~It started with dinner in Sushi King, another meal in KFC, movie in TGV's and yumcha in Ipoh Bali Kopitiam.

He likes to camwhore too...Brought along his camera...shocked!

--Among the 192310423 pictures we have taken...

No, there's no need for denial because there's NOTHING to deny. We are only friends. Purely friends.

So, don't think of asking me about him ALRIGHT?..By the way, I still think Monster's House is a little bit too heavy for kids. 

EDITED: Don't ever approached me about SANJEEV.We are strictly friends.F-R-I-E-N-D-S.Come to me again, and I am going to whack you!

Midsem break starting in a week's time.
Plans are already made.

After MY geology test at 4pm, we are going to pack our things and go down to IPOH..(NOthing to get excited about,because IPoh is my territory, and the rest is not locals.) And we are going to watch 'DeVil wears Prada'..

So I asked Carina if Devils wear Prada, what do Angels wear?..
She said Gucci-lor!

Gek Sei...

Dad warned me before.
The people closest to you might be your worst enemy.
I looked at him, said, " Pa, are you one?"

I never believed in what he said to me. But now, I know, Parents want the best for their children..
The one closest to me, might be the one waiting to stab me from the back (or from the front)..
I am not surprised if one day, I am found lying on the ground, in my pool of blood, I can see that person, holding a piece of knife in his/her hands,laughing evil-y..

I just found out today, that the more you count on someone, the more you know it's not a good idea..I regretted, trusting someone so close to me can resulted in what I am today. The innocent yet friendly face conned me. I felt cheated,but what can I say...Who is to be blamed but me alone, for bestowing my trust in someone whom I thought I knew...? How could I be smart enough to recognise a wolf in disguise of a sheep..?

The present now, is the mistakes I have done in the past. Nothing could be done to erase my history, yet nothing can be done to save the future.

I hate pretenders. Stop pretending and crawl back to your hole.

New word of the day:--

'Fellatio'

Oh gosh, I am tired.

" Eh,boring la..don't know what that lecturer is talking about also.."

" Yalor, aiks?You are paying attention meh? I gave up already, I think I talk to myself better"

(Holding her handphone)
"Come, come, We snapped pictures, for my thumbnails."

"Yippee!!..Take pictures I like"
and I did this...

"Eeu..You give me nightmare la!!"

"Cilakak la you!"

~Signs that you are missing someone(badly)

1. You keep connecting to MSN and MIRC to see whether you can meet up with this person ONLINE.
2. You keep seeing his/her name on the list,but in actual fact, there was none.
3. You want to study for this big test tomorrow but your priorities aren't set straight.
4. You jump up and down,when you are suddenly disconnected from the chat rooms.

***(random)

Counting the minutes for the sky to turn grey and the rain to fall.
Oh, did i forget to mention that tennis class is tonight?
Oh man, I really really don't feel like walking all the way there, hit a few balls and walk all the way back again.Then, have to take a very VERY late shower..*shivers*
No water heater in the campus.

Current status: Hungry. Very hungry. Teramat sangat hungry.

Left my room at 9 am today for class, came back only at 9.45 at night.Whoa, that's like 12 hours away from my bed,..classes were back to back..I had one test on my killer subject: Structured Programming! As usual, the strategy was, 7 of us go in together and sit closer to one another..But we heard news about 6 sets of different questions being posted, and the questions were super-duper hard..so we had to alter plans..
The guys are rather good in programming so we did some investment la..separately..One of them go to shiou ting and Harpreet, then the rest come to me and tee hooi..UNfortunately, plans changed as soon as we entered the theatre..All the guys plus shiouting and harpreet stayed on a higher level, whilst me and teehooi were one level lower..Oo boy..Instantly, tee hooi and I prayed hard..
Questions were expected. The level of difficulty was high. Everyone was practically complaining about it, except for some smart ass la..hehe..But sigh, nevermindla, there's always a better tomorrow..a better future..hehhe..SP still has one more test to go..ok gua...=)
OH yeah, did I mention she was kind enough to come up to my room,gave me a surprise, JUST TO TEACH ME STRUCTURED PROGRAMMING???...hehhe, i was studying halfway when all of a sudden, i felt someone on my side..and when I turned around, she was standing there,asking me,"Can die d?"
Hehhe, I was shocked,Punchee was surprised..and both of us abit paiseh..coz our room was like a warzone..Clothes everywhere, books cluttered everywhere..Hehhe..but obviously she didn't mind..So, she took the time to sit beside me,explained every single thing about Structured Programming,even went back to her own room to get her past test papers and lecture notes..Hehhe..She left only at 4am..,insisting me to study while she did her own studying in my room..Such a nice person..Gonna miss her so much during the one-week break!..
Thanks yea..=)

Plans cancelled.No more movies.No nothing. Everyone has to go back and no transportation to come down to IPoh and back to UTP.Sigh, another midsem wasted..Should do something exciting and interesting leh!..
*Foo,Mel..we SHOULD drive down to Penang!!..Take the risk.!!(oH,maybe we should ask Yeesan along too...)
Hehhe....

OK, have to prepare myself for Engineering Graphics test tomorrow..Have to accustom myself with AUTOCAD first..No more taking people's work and passing up under my own name..hehe..got caught that day..The demonstrater asked us to draw a diagram..and I didn't make it..sure la..coz i DIDN'T draw the diagrams also..hehe...Kantoi!..hehhe..=P

"Since when it felt lonesome to go to the movies alone..?
I looked forward to it,everytime WE go for movies together..but that was a year ago..No more watching movies together,in the cold,dark cinema,with you,by my side..Everytime You complained about the cold air, I had always slipped my hands over your shoulder...But I was always the one complaining..and you always shut me up by holding my hands tight..and that warmth you gave me,gave me the assurance that you will never let me go..
Everytime I go to the movies, I would always try to get the same seat we shared together before..I wonder why everytime my eyes get wet after each movie..
Though I still go to the cinema,but the feeling you gave me is no longer there.Not the same anymore...How can someone feel lonely even being in the movies..??
You promised to watch every movie with me..;we missed out so many movies..I miss you darling,..I will always think of you.."

-khian-
(SIGH...........)

Hmm..speaking of movies in my previous entry,..Yeah,even being there with your close friend can also be pretty lonesome..

Watched "My super EX-girlfriend" with Tzeyang just now. Well, Since foo said She can't really trust me in writing a review about movies..Let's just leave the comments short,shall we?..Hmm..If u have nothing better to do, with a few hours to kill, then,the movie is worth watching.Otherwise, I would suggest you to do something which is much worthy of your time..or get Pirated CDS,or much better, download the movie la..

Saw her in Jusco. In fact most of the UTP students were there. Bumped into Joshua and Boon Tat. Met up with sheateng,keehui and zhanpheng. Saw familiar faces from UTP, and yes, saw her with the ex. Just realised that she has no fashion sense at all..but that's not the point. Her EX. That's one freaking major problem. Tzeyang assured me that there was nothing wrong in going out with a friend to watch a movie..Even both of us were doing so..oh yeah,just to add in,even me and Sanjeev were doing so..Ok, point taken.
-But that's her EX...

Ee wan called me then, for yumcha session again. COuldn't make it, came back and then go out so late meh..Ipoh is no longer safe these days..

Felt so sad now.Upset.WOnder why.........
Why oh why...

Death is not something which needs to be fear of.
Look forward to it, becuase sometimes being dead might not be something bad after all..
Death provides you with a way out when you reach a stage where no answer could be given.
I look forward to the day I die..People die eventually;an inevitable process- and I would want my death to be witnessed by '......'

Can't wait till I breathe my last breath of air.
Then, at that very second when my heart stops beating, my pulse stops running, my chest stops moving,..that is when I know I have been stripped off all my problems and worries..

I just can't wait.I have too many  heartaches and pain already.Release me from this,please, will You?I want everything to stop, the pace is just too much for me to catch up..All I want is my life back.If not, it may as well be taken away from me.

Too much misery and disappointment sucks.

Everytime the holidays are here, I would hoped that it would end soon.
Everytime I am stuck there, I hope that the semester ends faster.
Cilakak...

--I really need to go to new places. Meet new people.

My life must be pretty pathetic.
This is my 3rd entry of the day man..and it's MY holidays lar..
Should be doing something interesting or rather exciting instead;not sitting around at home,blogging about nonsense..
I think I must go for a drive later tonight. Do something which I love for once.

Searched my entire phonebook to find company today.
Just wanted to have dinner--yet can't find anyone.
(*Yeesan, nothing against you alright?..)
It's either that group of people has trial exams on, or they are not around in Malaysia.
Man, sucks big time.~I need to meet more people. Be a social rama-rama.

As I was telling tzeyang last night.., UTP has to expand its campus and its faculties.Currently UTP only specializes in Engineering and Technology.So, you can guess the group of people I see each there, they are either Engineers or Technologists.And people like them can be..err...boring at times..You know engineers...Hehhe...I need to meet people from other faculties!..People from Medicine, from MassComm, PUblic Relations, People other than Engineers and Technologists.
I need spice in my life man..

Well, I need to go clubbing for once.Oh,Trying to get my group of friends to go clubbing AT LEAST ONCE..Carina and Tzeyang don't really fancy clubbing. In our group, only I drink a lot..Tzeyang is just a social drinker..The rest don't even touch alcohol..See la? I want to meet bad, naughty boys..

I reckoned as we are approaching the big TWENTY, we would want to do something crazy before having to grow up for sure.I want to bring down the house(figuratively)! and not be responsible for the wreckage. I want to make mistakes and shake my head innocently after that. I want to jump around in shopping malls without having to care about what others think about me. I want to talk loudly,and crap so loud in the public with my friends without giving a damn.

--Oh yeah, anyone interested in doing anything crazy over the weekdays/weekend?..

Auspiscious number-555..
Reminds me of my accident which happened a year ago..
5th of May 2005 (random)

hmm..Suet Mei's gonna leave tomorrow night.
Another one gone.
Met up for the last time in INDULGENCE.took a few pictures but I forgot to bring the Olympus cable back..so can't really upload the pictures YET.

*gonna miss u kid?although u are one year older...but yea, I am gonna miss u lar..

Medical checkup to be continued tomorrow.
The doctor was not happy with what he saw in my bloodstreams.
Darn! I shouldn't have drank the 'Sake' before going to the doctors.
Should have drank after.

Alright, perhaps I shouldn't have drink anything at all..
Impossible.

Our conversation today:-
"janice, have you been drinking lately?"

Smiled.

"Janice, have YOU been drinking?"..His voice started to rise a little.

Smiled.Nodded a little.

"You know you shouldn't be drinking after what I have warned you before."

The thing about family doctors..-They keep track of your medical history. If i am unlucky, he might even call my parents up to report to them. Yeah, the doctor happens to be a friend of the family too.
Damn!!

I promised to stop drinking.I promised her . But I failed.
The heart does its thinking more than the brain itself. It's currently dysfuncitonal.
My heart is doing overtime-missing someone who's far away.
My brain is down,due to drugs.
The only thing working right now, ..is...oh,wait..NONE of my body parts are working..

I think God has been fooling around with me all this while.
No doubt, he has given me all the opportunities for me to pursue in my studies, all the second chances rebounds..but yet, I have to admit, no one's live is perfect.

People tend to take things too casually. We underestimate the power of time. The huge mistakes we make if we think things are gonna remain the same after a certain period of time.

Assumption is also another mistake we always make. Assuming this, assuming that..What the heck?!! Can't we just go directly to the point,instead of making assumptions..?

Someone told me that he used to think that he liked me.
When asked, he told me that he knew he didn't stand a chance with me. He knew that I hadn't let go of the past.He also know that he wasn't the type of guy I would choose to be my life partner. So, the only thing he did was to like some other person.The other person which was not me.

The only regret was, I used to have a feeling towards him. Even from the beginning..Just that I was stuck in the middle; the past and the present. There was too much to let go, to little to grasp then.

The reason why I am writing this down here, not to let that person know about how I used to feel, but to remind myself that the past remains history. I wonder how many times have I repeated the same old mistakes..How many good guys have i let them went to some other girls' arms?..

He told me that I would be able to find someone better.He thinks I deserve better.I am glad that he's the only person who thinks I deserve better than what I had. Oh wait,..she is the other person who thinks I ought to treat myself better too.

What can I say?
The past will always haunt me. I can never let it go.

They always say,"Angkhian,sooner or later, you will bound to forget about this piece of shit.!!You will get pass this phase. It's just a phase.."

I wished things were just as simple as said.

Ipoh-ians really have nothing much to do besides eating,eating and more eating...

The medical checkup resumed this morning.Shereen was sweet enough to have accompanied me before going off for breakfast with YeeSan and Waizin in Kopitiam,Ipoh Garden South. We headed to JUSCO after that where Foo joined us for lunch in Kenny Rogers. Boy, Lunch was rather expensive,taking RM20 out from each of our wallets.Mel joined us after that. Within an hour, we finished walking the whole JUSCO.

There was nothing to do after that. We sat around in the benches provided outside the cinema and started cracking our heads, thinking of what to do.

In the end, we ended up in OLDTOWN kopitiam, the branch in Ipoh Garden East. Though we had a heavy lunch, yet we were still sitting around,chatting with nothing better to do, eating and eating again.

Plans were made.Gossips were heard.Foo belanja-ed.

Send Shereen and Waizin back at 5pm.

Ipoh is where good, yummy and cheap food can be found.But that's certainly no reason for us to keep eating all the time. Everytime we have nothing better to do, all we can think of is places to sit down, chit-chat and have a drink. Getting bored with the same old agenda. Must give some suggestions to the TOWN governer or something.Need to do something more interesting than lazing around, eating and repeating the same old joke every time.

Like the classic joke of mine, which we keep repeating every 3 months we get together.

Oh yeah, tomorrow, meeting up with Eewan, Yeesan, Shereen and Waizin again for lunch in Tanjung Tualang. Seafood!..

 *slap forehead!*

See??We are doing it again. Eat!--non stop.--

Blood test results were back this morning.
Everything seems fine-except for one thing.
He knows I have been drinking again.(What's new?)

And this time around, another problem has arisen.
My cholesterol level is alarming. My level is only understandable if I am at the age of 40 years. But now, for a 19-year-old, the doctor has warned me already.

For normal cholesterol level, it's (<5.28).
Guess mine?
(7.12)..

Alright, basically cholesterol is divided into 2 types. The good one:HDL cholesterol and the mean one:LDL cholesterol.
My HDL seems fine..my LDL is..
Ok,the normal level is (<2.68)..MINE...?..
..(4.32)

Alarming?

Makan-ed non stop today..(again!)

We had a roadtrip today, to Tanjung Tualang..and to stop by in UTP..Needed to show Waizin and Shereen around the campus because they seem to be curious about the newly built University in a town named Tronoh. See..it's weird that even people from Perak has no idea where Tronoh is, a kampung-like town.

The journey started at 12.
Reached the place at 1.

We had real fun,chatting in the car on the way there. Eewan had to look out for sudden appearances of cows during the journey. Everyone had a nice laughing session the whole day.

We had no idea what to eat. Asked for their specialities and all they had was prawns..and some other things lar..
We ended up with 6 dishes..

--The yummy-licious,mouth-watering,juicy famous prawns of Tanjung Tualang.

--The other dishes.

Just to provoke your appetites..We had:

• Prawns cooked in 2 different styles.
  Steamed and stir-fry
• Fried rice with yummy charsiew and prawns.
• Sotong fried with chillies.
• Thai-style Taufu.

At first, I kept thinking that it would not be enough..but seriously, I got so full in the end that I was kinda sleepy on the way to UTP.
We finished off with desserts avaliable across the street.
Shereen, Me and Eewan have a 'WAN TAO LONG' each.Just in case no one knows what 'WAN TAO LONG' is, it's yellow,sweet jelly topped up with either Santan or Lime Juice..ICED..
Only Yeesan had an aiskacang. Ais kacang is Ice topped with syrup either gula melaka, or red-colour syrup, with leung-fun(black coloured jelly), cendol(green coloured jelly), peanuts, corn,and other funny funny stuffs..Oh,hers happened to have an ice-cream on top of the pile of ice.
Both these desserts are a must-have in Tanjung Tualang after the main course.Too bad, we were so engrossed in eating, we forgot to take a picture of those.

 
--us who went.
(Eewan,ME,yeesan, Waizin and shereen)

--Waizin and I,wearing Nike's line of DryFit shirts.
(*Thanks kenneth for getting me one of those!)

The field trip resumed after we were full.
Reached UTP around 2.15pm..

Brought them around..Just realised that the campus is actually rather small-lar..but they were pretty amazed with the structures of the building and since Waizin has been to Nottingham's campus in UK, she kept commenting about UTP's excellent structure.=)

We arrived in Ipoh around 3 something..Yea, Yeesan suggested to go yumcha in Sun Yun Long in Oldtown.I ordered 2 pieces of toasted bread,smother with kaya and butter..Shereen ordered 'Fried Lobak' and Eewan ordered some kaya cake..We were eating and eating,though we were full from Lunch.

Holidays coming to an end.

Means Final week is going to be near soon...SOon!!..
Eewan has left to Manchester..Oh man, another 3 months more before we can meet..(NOT that I wanna meet her la..I am only waiting for my white jacket and my JD!)

-JD,JD,JD,JD!!!!
[oh, JD stands for Jack Daniel's]

Hehhe..

*EEWAN,remember ah!!!*

Lol.Shereen and EeWAN saw me in a drunken state last night. After finishing the whole bottle of red wine, Called Eewan out for a drink in Kopitiam. Brought Shereen along..and I saw JinNaa in Kopitiam. My whole face was red, and I was goddamn drunk. I know I was blabbering non-stop, I know I am conscious, yet my head was spinning..I kept wanting to throw up in Eewan's car but luckily I didn't..Hehhe..

Current status: Restraining from writing something which Dai didn't allow me to do so...

Baru balik dari LAMAN WEB mel..(http://www.xanga.com/arkinarch)..
Ingin saya ketawa kuat-kuat,melihat Bahasa Melayunya yang masih bagus..Tetapi masih kelakar juga,memandangkan dia masih berada di Malaysia,dan ada beberapa perkataan yang dia tidak pasti..

Memandangkan saya masih menunggu ayah saya untuk pulang dari kerja untuk makan malam bersama-sama, saya pun turut serta ingin menulis dalam bahasa Malaysia..Agak bosan juga membaca journal saya setiap hari dalam bahasa Inggeris..Hehhe..

Tak sangka Mel boleh buat pao juga!..kelakarnya..
Saya hanya tahu masak Mi Segera..hehe..Cepat, Murah dan Sedap!

Saya sudah lama tidak menggunakan Bahasa Melayu dalam petuturan seharian dan juga dalam penulisan saya. Oh, saya sudah lupa--Saya ada menggunakan Bahasa Melayu,semasa memesan makanan di Kafeteria di Universiti.Hehe..
Nasib baik saya masih tahu sikit-sikit la..

Oh..Saya kena blah.Ayah sudah menelefon saya..ada lapar,ada kenyang.Tak tahu mahu makan ke tidak..Hmm...bosannya...

Adakah anda sama-sama merindui saya?
Do you miss me too?

Someone asked me: "Is Malay the 'in' language these days?"

Whoa.
It all started when Mel made pao..oh..no..it didn't start there..it started when Mel made pao and wrote it in her Xanga in Bahasa Melayu..
[See mel..you can be influencial too,ya know?]

***

Downloaded the whole of Nick Lachey's album..
Oh man, I wish I have the talent to write songs..then I can sing my agony away instead.
I can stop blogging then.

Was supposed to go Pangkor tomorrow but all of a sudden, due to miscommunication, plans were cancelled. Tee Hooi has to go alone.
Oo boy..
Anyway, I didn't really mind, I wasn't that keen to go anyway..Since Michelle was so hyper in meeting with me, Ok...I have to go to Jusco tomorrow to meet up with them. Yeah, Ban's farewell would be held tomorrow too..As I was telling Waizin, I have to start learning splitting myself into 2,3 or more..

***

Death.
That's what I have been hearing lately.
A 21-year-old boy.
A teacher's husband.
A friend's dad.

What has the world became?
Good guys die young?Bad guys don't die?

Condolence to all.

***

I just finished my dad's second bottle of white wine..
Wait, don't "HAH?Again ah???" first...
This time, it's a super mini size bottle..and I was drinking because dad says it's good to enjoy a nice bottle of wine with good cheese and caviar!..
Ok, I was only listening to the elderly..

Alright, I didn't get high or anything.
Let alone get drunk.
It was a healthy drink, just to get the cheese going down smoothly.

Memandangkan Bahasa Melayu merupakan bahasa hangat hari ini, jadi kami telah berbual secara 'atas garisan' dalam sebuah bilik perbualan dengan menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan.

Saya rasa pasti Yeesan akan melekat serba-sikit tentang topik perbualan kami yang agak melucukan. Saya tidak tahan terketawa tidak henti-henti sepanjang malam di hadapan skrin komputer saya. Agak melucukan membaca perkataan-perkataan baru yang dihasilkan oleh Mel sendiri..

Oh,sebelum saya lupa, kami telah memberi nama samaran kepada beberapa orang la..
Dahines ---- Sudu besi berkarat
Mel ----- Si Teko
Yeesan -----Cawan

Kelakar kan? Ketawa sehingga kering gusi saya. Memang bagus anak murid Tengku dan Pn Maziah ni..Hahha..Pasti mereka akan pangsan melihat tatabahasa kami yang agak mengelirukan dan pasti akan kena ejek teruk-teruk.

Tapi saya rasa kami ni agak bagus juga, Ada yang hampir habis melupakan bahasa ni..
Ok, saya nak blah ni..agak letih..

*Sebelum saya lupa, saya tak suka memakai pakaian dalam (bra!). Membuatkan saya susah bernafas kerana menekan tulang-tulang dada saya..mcam nak pangsan je ni..sakitnya..

Nothing nice to blog about today.
Had pIzza for lunch--VinShen's farewell before he leaves.
Met up with Michelle Lee.
See? Told ya nothing interesting.
hehhe..

Sleepy.Going back to hell tomorrow.
On the other hand, she's coming down tomorrow. Have something to do.Am supposed to fetch her around.Get some stuffs and go back together.

Nothing big.
~Must start jogging from next week onwards.

Hahha..since Michelle Lee has already posted the pictures in her blog, then there's no point for me to do the same thing right?..
However, I have to say that I am going to miss Ban/Gorilla..since I have known him since we were young..Damn long ago la..when we were 6 years old..when he used to look cute~..haha..I would always remember the time when KaiLi,ME and him stood on the stage to give a welcoming speech during our kindergarten concert..
Kai Li spoke in Chinese, Ban spoke in English and I, did it in Bahasa Melayu.

Cheh wah...
and after that, get to know Ban went to SMI and Kai Li went to AMC and I was in MGS..Got to know Ban once again when he was the troop leader of SMI and we tend to meet in Gatherings la..=)

Who am I talking about?

Hehhe..I don't think can call him Gorilla anymore la..Must call him Goatie--suits him more..hehe...
p/s: Gonna miss you..DO well in Medic and come back and help me cure my unhealthy passion yar??

***

She came down today, and I picked her up from Medan Kidd.
Drove straight to Kopitiam--the one in Ipoh Garden South with lotsa hawker stall?..Yeah, that one..After her breakfast, we went to Jusco, to get what we were supposed to get.
Couldn't find the things la, so went to The store instead. Lagi takde..
Had to drive around Ipoh and no results la.
So, came back to UTP la..
She managed to borrow her friend's car and we went to Sri Iskandar, to see la..
Takde la.
Went to Taman Maju--lagi teruk.
Finally,drove all the way to Batu Gajah, AND yea, we got it alas.
I drove her around the whole day already--not that I mind la..
Driving is the other passion of mine la--the healthier one.

So tired!!..

I just wanna write about how wonderful my housemates are.

There's Criscentia, Nony, Carina, Sheateng, Punchee, ME, Nana, Jaja and 2 malay girls(~not what I wanted to say)..hehe..
We have lotsa fun chatting at the dining area.., talking about crap..=)

End of story.

Just so you know, I am sick of Rocks in the moment.
Yeah, you see it right, R-O-C-K-S, ROCKS--..
What the heck with Geology? Just because my current lecturer is a Geologist, a certified one with loadsa qualification, decides to come and teach in UTP, trying to change us into becoming a Geologist, instead of Civil Engineers.
What the hell, man?!

Last night, I received a message from Joshua, telling all of us that the reports of Rocks are to be submitted today.
TODAY! and I had less than 8 hours before sunrise.
I couldn't do anything, the girls couldn't do anything.
All we did was wait, wait and hell ya, wait..
The speciments were in the lab, and yeah, there's no way of breaking into the lab,in the middle of the night..and yes, no reports could be done.
SO,we waited.

This morning, we discover the act of SELFISHNESS.
Let's not even go into that.

We quickly rushed to the computer lab, print our notes and yes, quickly strategise in completing our reports together.
We were down to 4 in a team. All girls with no geology experiences at all.
We were so determined in doing, until Lenis came and told us that the reports were to be handed in the earliest on Friday.
Good~
More time for us to complete our work.
So, we sorta cool off abit..wasn't so tensed up..
Then..then..we did our lab work la..
Examining 44 rocks.
FORTY-four damn f~~king rocks which consists of Igneous, Metamorphic and Sedimentary Rocks.
[I bet you don't even know what those are!]

Hmm..I was out from 8 am till 6pm today.
I spent 2 hours (4-6pm), 'fishing' in DE class today.
Man, I was so tired, that I can't find words to describe my lethargy.

I have a long-winding meeting at 10 tonight.
Nevermind la,says Punchee.
You are willing to go for it also mar..You know, I lagi know, she added.

***

All I wanna do write now is cry non-stop.
I guess today is one of those days when nothing went correctly..

Hmm..
One test done, 2 more to go.
This test nearly took my life away..Literally.
Tomorrow, SP lab test and Geology test.
What are those?
Don't ask me yar.

Not going back to Ipoh this weekend.
Sigh.

Eewan's left me a  MSN message:
"Hey, you wanna know something about her that you might not have seen and heard??"

I read the message rather late, and I wonder who the she is.
Let's hope it's not HER she meant.
Or is it? I am worried.
I checked HER friendster,any indication that she might be in trouble..
NoPE..
She's most probably not going to be online..coz I think she has blocked me..
and I kept nudging Eewan in MSN,but there was no response..
I even texted her--wayyy in Manchester..
No reply.
(Just when I was about to study, and she had to leave me danggling in suspense just like that!)
Darn~~Eewan, if you are reading this, anytime soon..I am so freaking worried..

Blogging in misery~

I had two tests today.
One was at 10am, another was at 3pm.
In the middle, I had to finish up my assignment which was supposed to be handed in at 5pm.
So, yes, I didn't manage to finish studying for the 3pm's test.
Geology was hell,man-I tell you..

Almost half of the paper was left with blanks.
The invigilator who happens to be my lecturer, was walking around when he stopped in front of my desk.
He tapped on my table and said,"Eh, why is there so many blanks?I asked you to fill in the blanks, not to leave it all empty."

Darn~!Damn paiseh..The whole hall heard it and all I did was covered up my beetroot face..(ok, it didn't really blush that much la)..but still, paiseh man!..The rests were practically laughing,banging their desks..

*How am I supposed to fill in the blanks when there's nothing even to be filled, in the first place?*

Ish..

Anyway, MP's other half texted me today.
Left me in an emo state.

So sad.I was so moody that though I was in pasar malam with a few friends of mine. Though I was enjoying good food. Though my wallet was running low on cash. I was upset to the max.Bah~As usual, I had to pretend that nothing is wrong..and I am practically fine with the breakup.
Life sucks to the max man!!

I kinda miss MP though.
First love die hard eh?..

Lo and Behold.
It's the weekends, people!..

I am so grateful for the weekends la..
Thank god there's Friday and Saturday..
Wait, I am not fond of Sunday though..coz the next day, it's gonna be MONDAY!..
seriously i have the monday blues since i get here..
I hate Mondays..

I slept quite early last night.
Couldn't tahan liao-Damn tired sia...
Wanted to watch SEPET(ok, so what if I haven't watch that yet?)..but since Keehui has gotten GUBRA(the sequel after SEPET)..so lagi I have to watch SEPET first la right?..
and last night in pasar malam, I bought not one, not two but THREE tvb dramas to accompany me throughout the semester..
**Hiak hiak**
Seronoknya aku!

Let's not forget that FINALS is less than 2 months!!
Darn!~~

Current status: Craving for some, sweet desserts..
                      I memang like perempuan  mengandung la..Crave for things at 
                      the wrong hour pula tu..

Woke up, startled.
I dream of the weirdest thing on earth.

Oh, shereen, foo and Mel hinted that I didn't have to attend the Chinese Dinner wor..So, i guess, that's strike out for me la..I am free on the 29th then, I guess..
Anyone with better plans in mind?..

Wasted my whole Saturday.
Started watching one of the TVBdrama series, and in the evening, Pinky came over to do the EDX cards together.
Peichie joined way much later.

It was fun..undeniable.
Lotsa catching up done with Peichie, since she was so busy with NACES and all..
I am glad to have finally talked to her last night.

I guess, I better get started again with the TVB drama.I want to finish it over THIS weekend, and concentrate on my studies during the weekday.
By the way, she asked me for my blog address..and I want to give it to her.
Should I not?

Thought that I will gonna be spending my weekend alone. Peichie left only at 2 am.The cards are only halfway done. Dateline is on Monday..
and yeah, Statics Assignment is still pending.

Finally got my Statics assignment done.
Hallelujah!!..

And now to get to my movies..
*grins grins*

I am hungry weh...Damn hungry..
Today, me craving for toasted bread with bacon and cheese...
*yummies**..

Watching 'MEN IN PAIN'--one the TVB dramas that I have bought.

I missed MP.
I missed Pooiting.
I missed her.
It has been a long time since I last talked to them.

Sigh.

Aah..the things I can do for people..

Punchee has already fallen to deep sleep and her class is at 11 am!..For goodness sake..,mine is at 8 IN THE MORNING,man..

Hmm..currently listening to Third Eye Blind's "She likes me for me"..

***

I think i better get some quality sleep la..
Sit in front of the computer also think alot, on the bed also think a lot..
I think I over-exhaust my brain too much, I can even dream about things when I sleep..

Oh man..

Hmm..i need to get my hands on the latest Sony Erricson phone which Kenneth put on his blog.

Listening to Nick Lachey's " I can't hate you anymore"

***

I acted like a fool in front of my housemates today.
Couldn't blame me.
Was in a drunken state.

Criscentia said,"What?You drank??"

For one moment, I thought she was going to report me to the fellow or something..
And then she continued her sentence..

...and you didn't call me??"

Hehhe...another kaki minum with me la..

YAY!!..now to open another can of......
fizzy drink...

The fasting month has begun TWO days ago..
Being in a local uni, i have came to realise that when the Muslims puasa, they actually expect the Buddhist,Christians,Taoism,free-thinkers and the atheis to go on a fast with them too..
oK, maybe this doesn't happen to the country overall but does this happen in your local uni too?

Alright, everytime our class ends,especially whenever our classes starts at 8 in the morning..(actually all my classes starts at 8-la)..we have an hour break in between before the next class..and today, the usual routine was, we have 2 hours in between la..Where to go except the cafeteria right?The usual hangout place no?

Pocket D.

To our dismay, there was no food at all..ok, let's make it sound more drastic..NO FOOD AT ALL!!!!..The usual bihun goreng/mi goreng/nasi lemak/hotdogs/fried eggs are no longer in their original places..So, i mai walk near the counters la..coz sometimes, they put them at the counters instead of displaying them..but so fuckingly disappointed,there was nothing.

I was hungry, i had to settle with the packet of biscuit which i brought along in my bag.
Damn tulan you know!..

OKla,.i know..it's the fasting month and all..and in the utmost respect, I know the Muslims have to berpuasa la..I can deal with that also..but seriously, you want the whole community to go on a fasting frenzy too??..and yes, the whole uni, only ONE blardy cafeteria is open..which is located like so damn far from our academic buildings..Moreover it's only the western food..So you want us to survive on chicken chops and chicken burgers for ONE WHOLE MONTH?

Siao ah you,rector!

Luckily Teehooi and Shiouting woke up early to prepare their lunch boxes,at least I had something to fill in my tummy to last me up to 3 pm...
And now I have no idea how to survive the next 28 days..

It's so blardy unfair.UTP is supposed to be an international university..and the nearest town is 5 minutes drive away..Those who has cars can actually drive out for a short lunch session,but how about those who only rely on their two legs to travel about?..Walk to Tronoh??

Ok, then I would rather fast.

How can the student council representative be quiet about this in the first place?I thought they were supposed to represent us and all..tell the management our problems and..to solv....Ooooppppss!!Wait one blardy second..I forgot the fact that the student council has the whole Melayu community in majority..

WTH MAN!~~

I don't wanna go on a puasa month.You wanna go, you go ahead. I respect you enough to NOT drink in front of you, nor would I EAT in front of you..but you must also understand the fact that I beh tahan there's no GOOD FOOD in the campus..You think Muslims only wanna eat food ah??..THe nons don't have to eat ah?!!!

Si beh angry!!

Anyway, my class ended early on Mondays so decided to cook myself a proper meal, considering that I have been 'starving' myself the whole day. Walked around the uni to pass the invitation letterS with PeiChie..So, today I cooked ABC soup la..the easiest mar..haha..it turned out ok gua..they didn't complain so I assumed it was alright la..

sIGH..need to get some sleep la..sleep-deprieved..

hungry woi!>..

Miserable...

How can I let someone know that I want something to be done.??without hurting his/her feelings??..

Life's freaking hard, it seems..

 Things seem to go wrong again and again each semester... 

*The problem being in a University--as I have always mentioned about is people have a variety of characteristics that not everyone would be able to accomodate.

Some people misinterprete words. Some people are highly sensitive.Some are hot-tempered;some are brainless thoughtless..Some think highly of themselves,some ignore the presence of others..
Some help you,some waiting for your fall..

Within a few days, I have met with these types of people.
And when I thought I am going to enjoy myself in the next 4 years, things bound to happen.
Ugly sides of things potrayed themselves.

At times I think whether the level of maturity in University students are anywhere near adults.Or we are in the transistion of becoming young adults that we get confused at times. We have no control in our emotions and actions. We let these overrule us,that we are unaware that our actions can actually affect the people around us.

Maybe my principle is : Treat everyone good to avoid any trouble.

Heck!What is wrong with that??

Sanjeev says I still live in my own ideal world. There's no way for me to treat everyone good because some people don't appreciate goodness,and they misused it.

So what if I am being misused?
So what I have to be the one apologizing everytime something happens?
So what if it ain't my fault from the beginning?
So what if it wasn't my problem that my words get misinterpreted all the time?
So what if I am the only one thinking of the long run rather than satisfying myself in just a short period of time?

~Ok, wait..tell me where did I go wrong then??

I apologized. For something that I am 100% that I didn't do anything wrong for.
I said sorry, hoping that an apology can make things go better..
But what did I get in return?
You tell me..

And you know the most fucked up thing is..?..
Because of one person that we don't even like, we got into this pathetic argument which I don't even get the problem in the first place.

I am so sick of apologizing. And it's not even for my mistakes.
It's just to please you..yet if that's the way I am treated in return, wouldn't it be better if I just kept my mouth shut and pretend that nothing has ever happened?

Hell no!..

Finally found out the name of the girl whom I saw standing,waiting for her food in v3 last 2 weeks..
Too bad, this will be her final sem..
Sob..just when I thought i found rainbow after the rain...
Hehhe..I remembered asking tzeyang to stop the whole car,when we were on our way out from the University, because I saw her jogging in the field.
=)

The headache is getting worse.
I can feel drumers in my head already.
I suspect it must be my MP4 player which I had it plug in my ears almost everytime I can.
As soon as the lecturer dismiss the class, I would be seen instantly plugging the earphones into my earhole.

Damn!~

Just gotten my final project for Engineering Graphics. Have gotta design an office building with a space of 8100ft² ,fully furnished with furnitures and gadgets. There's gonna be one office space for MD, and the staffs la..alot of things la..plus parking lot and all,..with greens..

Ariff said, "It's something like the Sims only..Wait, do you think the lecturer would allow us to use The Sims to do this task?..Then, we can put real people inside,and buy lotsa nice things for it la..

I said,"LOL..then we can use cheat la..can have lotsa money to buy lotsa things!"

I wasn't making any sense really.
But this project takes up 40% of my overall marks. Die la~!!!!!
And I haven't even master AUTOCAD yet!!..
Lagi mahu office, garden, parkinglot...

I can prove to you that sometimes, reading the papers might not be a good thing..
Today,while waiting for the lecturer to step in, I flipped the papers..The STAR to be exact..There's the 'In-tech' section which features all the cool gadgets all around the world..

Then having to reach that section, I pun baca la..
Saw the adverts...Sony's T10 digital camera...Wahliao..my mouth started to open itself..(no pun intended!)..I quickly told shiouting and teehooi..and all of us wanted to get that camera almost instantly..In my mind, it kept racing to calculate the amount of money I have in my bank account..Trying to figure out whether I was able to purchase one this weekend itself..

I continued flipping the paper..

Saw another ad for IPOD..
I looked at my miserable MP4 player which its screen has already cracked and the multiple scratches on its metalic body and bits and pieces of it was almost gone..
I took my phone, typed in my dad's number and started to text him.
"Care to donate to get-your-daughter-an-Ipod" fund??

No reply.

Continued flipping when I saw another ad!..
Darn~~..
Car advertistment.The latest BMW series..

I know..I know..I am an impulse buyer..I have this soft spot for gadgets and a hole in my pocket..

There's nothing better than the smell of fresh air in IPoh.
Ok--abit exagerrated,since I come from Tronoh..not far from Ipoh..
BUt just having to reach another weekend seems to be sort of a triumph..Happy to know that I have survived another academic week..
[not that I have done anything much throughout the week though~]

However, another weekend means another week nearer to Finals.
**shivers**

Meeting up with Jinnaa, Judy,Goh and Veevian tomorrow..
*Hyper-jump!*
So long didn't meet with them..and i don't think 2 hours is sufficient to catch up with their lives..

So much to read, so little time.
Statics is killing me softly, Geology is doing its usual thang and TechWrite is sucking my entire internal energy.
The only reason why I am still breathing now is because BOTH structured programming and Differential Equation can't make up their minds--who to take my life away first.

Oh wait. Engineering Graphics is already in line.

2 more months before my academic semester ends.
Less than a month before EDX18 takes place.
3 more weeks before the month of Ramadhan.
2 more days before the weekends end.

--> Been spending less and less time with my own group.
     Kinda stuck to the computer most of the time.
    Work and the internet is taking up most of it.
     Or perhaps, people do not make an effort to do something about things.

Or perhaps what Kevin said was right..
"You need to get laid."

I wished.

Was not planning till later tonight..then again, went through Mel's blogpage and saw that she has tagged me..Kononnya I wanted something to do wor..(kesiannya)..*smacks head!!*

Awesome people I would want to meet:
1. Every morning, I look into the mirror wokey... 
 
 
 Things I can't live without:
1. My handphone..(who doesn't know about this la??)
2. My laptop..
3. My MP4 player..
4. The car.

I wish I could:
1. find my other half..
2. score 4.0 this sem, and the sem after and the sem after..till i graduate just to prove to THEM that girls are as good..
3. travel around the world..
4. spread the love around the world, contribute more to the society..
5. love again..

I want:
1. a better powerful laptop..
2. a BMW..or a nicer car with bigger horsepower..
3. the latest handphone in the market..
4. more hours in a day..
5. more money..(money is the KEY to everything ok)

Songs that I think are awesome:
1. Breathe-Sean Paul and Blu'Cantrell
2. Closing the goddamn door-Panic at the disco 
3. Wisemen-James Blunt
4. I woke up in a car-Something corperate
5. Dark Blue-Jacks Mannequin

How I see myself in 10 years:
* I would be 29 years old - too!*
1. Hopefully an Engineer??(pretty please, god??) 
2. Be able to drive a BMW..
3. Finally back to my old self?
4. No longer drinking that much?
5. ..able to afford a big house for both my parents..

Random Facts:
1: I used to know how to play the guitar.. 
2. I hide my inner feelings by talking alot at times..
3. I don't really like drinking actually..
4. I love driving,..very much!
5. I have no evil thoughts about anyone. If I don't like you, I can always ignore you but soon, I'll forget all about it..but definitely, no evil thoughts to get back at u..

Misconceptions:
1. People think I am happy all the time.
2. People think I am self centered.
3. People think I am rich..(which is not true at all!)
4. People think I am a spoilt brat with no brains.
5. People think I do not mind being joked about or laughed at.

I tag:
1. Wei Ern
2. Eewan
3. Pinky
4. Teehooi(Please update your blog la!!)
5. Jiamin

Guys are shallow.
I shall rephrase that.
MOST guys are shallow.

[no offence to some though]

But I can't help but feel that guys have nothing else in mind, except pretty girls all the time. OK, some do put their studies in front, but some only wants to dota-dota-and more dota besides pretty girls.

I know, most of the guys in UTP complain about the state of girls in UTP. They think UTP has no pretty girls to look at. Wait, why are these people complaining??You come to UTP, to get a degree or to look at pretty girls?..

Like I have always said..God is pretty fair. It's either you get something or you get the other. No way you get both. Oh,there are exceptional cases but seriously, how lucky can someone get?..
It's either you get the brains or you get the looks. We do have smart girls who looks pretty..but rare. These girls..-we do not see them always.

Back to what I was trying to say,I came across a blog page of a friend. Complained about the girls in UTP..I can't help but feel abit insulted. I am pretty sure most of my friends who came across that, felt something too.It's alright with whatever you have said in your own blog,because it's yours and I do believe in the freedom of speech..but like I have said again, guys are rather thoughtless. How can you actually rate a girl based on her looks only? There are so many criteria in a person that besides looks, girls are rather good in other factors.

Do you see girls blogging about the not-leng-chai-guys in UTP??Because unlike guys, we have brains.(so what if we do not have the looks?).We have common sense too. We don't write about things which might offend the other party. We know our limits.

All I can say is, maybe we are not goodlooking..Or maybe we are,just that we aren't your type. However,you have no right in announcing to the whole world that UTP has no pretty girls.You are the only one thinking that way. Shallow minded,mind you.
We can always, ALWAYS announce to the whole world too, that UTP has not only NOT goodlooking guys, but also shallow, brainless and EQ-LESS..but why didn't we?

So what if you have the brains of Albert Einstein..or the skills of Bill Gates?..
You have just created a propaganda between both sexes.
You have crossed the line.

Maria's and Indulgence.
In JUST ONE NIGHT.
Hmm..non ipoh-ians, you might not understand what's the big hoo-hahh about..however I shall explained furthur.
Maria's and Indulgence:Both places charge super-duperly expensive.
Big $$$$..

There's this one waitress in Maria's who was so hyper in meeting us. She served us with a smile.Constant smile. Like she was so happy to serve us and to work there. It was either she was under probation period or Foo was sending wrong signals to her.

Foo thinks that the only way that Maria's compensate with their bad food is with their good service.

Only Foo and Yeesan turned up for Dinner. Jacq was supposed to be there but cancelled last minute. So we had our dinner when they decided to have desserts in Indulgence. So off we went to Indulgence la..

Reached Indulgence, we ordered cakes la. This time,Lydia, Mel and Jacq Joined us.

I ordered :  
            (zee zee hazelnut)

Jacq, Lydia,ME,yeesan,Mel and FOo.

Lydia, ME and yeesan.

*I was holding the Sony camera T10*..(not mine..=( )

We had lotsa fun catching up. Talking about the same old thing over and over again.Just realised being in Tronoh very the ulu. I don't even know half of the KL peeps that Yeesan and Foo know.

Sobb...sob...
[pictures are kinda small in size coz taken from Yeesan's multiply.]