Updating from the comfort of my new hostel.
Shall upload pictures of the new hostel as soon as the connection is faster now..
Finally we have connection in the room so that's probably the reason why everyone is in their own rooms tonight..
No one is hanging out in the dining room, hehe..means, I can go out and eat as long as I want!..

I've just came back from Rotaract Meeting actually. Have been having that for 2 nights in a row and each meeting lasts for almost 5-6 hours..and honestly, I am getting tired of meetings,meetings and more meetings...

Did I mention that UTP has blocked MSN and MIRC so we can't go online to chat but instead we can only surf websites..THANK goodness for that.!I can now update my blog now and then..Oh wait, what happened to my AZAM BARU this year??..

Hmm..i think that's all for now. Have less than 4 hours to sleep and hectic timetable ahead tomorrow.Shall talk more tomorrow when I come back from classes alright...

*OH yeah, I hate tummy cramps..!!!!totally~

Wahliao weh..my 500th entry..

As I have promised earlier, I will post a few pics of my new hostel..

Imagine the amount of steps I need to take each day to just go back to my own room, and I am staying on the 5th floor..

Let's take a look inside..

This is the hallway..part of it..coz I entered from the back door mar..there are 2 exits in one house so this is one of the hallways..My housemates bergotong-royong put up the floor mat when I wasn't around..and they cleaned it up nicely..*Thanks for the hardwork,eh!*

Oh, i didn't manage to take a picture of my kitchen because my housemates were cooking and I would looked weird if I were to snap pictures of them while they were cooking,eh..So..let's go straight to my room...

My ever messy bed, with all my clothes all over..Hehhe, because I just woke up..Usually not like that one..I shall take a picture of my bed when I cleaned it up alright...?

My ever messy desk, which compared to the previous one I had last sem,this one can fit my desktop and also my high pile of text books..Not forgetting the 'hill-top' view I have from my room..

I love looking out from my window...hehe...I just love looking from it...and I love what I see each day...Though the window is closed or the room is dark...<3 it !!

The other view we have...
 

Haihs..but honestly,nothing beats home.

Being my usual blogging self.
Obvious isn't it?..
Posting more than ONE entry perday..
Sigh, angkhian the non-stop blogger.

Hahha..

It's 1 in the morning.. and my roommate is reading her E-tech don't know what..and I am glancing through my statics book..while blogging in the same time. That's what I call MULTI-TASKING. I have class at 9 tomorrow but due to some official business, I have gotta go to the Exam Unit at 8 tomorrow. BUmmer~!

Being in Undergraduate studies doesn't stop us from having a bad habit. Mamaking was part of the agenda today. We had to get ourselves to a club meeting- International Cultural Club and yes, we cabut-ted early for mamaking. .and ok, crappers time i guess..I don't know..

give me another minute.Shall write another entry. this is getting a bit dry..

Period.The pain.Agony.Tormenting.

Being a female sucks.

Especially when you have to crawl 5 levels up each day.With something oozing out,and your cramps are indescribable.

Basically, appreciate your mothers and your sisters and your aunties and your grandmothers and the women around you. Coz we girls, go through hell to be able to bear children like you.

Go away, you fucking cramps.

PC fair is this coming weekend. In IPoh Parade.
Please do not go there if you do not have anything to buy in mind. I don't want anyone to be hogging the place because I need to get something done to my computer, and the crowd is huge this week, I will never be able to get my things completed. So do stay away from IPOH PARADE this Saturday.
Go spend your weekend in Jusco instead.

I need to get my RAM upgraded to 1Gb this time. To run my AUTOCAD smoothly. They said 512MB is sufficient to run the program,but Ok, I do not want my computer to lag while doing my projects so, forking out one sum of money should be fine gua..I think, but then again, the decision lies in my dad's hands.
Plus I need to get a new mouse and probably upgrade my harddisk while I am at it.
So, my point is, do not congest the place if you have no business there ok?..

While attending meeting, Eewan send me a text message asking whether I'll be back for the weekend or not. Hehhe..the kid is missing me already. Claimed that she's bored to the maximum and hoping that this little fella could accompany her. Hehhe. I told her that we should go Tanjung Tualang together next wednesday. Probably we should. I need a break already.

AGM for Rotaract Club is tomorrow. Probably having juniors to come to the meeting and as one of the directors, I would have to present a power point presentation while speaking to the public. Jitters, you see. And I do not really fancy using power point, partly because I am not really good in doing things with the computer.[ and yes, I have to do AUTOCAD this semester]..

Almost 2 in the morning already. Her room lights are still on. Curtains slightly opened. I know she's gonna be busy this semester. =) and I messaged her saying that I was getting bored with my books.
She was near to killing me already.

Excuse me if you see multiple posts from me. UTP has already blocked MSN and MIRC in our system so I have no other entertainment than to blog, blog and blog. Excuse me will you?

I think there will be more formal words next time. I am taking Technical and Professional Writing this semester which requires alot of technical documents to be written. No more silly silly languages. No more funny remarks. Just purely official technical terms. Boring entry to be expected in week 4 onwards.

Yawn...I love looking out from my window by the way. The scenery is just so beautiful.  The window. The open window.=)

I guess I am getting more and more hot-tempered as I grow.
Hmm..I just came back from Rotaract's AGM..and yes, I was supposed to do a presentation which I did it with just merely seconds. Not because I do not know how to do public speaking,but in fact, I wasn't in the mood to talk in front of anyone. At least, not today.
I had to know what I had to face. The consequences. No one was interested in joining my avenue due to my second short introduction of my avenue. I know I am in serious deep shit now coz if no one is there, I had to do all the workload myself. Yes,thank you.
However, looking at the bright side of things, my mood managed to regain its normal state as soon as I stepped into Suet Yeng's car. Her neverending nonsense can never stop me from laughing my heart out. And San Nien. She is certainly one nice friend whom I look up to. Honest. Though she can be a little out of control at times, but she never fails to put a smile on my face each time I see her. Plus the whole board of directors. I can never be able to refrain myself from laughing my head off in every board meeting because they never fail to crack some stupid joke which yes, keeps us all awake through the mundane meetings. Even Sunil seems to be a nice person today.
How can I still be angry after going through a nice laughing session of Rotarian Arthur's speech?..

I did talk to Ivan for a while. Asking him was I acting out of impulse. Though I know the answer, yet I wished he was on my side. He said I should be more tolerant and understanding. That no one in this world could ever please me than my ownself. No one can make you happy but yourself. =)
Guys can be so matured at times.And so logical and sensible.How can I not fall for them??..

=) I wished my moodswings won't go more horrible after this.
 

I looked out from my window tonight and see her lights off. Must have been a tiring day. I looked at myself in the mirror,wished that it was her I see.

I wonder who brilliantly came up with idea of AUTOCAD..
Who ever said that AUTOCAD was very user-friendly, and easy to use.
Who ever said that this programme is useful in drawing diagrams and everything..Practically everything..
Who the hell said those words???

My lecturer as well as the rest of the world.

And guess what, I find it the total opposite. It took me half an hour to understand why my picture is so much bigger in size compared to my lecturer's. It took me another hour to understand the usage of only a few tools. And my assignment is due on Tuesday!!

*shrieks of horror!!!*

Ever wanted something or someone so hard that you begin to sacrifice every other thing for that something or someone?..

Hmm..

Dead broke..
PC fair in parade was not how I have expected it to be. Only a few stalls around and you don't call that a FAIR ok?
That's just stalls being put there to fill up the ever so big space in PARADE.

I was a little disappointed. But I did manage to get my LAN cable and my new mouse. I also managed to get a 128MB flash drive which only cost me RM25 which I think was worth buying. And now, I am left with 2 flash drives.
It was all impulse buying. Everything. And it was certainly redundant for me to get the extra flash drive as I already have one 1Gb Kingston in hand.
My original plan to change the RAM was automatically cancelled because they didn't have the courage to open up DELL's laptop. So, I have to wait and see.

I bumped into some final year students who decided to take a day off to sing their hearts out. In the karaoke. Bumped into Chee Keen who I reckoned changed a lot from the last time I met him. Bumped into a few sixth formers who are a year junior. Bumped into Judy and JoonKit. Bumped into a few people whom I don't see the need to be named.

Oh yeah, I also bought 'The Sims 2 Super Pack 2007'..
Speaking of studying hard and no more fooling around and here I am, trying to install the new dvd as I am typing this entry. =)

Everywhere was packed with people today. Even the ATM machines were all jammed up because there were so many people trying to get their money to buy stuffs. I for one, ran out of money..I had to endure the pain when I passed the OREFF's department. Had to endure the sight of the surfers' clothing..Had to forgo all the gadgets I saw.

Hmm..a year ago, one MP4 which has a capacity of 1Gb would have cost around RM400 and today, exactly a year ago, such MP3 with lesser capacity can easily cost below RM100..I damn Ja Dou!!..

Even bluetooth headset was cheaper now.

Both Punchee and Carina were searching for the printers. I was fooling around with nothing better to do. I should have went home to bed. Dropped Both of them in Jusco and went home. Jusco was jam-packed and I was so lazy to look for a parking space, and I opted to leave. Called Eewan who earlier wanted to meet up and went yumcha in OLDTOWN kopitiam near my area.
Both of us talked cock, nothing to do mar. She is one of those people who cannot make me angry for long la.!

and we are going to Tanjung TUALANG on wednesday..Yippee!And she's bringing someone along..Hurrah!!..hehe..

Since Goh brought up the subject, i have nothing to wear either.

Rotaract's Installation dinner is a day after her function which is on the 12th of August. Damn!
The theme for the night is ' Eastern Charm'
OK, we used a long time debating what exactly Eastern Charm is.
Whenever we had to explain our theme to some people, we were often clueless because we had no idea how to do the explanation.
In the end, our acting president, Kulvinder came up with the idea. All we had to say is "Everything which is not Western, is Eastern".
That save us a lot of trouble then.

I've always been trying to avoid such formal fuctions, to avoid dressing up.
I've always ended wearing a formal button-up shirt, with slacks.
However, this time, i can't do the same. Due to the theme.
And everyone's been giving me the pressure.
Asking me to wear something girly that night.
Ok, what girly???
in the end, i've always ended up GELI thinking of what to wear.

Sigh, why dresses and girls come together?
Tuxedos and blazers seems to be nice and comfortable to be put on.
Dresses and heels are killers..
Sigh..I honestly thought of going there naked.

I think it would save me a lot of trouble.

Told punchee to get me a can of heineken back to UTP..and right now, I am enjoying my can of sin drink..hehe..It's not a cold one because I only managed to put it in the freezer for 20 minutes and I beh tahan want to drink liao..
I wonder whether I am blushing madly or not leh...

Hehhe..Getting high in the room is fun..hehe..i know i am not drunk..but I can hardly control my movement leh..hehe..=)

Listening to Natasha Beddingfield's Single right now..hehe..can't help but dance to the tune myself..=)

Statics...is quite hard to tackle..

Woke up at 8 to book place in the Chancellor hall this morning.
The Chancellor was going to come by our university this morning to give us a talk,better known as Syarahan Perdana.The topic this year was 'Cabaran-cabaran Mengendali Negara' Or something like that. I wasn't quite listening for sure.
Fyi, Our chancellor happens to be Tun Dr. Mahatir. He seems pretty healthy, especially after the last harassment of Pepper spray, he seems like an old chap! a healthy lively one.
So, all of us actually went there early, and we took an effort to dress up SMARTLY because it's a rare ocassion that this man come to give a talk in front of us. He only stops by once in a year, for our convocation and that's it. We were all there, nicely sitted, at around 9 and he came at 10.30.
Speaking of punctuality. Can't blame him though because VIPs are supposed to be fashionably late. That's normal in UTP's life.


Sorry for the un-clear pictures. There were no cameras allowed so this is the best shot I could take.

However, such events would not be right if we didn't take pictures of our ownselves..so tadaa!!

Tzeyang wasn't able to fit into the picture because someone has to hold the camera mar..See how important you are, tzeyang...

And i think i was over-dressed..

Couldn't take the whole picture of myself. No one wanted to do so..Jealous la tu!..
The talk was rather..urm..boring..but the Q&A session was fun. Tun was rather calm and cool while answering all the questions given to him. It was clearly that he had come prepared with answers in his head..and yes, he wasn't intimidated AT ALL. For real.

There was a brief Rotaract Meeting just now at 9. It was brief. Only lasted for 15 minutes. fOR THE first time in history. So, having so much time to spare, I went to the Kopetro, some sort of a Mini Mart, and tried to see whether there was anything which I need. Just as I approached the entrance, saw someone familiar, very familiar..I wasn't sure whether she was the one, but yes, she was the one.

As soon as she saw me, all she said was, " EH, angkhian!"

Being the serious and cool type, I nodded at her, walked away, but smiled.Broadly.
I left the kopetro without buying anything. My heart was sweet enough already. Too much sugar intake in a day can kill me.Really.
I walked back to my hostel, but saw her again, pressing the phone. Must be sending a text message to the boyfriend. The next minute, my phone vibrated.
She asked me when I reached my room, let her know because she wants to give me something. I walked to her block, shouted for her name, and yes, she came down. She saw me and went up again.
Amused, I saw her housemate, and walked up to her house with her. I entered her house, and was surrounded by a bunch of seniors. All shooting me with questions, as if I was an animal in the zoo.  She then came, holding a piece of --->

she said, " Nah, angkhian, a treat for you."

All of a sudden, her housemates shot her with so many questions like, " Hor, what is that ah??Own housemates also don't have leh..."..and " Unfair, why did she get and we didn't.."

I can't help but felt a sense of happiness.That very moment. All she reacted to the questions was smiled and looked at me, shyly. She has been getting pretty naughty herself.Kept hitting my right arm everytime she sees me, and while she talks. No more being shy and all, and I like it.

Her piece of tart, and her actions left me with a sweet heart,and a sheepish grin the whole night.

I need H20. I need O₂.

Enough of drama,really. Civil Engineering students, we call ourselves. Not many people understand what we actually do. Ask anyone in the streets and I bet, they will tell you that civil engineering is about building roads and highways, buildings and houses, ..that's all basically.
Hmm, I can't tell you what Civil engineering is about anyway. I am not qualified to do so. All which I can tell you is, whenever you tell someone that you are doing Civil Engineering in UTP or in whichever University that matters, You would either get laughed off, or they will give you one kind of look. You know, the kind of look which tells you that you are not really that smart.

Why do i say so? Civil Engineers are the first engineers in the world. The most overloading worker u can get, are civil engineers. But why are we not giving any recognition to these civil engineers.? Why do we get mockings, telling us that Civil Engineering department is the easiest to score, the easiest to get first class. Not much studying needs to be done because compared to other departments of enginering, Civil is something like 'kacang'. 'Wet wet water'- something which Ms.Dena would put things that are easily done.

A few seniors from this department has already pre-warned us, telling us that the busiest schedule for Civil Engineering students would be during our first year, first sem. But wait. How come we are still able to loiter around the cafes, chit-chatting, gossiping, telling grandma stories..and yet, the seniors said that we will be facing our toughest semester??

I can't help but laugh out loud.

In the end, we came out with a conclusion.
We, Civil engineering students are meant to get busy this year.
Busy chatting, sleeping, and also eating.

Lots of hardwork, you know. Not as easy as it seems to sound. But yes, a lot of work to be done there.

I know i shouldn't be commenting much about my easy workload now. I do not want to sound as if I am bragging about the nice, comfortable timetable now. But, i totally envy those who are in other departments. They seem to have a lot to look forward to. Only the 2nd week, and assignments are pouring in, quizes are already here and the next thing you know, it's time for test 1. I just can't help but feel that I am short-changing myself. --Students of Ms. Dena would understand that statement.

...And so she left..

She was a very nice person, having to come all the way up to my place, at 1 something in the morning..just to teach me something which I didn't know of. Autocad.

In the end, we ended up doing something else instead. No Autocad was done. But we talked. Mostly about what was happening currently in her life and in mine. She was practically laughing non-stop on my chair..and i was so afraid that she would run out of air to breathe if she continues laughing non-stop.
She shared her problems with me. She shared her jokes with me. She thinks i am cool.(this i add myself one la)

The conversation ended around 2. Appreciated that she would find me to just teach me the ways of using Autocad, and also to come lean on my shoulder.Figuratively. She was in desperate measures to talk to someone, and yes, she came to me. =)

Suddenly everyone is sad about departures..

Needless for me to blog about this issue because the people I know who are leaving, is gonna come back. Too much of a hassle to tell about how much I am gonna miss their absence because absence is just gonna make the heart grow fonder.

I mentioned earlier that I was going for Tennis as One of my curricular activities.
Very important as I need to complete 3 credit hours before I graduate in 2010.

So, tonight was my first class and yes, I dare say I didn't regret or whatsoever.
The coach was a very nice person. He calls himself, 'Jam'..and so, we kept calling, hey jam, jam this and jam that.

It was funny. Considering he has to start with basics because most of us do not even know how the game should be played. So, for an hour, we were asked to hit the ball with our racquets,with our body partially squatting..I don't know la..It was funny..and it really took a lot of effort.It's not as easy as it seems because the racquet was kinda heavy and all..and controlling the ball was tough.

Me and JiaMin posing with my tennis racquet.

The usual gang again. Too bad, can only meet up during tennis session now.

Besides us girls, there was kenneth and arif too.

Classes starting at 8 and by 7.30, we have to start walking from our place. Tepat-tepat 8 only we can reach the tennis courts. I shall let you figure out the distance we have to walk.

Anyway, looking forward to another Wednesday night..

Shamini mentioned the name, " jAgdish" and I smiled.

Nice little chindian guy. Reminds me of Ravin but Jagdish seems much nicer. A nice, cute, handsome, gentleman. Ravin, on the other hand.., is not worth my time.
Shall be seeing Jagdish this Saturday. Coming all the way from KL. Can't wait.=)

I think whenever we grow up, people change.
Some may grow out of their childishness, some may not.
Some never learn, some learn too much.
Many of us are afraid to grow up.
So, we chose to stay behind.To ignore the fact that the growing up process is inevitable.
But how long can we stay this way?
How long can we ignore out responsibilities? How long can we stay away from them?
....It's for you to ponder then.

" Ah! What are you doing by the window??"

" I know what you are trying to do. Stop being a stalker!"

" Don't like that lar..people need privacy too..."

" sIAO ah you..everyday sit by the window,waiting...come back here now."

SIgh. Roommates....

..And so, we talked to the wee hours in the morning.It ended at 4. Both of us have class at 8 today and we just forget that time can really pass by real fast when we sit down together.

We have already decided to meet up at 11.30 pm., to talk about business, strictly. And for no reason, Sunil a.k.a President of Rotaract Club in UTP called for an emergency meeting. That was already 11pm when he passed the message around. What could be possibly so important that I have to leave my Differential Equation Book on my table, changed and rushed out to V5 cafe...?
Honestly, upon hearing the problem, it was not as severe as I thought it was going to be. I was disappointed.Not because I was hoping for something major to be happening during the eve of our Installation, but to me, it was something rather superficial..and I didn't understand what the hassle was all about.

I immediately send her a text message, telling her something has come up all of a sudden. I told her that I would get back to her as soon i could, but deep down, i know, tonight's meeting is not going to be a brief one.

How true I was. It ended at 1 something in the morning. No kidding eh?. During the meeting, I was a little pissed with how the management does things. I may not be a good leader, but I do not have to keep reminding people that I am a bad one.I didn't say much during the meeting, until the time when the whole board of directors stood up, against him. Not against but to let him know how we felt. All along. Tim was nice enough to have started the topic. It all started then. He didn't feel good about it, because of the way he answered after all our comments. In a way, i do feel him, because he's put down in front of so many people. Seeing that he's someone who's very proud of his achievements. He wouldn't stop letting everyone know about them in every meetings.

Zoom forward. It was almost 2 in the morning when I waited for her. I looked up and saw that the lights were still on in my own room. Punchee was still studying, i guess..I peered through her window, and I saw her. I was no longer tired.No longer hungry. Every negative energy in me seems to vanish that very instant.We had a casual conversation while switching to the stairs. We sat there for almost 3 hours.

Funny isn't it.? Both girls from different backgrounds, different generation, and different mentality, can click so well.

As I have mentioned earlier, it all ended at 4.30a.m.I was surprised Punchee didn't send the whole police squad to come looking for me. My absence was nothing to Punchee..sob...Hehhe..but in a way, she knows what I was up to and was kind enough to have not disturb me. The nice chat ended at her first yawn. Somehow, the more we talked, the more energetic we got, even as it gets later. She has a quiz today and I have 2 lab sessions today. Heavy load but we put our sleeps behind. I decided that it was enough that night. She has to get her sleep. I have to get back to my bed.

It all ended at 4.30a.m. ..

How can something seems so right can be so wrong...?

..We did it again..I spend 8 hours in her room, talking to her, and her roommate after that. It was fun doing so, and yet, I never get tired talking to her. I never realised that I can be so lonely in UTP..

I went to her room about 9 at night and yes, hang around her place, and after that, we went for a walk. I returned to my room around 5 in the morning. She feels me. She understands me. She believes in me.

And so, this weekend, I am going to miss her. And guess what?..Monday is after Sunday, and Sunday is today.=)

Just came back from Rotaract Installation. Shall update about it tomorrow. Pictures are ample.=)

I can't believe that I missed out on PuiYeen's farewell party.
The whole Ipoh was practically at her place on the 12th of August, and what was I doing for not being there???

Ok, I didn't plan for Rotaract Installation to be held on the same day as her farewell party. I didn't like the idea of dressing up for such a big event for Rotaract,let alone missing out on sending PuiYeen off to US. I am still a little edgy for not being able to make it to perhaps, one of the biggest farewell in Ipoh. Social butterfly PuiYeen is. A lot of friends.

Even before the installation itself, Angkhian had been constantly complaining about the amount of workload that the president has expected us to complete. On the actual day itself, we had to arrive in Casuarina at 9 am to rehearse for the event. Sadly, the rehearsal only begun at 1.30pm as everyone had to drive here and there to get things done. I was one of the happy drivers- I do not mind driving though. Only managed to leave the hotel at 3 something, dropped the rest of the directors in Parade and called mum. I wanted someone to accompany me for lunch and mum was the right person. I was running low on cash, you see..Hehhe, stopped by at OLDTOWN kopitiam and i saw the lower sixth formers. I was so tired, I only managed to smiled and gobbled down my late lunch. Reached home only at 4pm and I had to leave at 6. I have nothing to wear then. Thank goodness I have mum. She took out all her 'eastern-ish' dresses and I picked one. Or rather she picked the outfit for me. I had no choice but to agree. I was rushing. I had to reach the hotel at 7 sharp.

The event started at 8.10 pm, only a slight delay. The Angklung team and the Kebudayaan team from MGS was part of the performances. Tengku and Lailatul was kind enough to do me a favour. Alot of things happened in between, including the tantrum that the president threw. However, it was Mother of all installations,according to the rotarians who were present.

I didn't want to post any picture here in Tabulas. Hmmph. Kee Hui said I dressed up like an aunty. So maha pissed with him already. But Nevermind la..post a few here la..

This was taken by mum. She was overjoyed that her daughter finally dressed up for some event. She even insisted that i put on lipstick. *smacks head*

Taken with Gabriel, Ching Shearn, Boon How and Melvin.

Taken with Kian Chiew, Som Phong and KK.

Taken with Boon Tat, Zi Yi,Zhan Pheng and Kian Chiew.

San Nien and I. This San Nien always like to touch me. It's not that I do not like lar..but I really do not like it lor..hehe..but she's a very nice girl..Serious.

Me and Dinesh. See lar!..Don't know looking at which pretty lady..And he was the reason why Jag was so afraid to approach me that night..Hmmph!!..

Taken with WenKiat, Dinesh, Eevon, Frankie and Suet Yeng.

Rotarian Arthur and I.

Jhuen Ri and I. Jhuen Ri is the president of Rotaract Club of Bernam Valley..Not bad u know..Studying in Kolej Yayasan UEM.

The APP..Ancient Past President of RACUTP. Ravin Yap. Used to be super-duper cute..but after his Internship, become like that already..hehe..

Me and SanJeev. This one is SAPP..stands for ham-SAPP..hehe..no lar..SAPP is Super Ancient Past President..Cute right...?..We took about 10 snap shots together..hehe..I wonder if he's attached..Hmm.....

Me and Ong Suet Yeng. She's the IPP.Immediate Past President. Honestly I wished it is her term this time. SHe's one cool girl..=)

The whole board of Directors on stage after the installation.

The not so goodlooking someone shaking hands with me, with a regaelia hanging over my head.

Jim and I. Only posting this picture because I know Jim reads my blog..hehe..

Taken with SuetYeng, Frankie and Sunil. Yes, we had to pretend.

I think that practically sums up everything about Installation. More pictures posted somewhere online..only those who knows..will know where la..Err..The function ended around 12 with an open dance floor..However,everyone was busy leaving, or taking photos..and the dance floor was rather empty la..but loud music was on till 1 in the morning.

All in all, I think we did a great job. I guess, it was all the team's effort. =)

Yes, PuiYeen, I am so sorry.

I think I am getting sick of myself.

I am actually talking to my roommate online when she's just sitting right next to me. I am hungry, distressed and tired. I am super exhausted. I have class in 5 hours' time..and yet, I felt that I need to write something down before I doze off..I don't know why but perhaps, Blogging makes my heart calms down..and I really felt the need of having to talk to someone..

I hate being in the middle. I don't know what I want, and I am so terribly confused. And I hate the jealousy I have in me.

I guess I better go get some sleep, and probably, drown myself in tears.

Yesterday,the server was down. Wanted to write so badly but nah, the connection was bad, the only thing which was able to operate was MIRC and MSN.

I have been asked to write for R.A.G.E for UTP. Have been receiving so many smses, including the ones from San Nien and Freddy. I didn't have the heart to let UTP down though so I declined. I do not want UTP's image to be spoilt by me..and I really have no style in writing. I so happened love blogging, and writing about my life is so much less tension-ing than writing for some big University. I declined. The pay is good though, according to Freddy, but I don't have the mood, talent and the time.

We had dinner last night. Was supposed to be together but MingHwa spotted us. Hehhe, and I don't really mind the extra company. The more,the merrier. I was being attacked with words the whole dinner. I do not mind though, coz I felt so much at home. Hehhe.They were conversing so fluently in Cantonese and Mandarin, which I thought it was rather unappropriate for me to use English with them, so I was mostly quiet. I didn't have the heart to retaliate,let alone offending the seniors. So, I just pretend to be cute and sat quietly while they did most of the talking, and attacking. Came back for a while to my own room, and went to her room. This time, to pass my pendrive to her roommate. Saw Suet Yeng, San Nien and some other people. Again, I was sending myself to the battlefield,unarmed. People were laughing at me, attacking me with words, which I find absolutely interesting. I felt happy, having them around though. At least I know they didn't mean whatever they have said, just to tease me..

I wonder if I blushed.

She kept asking me for my blog address. I wonder if it's nice to let her know about this.What if she reads about what I have written. Would she freaked out or something like that?..Some innocent entries can turn out to be major turn-off if being interpreted wrongly. I didn't tell her though. I told her that if it's God's will to let u know about this, u will come across this sooner or later. One day.

Most of the people I mixed with are in some clubs together. I,on the other hand, is not. It's kinda fun to see that they have something to talk about, something in common..and I, am sorta left out. It's fine with me, coz they are not in the clubs I am in, but topics are running out. I felt much comfortable with Rotaractors instead. I wonder if this peer pressure is getting into my head, I hope not.

I think I better go get my afternoon nap. Having tennis tonight. I hope it rains. I don't feel like going tonight.

I miss the one in Australia. Sigh..

Was supposed to do a little studying this afternoon..and ended up, napping for about 2 hours..Woke up, realised that my roommate has went out for her SPE meeting, so I continued sleeping,until my phone vibrated so rapidly that it fell off the bed.
-Heard noise in the kitchen. Must be the 2 mechi girls, with their usual antics. Got up, and joined the crowd. And out of nowhere, I was the topic of their discussion.
-They were rather upset when I said I might going for another haircut this weekend. It's getting out of hand, I think it looks a little messy so I mai want to cut my hair lor..Like that also cannot meh?!..Then Sharon came up with an idea;asking me to tie my hair instead of cutting them off everytime it grows out of hand.
-It took them around 10 minutes to give me a makeover. Hehhe..I felt funny even without looking at myself. I was practically laughing when I saw my picture snapped with Carina's W810i. I turned a total of 180 degrees. I became so much like an aunty. Sigh.
-I told them I am the type who lets my hair runs free and wild. I am the type who sweeps my fridge up..let them go whichever direction they please..I am the type who doesn't even care much. ..
-Pictures are posted to give credit to Carina and Sharon for trying to change my outlook. =)
-Thanks, guys. I appreciated it.Very much.

They were so 'semangat', and even went to my room, opened my wardrobe,trying to find me a girlish outfit. But they were disappointed. I only brought my shirts and jeans here. They were expecting skirts lying around..HAHAHA...

We even tried my look without my specs on. AND..nightmares ahead.

Hehhe..I know. My reputation is gone now. Down the drain. Hehe..=)
But what is a little chunk of reputation,when it gets smiles onto your faces..?

Ya know what is more frustrating than waiting by the window?..It's waiting for the phone to ring..

I have 2 projects of AUTOCAD to be hand in tomorrow and I have no idea where to get started.People are getting uglier each day. Due to insufficient of sleep, or perhaps the abundance of work piling up. I need some entertainment in this uni, other than blogging each day. It's getting more and more like a routine..

Got tagged by Yen Chiew. She wants me to list down the things I would do if I only have 24 hours left in this world. Rather familiar, I think I have written about this before somewhere in my previous entries...Must go and check later what I have written and see whether this list is the same as the previous one.

Hmm..what should I do if I have 24 hours left?

1. Take my entire savings out from the bank. (which I don't have much anywayz) and give it to my family. Mummy said if someone happens to pass away,leaving money in the bank account, a lot of procedure is needed to withdraw the money from the bank. So, by doing so, I can save my parents a hell lot of trouble.

2. But then again, I am not going to give every single penny back to my parents. I am going to spend like 3/4 of it. One thing, is to get the earliest flight to Melbourne, Australia.

3. Before I leave, I am going to sit down calmly, maybe for an hour or two, write a few letters.. pen my thoughts down..Collect my belongings and pile into one corner. My handphones, my mp3s and my ..err possessions shall be wrapped nicely in a box, and shall be mailed to Australia.

4. Probably have the last meal with my family?..

5. Meet up with a couple of friends, whom i think is worth meeting for the very last time. Thank them for adding colours to my life.Post an entry on my blogpage for the very last time. Send a few emails.. 

6. Tell the person about how I really feel inside. Stop staring through the window, and come out from the closet about how I have been feeling all this while.

7. Get on the plane, to Melbourne.

8. Try to get to MP's place. Meet up, acting as if it was a surprise visit and spend the rest of my remaining breath together.Capture lotsa pictures together.  

9. My life has to end in MP's particular arms.

I think my life's practically evolving around MP..hehe.. and yes, I'll tell PT that I regretted letting everything go.

Basically, this is how I think I am going to spend my life, if I know about the last 24 hours. Pretty dry, seeing that I am half awake.

We haven't been meeting one another for the past 24 hours now. And I need to leave UTP for the weekend back home in IPoh.

I have this feeling of emptiness in me. Life is not complete without meeting this particular person. I missed her today, as soon as I left that place. Maybe my friend was right. I have to set my directions clearly.

Faced the computer for 5 hours straight this morning. Autocad and Programming. I swear my glasses will no longer be in used anymore. I have to get newer ones.
Have a dinner appointment later, cousin's back from Australia, after her Masters. Need to sorta see her before she leaves Malaysia again. So, good food tonight, I supposed. Didn't really wanna go back this weekend. Wanted to spend it here, talk to her about what had happened recently.

Oh man, we just met on Tuesday.

Going sorta crazy these days. Need to sort  my priorities right.

MP was online. We talked. The conversation was not initiated by me. (*applause*).. Perhaps, I was so absorbed into my new love. New chapter in life.  

Glad to be back in UTP again,..NOT..hehe..but I hate the weekends now. It's kinda frustrating to leave someone behind during the weekend, yet knowing that the weekend is coming to an end, and the whole viscious cycle begins.

Classes resume at 8 tomorrow morning.Dang!

Alright,so where did I spend my weekend?..Not the usual Ipoh..but this time, I spent it in Genting, since both my mum and bro's holiday have already started. I didn't want to ruin the holiday plan, so decided to tag along.PLus both of them are already old, can't really drive long distance, they'll need all the help they can get from me, Willingly..=)

So, we only reached Genting at 8 pm..after having dinner at the usual place in Gohtong Jaya. Did the checking-in by 9 pm, and the activity begun. I got myself tickets to watch 'Click' staring Adam Sandler. Many people give 3 thumbs-up for this movie, so how can I miss it right?..The movie only started at 1.30 a.m. So, accompanied my bro to the bowling alley. He brought along his bowling gears..and yes, he bowled with me-la..
There was this group of people on the other lane, came to start their new game while my bro and I were playing. So,these girls were the 3-suku types la, clinging to their boyfriends, in search of bowling balls lor..I stared at them la..but didn't really care much, have to concentrate on my game right??..Fyi, I have to use size 8 balls la..coz of the size of my hands..and I can't really carry heavy stuffs..so, i have 2 size 8 balls in my alley lor..plus one personal ball of my brother's la..So, this ignorant girl, came searching for bowling balls la..Saw my size 8 bowling ball, just took one away without even bothering to ask whether I was using it or not. I was fuming inside, but I ignored her. It was a houseball afterall, and houseballs were meant to be shared. Bro noticed that I was looking slightly upset inside, so he went searching for another ball for me. He found one, replaced it for me. We continued bowling, until another girl from that very gang came and took my brother's personal bowling ball. The RM2-- bowling ball, which I do not even touch, was taken away to another alley. I stared at my brother, but he didn't say anything. Being his usual self, he chose to let it be, while continuing the game with a house ball. I beh tahan already.

I walked over to their lane. I tapped on the girl's shoulder and she turned around. So, our conversation begun.
Girl: Yes?..What do you want? (in a harsh tone,please-don't-waste-my-time tone)
-I smiled.
Me: No, I just want to know whether we have met before this.
Girl: Err, i don't think so. Are you from KL?
Me: Nope.
Girl: Ahh..then you must have mistaken for someone else.
Me: Oh..Erm,nice bowling ball you are using there. Is it good?
-I pointed at that particular ball..
Girl: Oh, it's nice..
Me: Hmm..Ok, for your information, that ball is very nice to use la..Wanna know  why?..Coz it costs almost RM400..(buat the cerita besar-besar la)..and it happens to belong to me.
Girl: Oh, i thought it is a houseball..
Me: I don't mind lending it to you, but since we don't know each other, I don't think it's appropriate for me to lend it to you. You don't seem to know bowling much, and if anything happens to that ball, it's RM400 from your pocket.
Girl: Err..ok, sorry..sorry...
-(returned the ball to me)
Me: It's ok..Next time,ask first before taking.
-I walked away, looking stern.

I left the game halfway. I was not in the mood to bowl anyway. Went for supper and then for the movie with bro. iT WAS certainly a nice recommendation from Ben. Hehhe..was funny from beginning to the end., especially the part of Sundance and the duck..Ouch, it must have hurt..hehe..and i had tears formed in my eyes la..hehe..
The movie ended at 3am, send my bro back to the room..I have nowhere to go, can't go to bed, so I went to the pub. It was supposed to close at 5 am but I went in anywayz. I ordered myself a beer..and sat there, being sober..hehe..no la..I was there, sitting around..nothing to do with a glass of beer..All of sudden, a few men came and approached me. Asked me what was I doing there alone. I smiled, walked away calmly but in actual fact, my heart was thumping real hard. I was so afraid that they would follow me but no, they were too drunk to do so. Walked back to the room, dad and mum were already back. 4 of us, cramped in 2 single beds. Hehe..

The next day, had breakfast together in Coffee Bean. Mum and dad went off, bro went gaming and I went to Starbucks. I sat down, with the usual Ice-blended Caramel, topped up with whipped cream, and took out my writing pad. Wrote the usual stuffs, and did my DE homework. For 4 hours, i stayed at the same position.

SIGH..

Managed to leave Genting only at 5pm. Drove all the way back..Mum was freaking out when she saw the meter reaching 130km/hr..hehe..Yay!..

-in genting's lobby..

I am honestly jumping with glee right now...
I hope my eyes are not playing tricks on me..I hope the website didn't display any errors...I shall tell more when I get the confirmation...hehe..Hehhe!!!

We had our first TECHWRITE test this evening..Or rather it was only a quiz but the way they conducted it, was somehow something like the test..Hehhe..being graduated from UTP's foundation, both me and shiouting was practically talking throughout the whole thing..Hmm..TECHWRITE was blardy difficult to begin with..and I was so sleepy...I swear I had no idea what I was writing...=)
Before that, all the girls were studying in IRC..preparing for the Quiz..and all of a sudden, we decided to camwhore abit la..since we've never actually taken a picture together...so tadaa!~

Tee Hooi, Harpreet, Shiouting and ME.
-Gonna be sticking to one another for at least 3 more years..Hehhe..CIVIL girls rocks!!(no pun intended)..Hehhe, the funniest and the crappiest bunch of all..hehe..we are great together!!..we observe rocks!!...hehe..=)
Love yar!!!!....

The problem with UTP is they chose too many future leaders to be enrolled into this prestigious University.
Many of them who are current students here, they were head prefects, monitors, state representatives, country representatives, prefects, librarians, so forth...

The saying, "Too many cooks spoil the broth", really does apply here in UTP. Too many leaders in this university lead to unnecessary competitions,egos and a lot of arguments and disagreements. Many were so used to becoming a leader and when they entered here, they felt awkward and rather uneasy to become a follower again. I understand, as it is never easy to follow, but easier to lead the way.

When I was in NS camp, every time there was this jungle trekking at night, I would always be chosen as the leader who brings the compass in front, to lead the whole team. I was never put behind nor in the middle, and I wouldn't like that idea anyway. I love being the leader where everyone has to listen to my directions or else, we would all get lost. (We never got lost anyways!)

My point is, somehow when everyone who is used to becoming a leader back in high school, whenever they come into this new environment, no one wants to be a follower. Everyone thinks highly of themselves. (I do too..I hate to admit this but yes, I am classified as one self-centered person)..self-centered can be good in a way,which means I love myself too much.

There's no such thing as a bad leader, only one who doesn't earn people's respect. I had an encounter once back in high school.I met another one recently. The skin colour almost the same. Sigh.

I am thinking too much lately. I need a way out.

I hate the feeling of being alone..
Something is wrong with my hormones again...

I woke up feeling dejected 20 minutes ago. The room was dark, and it was so quiet..I checked my phone for the time. Another hour to my next meeting. It took me a long time to finally decided waking up. I wonder whether I should take dinner before attending the meeting. Tonight's meeting is not going to be a short one. Wen Kiat pre-warned that there's going to be an emergency board meeting right after the club meeting. Sigh. Another 5 hours gone just like that.

I woke wobbly, reached for the door knob, and turned in open. There was light behind the door. I felt calm for a moment. I know I am not alone in the house. I stepped out from my room and saw people, hanging out in the kitchen. My eyes were still half-unopened, and I didn't put my glasses on..I walked towards the washroom.

"Barthlemy!"

Hehhe..Crysanthia is in the house. It's an internal joke shared in the house. Probably wouldn't understand even if I did explain it here. I waved back and continued walking.

" Good morning, angkhian!"

Hehhe..another one housemate who saw my just-wake-up looks. I smiled. I know I have this warm feeling which glows inside. I am glad I have such housemates whom never fails to cheer me up. Whom I know are going to be there together with us for 4 more years. No doubt, there were several things where we had some misunderstandings, but none was taken into the heart. Everyone is always seen, hanging at the dining table, talking about what's happening in our own courses. We never failed to crack up jokes, however, I always turn out to be the Joke.

I do not feel tired everytime I come home. Everytime I walked past by the kitchen to reach my room, I am glad that people do not stay only in their rooms. We socialize. We talk cock. We act stupid in front of the others.

Who ever said race is a problem of communication? We come from different backgrounds, different skin colour, different language spoken, but none of those mentioned were an obstacle to us...

-MANDI time.

Came back from MAMAK with Sanjeev again tonight.
We shared the same Nan together, not that it's anything worth mentioning. Just thought of putting in that extra information.

Went for 2 meetings tonight. One to Rotaract's and another to ICC..Hunpin was nice enough to have walked me to LH1..all the way from POCKET d..Worth mentioning. Hehhe..I dare not imagine the consequences of walking alone all the way. The pathway was so dark and eerie..eeeee.....!!

I think I don't spend enough of time with my books. I ought to do so by now.
Diffential Equation test is held next Wednesday and i was practically sleeping during the lectures. Only today, I was dozing off until TeehOoi nudged me,saying that there was a sudden quiz. OMG..I quickly woke up then.

Less blogging then.

Slept at 4 in the morning. Woke up 3 hours later.
Foundation graduation ceremony was helf 5 hours ago. Everyone woke up early to get dressed. I was,as usual, stuck halfway, kept asking around what to wear and what NOT to wear.

"Eh, Angkhian, wear skirt la..Girls must wear skirt already..."
"Wei, all of us wear baju kurung la..You also wear la..Come to my room la..!I have a few sets..Lend you la.."
"Hah..Not the same shirt again..So boring..Wear something la..more ladylike.."

Tiu.Early early already kena 'ja'...

Anyway, I settled for this :---

Please don't ask me what I was doing with a tie.
-I wanted to wear the white shirt only,without the tie on. But on the way to the Chancellor hall this morning, Kenneth told me he has an extra tie. He dared me to wear it infront of the crowd for 15 minutes. I took up the challenge. However, as i soon found out, I need to try something new. So, I ended up wearing the tie throughout the whole event. The only time when I took the tie out was when I had to go on the stage to receive my certificate. I didn't want the rector to stop me halfway,asking my gender preferences.

The event only started at 10.45 a.m. We arrived early to see the final year students who are going to graduate this coming Sunday. The really graduating ones. The ones who came with their robe,hood and mortarboard. The ones who are going to shake Tun Mahathir's hands,the Chancellor of UTP..

We, on the other hand, only managed to touch the Rector's hand.

--The Civilians..

--The usual hangout group.

--Me and one of my housemates. Criscentia...hehe..

I have taken one with Nony, Criscentia's roommate but she has yet to pass the pictures.Shall post it up when I got hold of her phone alright?

First time debut. Fuhan and Nancy. Never taken any pictures with them weh.

--wenkiat and I..

--Junjia and I

--Punchee,ME,Pao and Garfield..

More pictures avaliable online. Only those whom I am close with knows where it is.Hehhe..=)

~~The only reason I decided to stay on was because I know you are going to come back for me..

It's hard to see that you are not going to change your mind for me. You seem so happy everytime your phone ring, but the calls are not from me. You seem to get excited everytime he calls you...

Sigh.

I saw her.
She smiled and walked away.

Sigh..Not another post breakup thing again..

Went to the convofair with Sanjeev this year. Before that, we had our dinner in Tronoh. Surprisingly Tronoh was not flooded with UTP students as I believe,most of them are stuck in Convofair. So,after dinner, we went to the fair la..where there were a lot of stalls around,which sells food, things,..Big companies were given air-cond booths to promote their company..Erm..basically like a big fun fair there la. There was this big grand stage where there were performances from different countries..Singers who were from the sixties..

Last year, I went to the fair with Ivan.
This year, with Sanjeev.

I met a lot of people. Knew someone new, named Chok,who coincidentally happened to be Sanjeev's batch of people. Qi Hua who was out for Internship, came back all the way from Penang just to come for the fair. Seniors whom have left UTP, seniors who are graduating tomorrow,are also there, basically everyone was there la!The University was having some sort of an Open day..and everyone is invited.

IF u read this before 3 pm on Sunday, do feel free to drop by Tronoh. Tronoh is just a 20 minute drive from Ipoh. Come to Universiti Teknologi Petronas and be amazed with what a small town like Tronoh is able to offer.Even Yeesan was amazed. Hehhe..

The 1st weekend here spent in UTP.
Now I know why Szu Ann always go back to Ipoh during the weekends.
Oh, she's my cousin by the way. She graduated in the 5th Convocation last year.
I remembered telling my mum that I was amazed that Szu Ann is always coming back every weekend.
Now I understand the reason behind it.
UTP's really boring during the weekend.
It was unexceptional this week too,though the convofair is on this weekend.
(that's perhaps the only reason why I decided to stay behind this weekend..)
Nope, no more staying in UTP during the weekend, except,perhaps during the final exam week..

I woke up this morning afternoon..,craving for Toast Cheese and Bacon...
Yum--yum..but i had to settle for Chipsmore Chocolate biscuit instead. Bacon was a big no-no in this house, and there was no cheese in the refridgerator..Ate a piece of Chipsmore instead.
Sanjeev called when I needed real food. We went out to Tronoh and had our lunch there.
Met Jeffrey in Tronoh too. He wanted to hitch a ride back to UTP, so Sanjeev agreed. However, as we were leaving, we saw YunYi with his Vios. Jeffrey left our car. Technically, Jeffrey left Sanjeev's Saga to be in YunYi's Vios. Can't blame him though. Saw Choon Hong there too, with Yun Yi. Hehhe, I was half-hearted too. So wanted to run off with Jefffrey to YunYi's Vios too. But, too bad, I came kai kai with Sanjeev 1st. So, I had to say bye-bye to Choon Hong.

The Convocation ceremony was quite grand, I heard. The Chancellor area was conjested, even early in the morning..

Peichie was mean enough to ask me to design an invitation card in conjunction of EDX18.Alright, I know I have to do it: My responsibility after all. I kept telling Punchee, I was not born with any creativity side..So, I opted to use Microsoft Publisher instead. Hehhe..fully utilizing Technology.=)
Have to present this card tomorrow night. I am worried. Would I be laughed?..I wished I wasn't that self-conscious.  

Remember I promised to snap pictures of me in Convofair?..
I didn't manage to do so, because everytime I stepped out from my room, I forgot about my camera...So, that night, when Qi Hua purposely came back from her Industrial Training, we managed to snap a few shots only..
It was her camera, I couldn't camwhore with it, no?..

Angkhian and Sanjeev. Sharing the extra expensive Banana split.

--ME, Sannien,Jeev and Qi Hua.

--Ah Ma, Ah Mui and the Ah Ko.
(Pinky),(Kenneth), and (Angkhian)

--Pinky said, "Aiks? I see lately your blog all write the happy happy things wor.."
--Angkhian smiled.

OH MY F~~ GAWD!!

In the midst of tests week and all, i have totally forgotten about Karmun and Yeesan's Birthday!!...
My God~~...

So, anyone, please tell Karmun I said Happy Birthday ok???..
and Yeesan, I know u will stumble onto this page one day, so Happy Belated Birthday...

So, sorry.....=(

There..I made a public apology.
Feel so much better now..

Err, having DE test tomorrow. Legs shaking, heart throbbing..=/

i LOVE addmaths man!!..seriously...