corner..and I have this thumping pain in my head..

 

Germany won!..
=)