I think one of the flaws found in humans is GREED.
Honestly, I think it's perfectly fine to be greedy, as long as you know your limits.
I am a greedy person, I must say.
I want things after the other, and when I want something, I want it.
Full stop.
However, I know my limits. I know when to stop asking, and when to stop craving.
Believe me, my desire goes away after that.
But some people, they get greedy. They want more. AND MORE..AND MORE...
I'd love to have more too..but I know my limit.

=)

3 chapters of Statics being questioned tomorrow.
1/4 chapter done.
1 hole to jump in later.
1 practical test for tennis later..(aaah!! I hear thunder..The rain to come now would be fine with me.)

It's busy busy busy for all of us here in campus.
Test week is probably the busiest week for all undergraduates.
Thank goodness for Schlumberger Technology Day, we stopped by, mingle around before moving on to another hectic day ahead.

So, if I am lucky, I might even be able to write something down tonight. That's if I am able to.
Told Punchee, blogging is another 1 credit hour of Subject for me.

5 reasons why I think GUYS still have a lot to learn:

• They are thoughtless. No more holding doors for women, no more gentleman actions..What happened to chauvanism?
• They have no sensitivity in people's feelings.
• They think whatever they do is correct. Others are wrong.
• They only look at outer beauty. To hell with Inner beauty.
• They act like...errmmm....GUYS?

Sigh. Guys are meant to be guys?..A lot to learn.

Statics test tomorrow night. I guess a short entry it is then!.

It's alright if you refuse to help.
It's alright if you despise me, you look down on me.
It's alright if I don't gain your respect,
It's alright if you do not care about my existance.
It's not alright with me when you demand for the amount of respect you want for me, if you are not giving me any.

Respect always go both ways. It's a 2 way thing. A mutual thing.
And you want me to give a damn about you when you don't even acknowledge my presence?
I always thought highly of you, thinking that you are different from the rest.
You have an attitude of your own.
You made the world seem nice..
I used to think you are nice too..until I realised that you are the same with the rest.
You are as thoughtless, as ruthless and everything the others are.

I might not be a bright student.
I might not be a chancellor award winner, nor would I be a Rector's award winner.
I might not even be a nice person.
But I am who I am. I am what I potray.

I have been a lil cranky these days. The inner me.
Test week happens to be this week and I handed in a blank paper during Statics Test 2.
If it wasn't for Harpreet's aid, I can even look forward to repeating the whole paper next semester.
I am fuckingly frustrated, because 30 minutes before I entered the test room, I did go through the questions. The exact 3 questions in the text book.
Why did I forget?
Why did I panic?
Why am I such a stupid person?
Why am I even doing Engineering??

Mood's pretty low these days.
No one knows, I guess.
This is one flaw I have.
I do not potray the image of a upset, depressed Angkhian.
I am always the "happy-go-lucky" girl.
Fuck that thought, you people have.
I am a normal human being too.
I have 437473610293847389 emotions that you people have.
Just because I do not show them, doesn't mean I have none.

I guess Kevin was right about me.
I live 3/4 of my life, online.
I write in my blog, more than me talking to the rest.
I choose to vent my anger online, than doing it face to face.
I choose to laugh and celebrate my joy online, than doing it in reality.
Maybe I am what he says I am.
I am afraid to go out to the world.
In reality, people are cold. But in here, I can live in my own ideal world.

I guess being back at home, makes me feel better.

Over and over again, I made a point to ignore. Let it be people on the streets whom I have no idea about, right up to my own feelings. I chose to ignore. Whenever I get upset over something, I would most likely keep to myself and come back to my own world, and I write about it, usually anonymously.

Maybe Karen is right.
We can't count too much on friends. We get too dependant.
We get too close that sometimes, we forget that they are not as close as we think we are.
We said things that weren't meant to be said, we do things that weren't meant to be done.


Maybe what I have done wrongly all these years is that I care too much.
Everytime after an argument, I would want to patch things up almost instantaneously.
But everytime  sit down and evaluate, I would want to know how far I have gone in my mistakes.
Why am I feeling guilty all the time?
Why is it that I care so much?

Maybe I should spend more time with my books.Instead of doing so many things for people or asking favours from people.

I am sick of fighting in a losing battle.
I am sick of defending myself.
I am sick of coming up with excuses that people thinks that they are ridiculous.
Why would I want to explain myself?

*Maybe you are right. I am an asshole. I am wrong in every way.
  I hope you are happy..since I am making a public apology to you people.
 
I don't know what else for me to say. I guess I am just deeply crushed inside. Every sentence I try to say, you think it's an excuse.An excuse for me to squirm away from my mistakes. Every word I say is true. From me being feverish the night before, up to me popping 2 panadols inside me.

Wait, why am I even explaining to you when you don't even care?..afterall, you think everything I said is rubbish.

I don't know about this but I wonder do you feel how I feel now?

Have you ever made up your mind to cut your hair after thinking for a very long time?
Then you stepped into the hair saloon, took a seat, and then stare in front of the big piece of mirror. Then you start fonddling your hair, at the same time, telling the person in charged that you were there, to get a hairwash and a hair cut.
1 minute passed and soon, you realised that your hair looks perfectly fine and doesn't need any trimming or cutting. You flashed back about the days when your hair gone messy and you have bad hair days. But right now, at this moment, your hair looks perfectly fine and yeah, you look absolutely gorgeous in that hairstyle.
Unfortunately, it was too late. The person started to squeeze some hair shampoo onto your head and start digging her hands into your hair. Uh-oh..too late to back out.
Finally, after the hair cut, you looked again at yourself in the mirror.
Next thing you know, you hear shrieks of horror in your head.
What have you done to yourself??

ok,this happens to me all the time. EVERYTIME i go to the hairdresser's..I go in with determination, only to come out again, in despair.
Just so you know, I had a haircut today..and yeah, the feeling is always there..and I look terrible now.
Sob..don't wanna go back anymore..I look horrendous...

And I guess my looks didn't change..

I had dinner with ma mum and ma daddykins in Ipoh Garden last night. This is where they served the cheapest western food, in large portion and yeah, it's delicious. We were the first one to arrive, and thank goodness, we were because 5 minutes after we placed the order, people came from nowhere and soon after, the whole place were buzzling with noises, everyone was waiting eagerly for their food to arrive. In one place at the same time, I saw Yip Kar Mun and another girl who was from MC(one year junior)..forgot the name though...Managed to see both of them which kinda made me happy. After 2 years leaving the school, yet people still recognizes me..and they can even mouth out my name. Hahha..Can't help but felt so happy..

This morning, had breakfast with the same people: my mum and dad.
Dad met one of his ex-colleagues named MATTHEW,who is, maybe about his early 30's..(who kinda looks cute for his age)..[we met a couple of times at various company functions] but now, he no longer works with Dad, due to reasons..but yeah, the point is he still looks cute..or..err...I don't know la..
I have a thing for older men..Maybe the way they handle things..more mature in a way..Wait, don't get me wrong..I don't like OLDER men..i have a thing for guys-not-my-age, but a few years older. (I am certainly not like CT who likes the D.K) They(guys who are older) give me a sense of security, unlike guys my age, who..erm..you know..GUYS. (see my 5 reasons why I don't like guys)

Wokey, I guess perhaps, the reason why I am still confused is because I have yet to meet the right one. I think I have met one, but I guess he doesn't feel the same way. T'Hooi asked me to go for him, but i am kinda "TRADITIONAL"..guys WILL ALWAYS be the innitiator..=)

RANDOM entry, really.
All I wanted to write was MATTHEW looks cute..and see what turned out in my entry.
DADDYkins doesn't like any guy I have a thang for. He still thinks that no guy is good enough for me. Haih..such typical act of a father. Once, he found out that Matt texted me, Matt no longer text me anymore..
(HMM..i wonder why..)

Took me blardy 10 minutes to load this tabulas.controlpanel page
Just came back from EDX appreciation dinner. must apologize because I didn't manage to take any pictures.
Was busy makan-makan, and then joined the rest of my batchmates and then busy schemed to get out of the place a.s.a.p.
I wanted to stay behind, but most of them have already left the place. Everyone was so busy with the karaoke machine,their eyes were glued onto the tv set..that it was easy for us to leave early.
Had to come back since Punchee had something on, and peichie and xiaoqi wanted to come back. It would be meaningless for me to continue hanging around, so I left the party.
Last sem's BBQ party was definitely better than this sem's. We had so much fun then..probably that time, our finals still had a long to go. Now, finals is less than 7 days.

Told Punchee that it was a sign to me that the page takes a long time to load.
Maybe I should lower the frequency of writing, and get back to my books.
I am sooooooooo lost in whatever I am doing now.
Just completed DE assignment which took me 2 hours to complete and I was only copying the answers. Figure out yourself how difficult it was.
Deng.

I left my watch at home.
The innitial plan was to stay in campus for 3 whole weeks, but looks like I would have to go home this week to get my watch.
Kinda feel uneasy without it. Damn. How could I be so careless...?

sigh.
Mood's pretty unstable these days.
Suisinodal..(whatever it is) graph-like.
Head's pounding.
Heart's throbbing.
Mind boggling.
Limbs not-moving.

So, don't be surprised if I don't update for one day.
Probably the page failed to load; not because I have nothing to write.
=)

Morning peeps!.

Supposed to be a study break for one whole week starting today, as FINALS are going to begin in a week's time.
Just realised that the Statics paper I screwed, is 15% of my overall mark.
damn.DAMNNIT!!

i need to chill out a lil.
anyone who's in UTP, interested?

You know the NIKE shirt...

--the one that is purple-pinkish?

--the one which has the line saying "Drink Lotsa Water" in front?

--and says "Live Life Cool" at the back?

--the one which I always wear in different ocassions?

--the one which I have to admit to be my favourite shirt of the season?

--the one which was a gift from Kenneth on my 18th birthday.?

DAMN!!
SpeedKleen has lose it and now, I have no more NIKE shirts to wear.
It's not the fact that it's a NIKE that I am pissed off, it's due to the fact that it was a gift..from my ah mui pulak tu..

ADUHAI--SEDIHnya aku. Betapa pilu hatiku.

Don't know can get the shirt back or not..The chances are low..So fucking upset.

You know you are in deep trouble,

• when everyone's complaining about insufficient time to complete their revision, and you get 9 hours of sleep each day.
• when everyone's burying their heads in their books, you are finishing up all the series that you have yet to complete watching.
• when everyone abandons their blog, and you are updating it 3 times a day.
• when everyone quietly studies in their room, you kept saying that you are bored in the main chat room.
• when everyone's busy studying, you kept thinking of holiday plans.

oh man. I AM in deep sh*t..
Finals less than...erm, let's see...5 days??and Punchee just asked me out to Ipoh later in the day. .and you know I can't say NO..Oh man, anyway, I can't go also la. Daddykins coming later at 5 in the evening to pick me up, go see doctor and have dinner with the family. Coz Aunt Shirley is back from NEW ZEALAND!..means I have extra cash to splurge!!.. Hurrah!

Was supposed to have drinking session with my housemates last night. By the time when Sheateng bought back the booze, it was already near 12 am. That time, when Carina came in to wake me up, I was already waving my hands, profusely saying later and later..In the end, I woke up at 9 this morning. Sigh, what a disappointment! I don't know why I felt exhausted last night..even declined a drinking session. like what the hell right?

2 nights, didn't go mamak. What an achievement!
(ok, not to say that I have achieved something, but hey, too lazy to move my car from that nice parking spot weh!)

HMM..i GUESS i better go back to my lil movie. I am watching "John Tucker must die", yeah, what a stupid movie right? I can actually predict what's coming next!Hmm..
Wait, I must mention this. Dinner with Freddy in Batu Gajah last night was great. He totally doesn't want to ask me out anymore..haha..sorry yea, joking nia, Freddy. Next time, don't go dutch la k? You pay everything.=)

Did I mention that the dinner last night was great?
We ate till my jeans were nearly busting..I swear I remember telling my dad that I was going to unbuckle my pants. (well, you get the point eh?)
I thought it was rather ridiculous to drive 30 minutes to Chemor just to have a family dinner. Can't we do it in restaurants nearer our place like Man Choong or Overseas? Or the one we've always been going: East Ocean Seafood Restaurant?

 
--Aiting, Pinky and Benny during Star Search.

But no, grandma insisted it to be in Chemor. She even made reservations for the dinner. 2 tables wor. Wahliao.
I shall skip the list of food that were served. I didn't take any pictures as I was too busy focusing on what to eat and what's not to eat. [obviously i ate everything] It was even a bigger surprise to know that Aunt Lily was also back from London. Woohoo..2 aunties back at one time. Next month, would be Uncle Andrew's turn..(that is where the interesting part comes in: Ipod Nano)

Aunt Lily came back with her joyous look as always.  She even showed me her latest phone: NOKIA (N73)..and I was like "Don't need use so geng one la! Come, we exchange!"..Sigh, I am still using my Nokia 3230. The whole night, I kept pestering my dad to get me the new Sony Erricson phone which I saw the other day. SIGH. The answer was NO. Damn!..

--Pangkor, Kee Hui and Xi Yi, during EDX appreciation night/dinner in oV5

Nope, I didn't get extra cash or something of that whatsoever. Instead, Aunt Lily visits my blog, and she got the idea that I love drinking a lot. So, she got me a bottle of vodka. No, not the ones I see in the racks of JUSCO, but this kind, it was different. The bottle was BIG..so I can't have it all to myself. **HAVE TO SHARE** We finished it up even before the desserts were here. Damn..

I stayed over-night at home..and to come back this morning. Sigh, back to the battlefield..and to throw my laptop away.

//pictures are in no relation with my above entry.

WARNING:

Can you please vaporize, together with your girlfriend to another planet??
In other words, can you two please fuck off from this entire planet??
The more I think of it, the more I feel like taking a knife, no.. no..not to stab you, but to stab myself..

In NICER words, can you two please FUCK OFF from my face??
You are ruining my appetite!!!

I shall end this special announcement with a polite note.

Thank you very much. and don't forget to FUCK off..

I guess it's rather disappointing how things might turn out in the end huh?.

I can't take failure easily. I guess, failing was never an option for me. I don't think I can handle failure easily which makes me still rather immature at times.
Call me KIASU or KIASI or KIA-whatever..but no, I can't take failures. It's either do or die for me.

Sigh. Dinner with Freddy and Supper with Sanjeev. Guess this is not doing any good to my reputation huh?

It's thursday people, and I haven't done much studying yet.
However, did manage to read up certain things, and continued blog-hopping..and I went through Jiamin's.
Since everyone in UTP is going on an exam-frenzy, i thought that It would be an eye-opener for you people out there to know about the condition I am going through at the moment.

A..aah..Foo..Uni life is never easy for me. I just made it LOOK easy (which is actually not..)

--the stack of lecture notes,expected to be read before finals next MONDAY.

--mumbo-jumbo

and the pictures has not included the ENORMOUS pile of my GEOLOGY ..bah..notes!!..I am so gonna hate Engineering!

Sigh, currently listening: RUNAWAY train.
Oh..I feel like RUNNING AWAY...

**I HATE TUMMY CRAMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dinner was at v2's today. It has been a long time since we last had dinner together. So, the housemates and tzeyang met up for dinner in V2..the place where we used to go for dinner when we were still in Foundation. So, the "excursion" started at 7.10p.m only to reach the destination 30 minutes later. As I was walking, I can't help but hear the "Journey to the West" theme song playing at the back of my head. Aahah! 5 of us--exactly the same amount of characters played in the exact movie..You know..I shall not tell who "zhu bak kai" is here la..So, we ordered the usual..I had telur bistik+nasi putih. Thought it was going to be nice, as I remembered it used to be nice..but alas, no-it's no longer as tasty..or delicious..

=) i HAD extra dinner together though. HE bought me shark fin's soup all the way from ayer tawar..and he gave me the SCHLUMBERGER keychain..damn nice..I CAN'T HELP WIPING AWAY THE SILLY GRIN ON MY FACE!!

haha..so now I am full..ready to get some studying done.no more sleeping. 4 hours of napping this evening and one possible MAMAK session tonight..it's no wonder I am getting fatter..!!!

pls: Yeesan, so everytime u see me, please don't say i got slimmer..It would be an insult..=)

Well, life is about bitching, ain't it?
You sit down with a group of friends, you eat, you drink, you talk, plus you bitch about others too.
You met with a group of people after such a long time, you sit, you eat,you catch up with one another, and you bitch about the past, you bitch about the same bitch you used to tallk about in high school.

Let it be a group of guys, or a group of girls, or a mixture of both..everytime you get together, the one thing that you would definitely do is bitch about something.
Ok, I don't know about you, but I do.

ASK the same people whom I have been meeting up back in Ipoh. Even after such a long period of time, the same topic tends to pop up everytime we meet. The same names over and over again..
You come to UTP, the usual group I hang out with, we always have things to bitch about.No offence, but that's what normal people do. We run out off nice things to say, and all we can think of is about what people lacks off.

It's a cycle, people. You talk about people, you should expect to be talked about too. I get that. Perhaps everyone should see that coming, because in reality, even if you don't talk or you DO talk, either way, be prepared that you are no angel in people's eyes. People would always, ALWAYS have something mean to say about you.

Forgive me.I ain't pointing at no one. I too, talk behind people's backs. I too, bitch about people. I ain't perfect, man..Kick me.

The house is kinda empty now. Most of them have gone to the mamak stalls and I am left here. Alright, some of you may be wondering why am I even here, and not at my usual hang-out place.

If you think that I have turned our a new leaf, Nah..ah..I am still as naughty as ever..but seriously, didn't feel like mamak-ing tonight.
*currently busy swatting the fly which is flying here and there, distracting me..aargghh!!
Ok, back to what I was saying, didn't feel like going..Can't blame the company, can't blame the food, can't blame the time, can't blame myself.
Can only blame the FINALS,can blame the emotions..
Can blame the whaaa---estrogen?..yeah, that too..

Just that, when Carina stepped into the room, to announce that tzeyang is coming any moment now..I didn't feel like going anymore..There was no longer the excitement that I always feel everytime there was a mamaking session. I guess the times has changed when you feel that you no longer click with someone or a group of people. When you think that you can actually fit in again, things have changed..and soon, when you realized that, you are all alone in an empty room,feeling cold<because of the rain la!>

"How can someone feel so lonely even when you are surrounded by a group of people whom you call, friends?"

There are just so many things which I wished to express here, but there are too many watchful eyes..too many blogfights..too many unwanted comments..too many controversies...Aaargh, I would just have to avoid them by ignoring them, as usual.

I hate moodswings. I have too many of those that I am getting tired to actually layan them. I missed the times when I can talk to someone on the phone..tell her all my problems..so the only channel I have, is here..where I can write whatever I want.But gone are those days. It's certainly a better idea to have my own personal blogpage..but that would be absurd, as that would mean the whole world might have a chance to spot it one day..

And I am no longer used to writing with pens and papers.

I missed MP. So many entries which I didn't mentioned MP..I believe it's an achievement to start off with..=)

Aaah..i hate cramps and I hate people.Just so not in the mood..Egghead happened to be a victim of moodswings. Poor him!~ Lols..*evil grins*..Aahh, Freddy, the answer shall be "YES"..and you would have to top it up with lunch and dinner also..ALL YOURS!

*i guess ...I guess..I shall be crying in the darkness tonight.

..Not being able to go for mamak session-- a blessing in disguise?

Finally I was able to keep in touch with my sanity side.. Thanks Weiern, for making my day..=) Glad to know there are still Ipoh-langs out there, who suffers the same fate as I do.

*Eewan,,...aah!!Jangan jealous pula!!

There's this saying: You suffer first before you enjoy.
                             You take the pain before tasting the sweatness.

Current status: Looking out of the window. Admiring how the rain can bring such joy to everyone here.

Current thoughts: Go to the nearest river, jump into it.

Current plan: "Master" Programming.

Damn.I hate myself for being a procrastinator. I have loadsa lined up, waiting for me..and ALL i can think of is how to sneak out from the examination hall..

Degree of tummy cramps today: (from level 1 to level 5)--> level 6!

#include <stdio.h>
#include <conio.h>

void greeting();

int main()
{ 
  greeting();
  return 0;
}
   
  void greeting()
   {
     printf("Hello world!\n";
     return;
    }

Pardon me. I'm only at this chapter now. Dead now..So dead meat....You don't understand what I have just typed?..Neither do I.

**Aww-aww..**..
Cramps attacking!Cramps attacking!!..

Carina told me to drink lotsa tea to stop the cramps from getting worst. Hah? I wasn't too sure about what she told me, because my mum said once that TEA is rather "cool" and not good for girls especially during this time of the month. However, I had to do something about it, so, there I was, sipping my first cup of Teh Halia of the day..and then, Finished it so quickly that, I called for another cup of Teh Tarik kurang manis next. It was certainly soothing for awhile..soon, the pain started attacking again. I was so close to ordering another cup of teh tarik when Cres said probably I should just stick to warm water instead.

So, what I had in mamak 2 hours ago was: Roti Sardin, Teh Halia, Teh Tarik and A lil of Mee Goreng from Cres..And to think that Freddy had made me a timetable to study...dARN~The timetable didn't work. There we were, sitting there, as if Finals has just passed, discussing our plans after finals..talking about the past and the future. Whoa..Time just wasted like that..but moments like this, which money or any GPA can ever buy back.=)

Thought wanna come back early, get some studying done before getting ready for the big day..but then, out of the blue, I drove by Tzeyang's car side, and wound down the window..Suggested for early dimsum tomorrow at 6.30a.m..Man, I can come up with silly ideas..and surprisingly,everyone agreed. Dang..and to count on your friends to pull you out from deep shits, friends I have, actually do support me in wild ideas of mine. Okay..so, I can picture us, going down early in the morning, have dimsum..and COME BACK ON TIME to GET BACK ON TRACK.(*Fingers crossed*)

And now, I can't sleep. Damn. Must be the TEH's..Darn..Darn..Darn..
Kevin is accompanying me online. Good. At least, I have better things to do, then write in this crappy blog page of mine.=)

Morning Peeps! The Sun is rising in 2 hours' time.and I can actually see it later. Taa!~

       So, there I was, sitting in front of my computer, waiting for the time to slowly crawl its way..The time shown was 4.47 a.m..In an hour's time, the 5 of us would be heading to Ipoh, for a round of dimsum. I was struggling to continue staying awake, and wait for them to be ready, or to get some sleep when I can afford to do so. Aah, the time showed 5.05 a.m.. The minutes are wasting away, I quickly jumped into bed, pulling the blanket up to my chin, trying to sleep the coldness away.

        The next time I opened my eyes to check my phone, it was already 6.05 a.m.. Ooops, I was already late. The time promised was 6.15 a.m. when I have already predicted that people will only be ready in **"UTP's time.". So, I woke up with ease, walked aimlessly,hoping to reach the bathroom. Got myself ready, and went back to my own room. Boy, it was chilling..and I had the blanket all over me, while I send a sms to Carina(who was only staying next door) asking her whether she was awake. 4 secs after the message was delivered, there was no reply. The time was already showing 6.17 a.m..I was getting impatient, and tried to misscall her instead. No reply. But minutes after, she came into my room, said that she just woke up..and the figure standing next to her was...waittt...was that Crescentia???.. She looked like a zombie, with insufficient of sleep. This was really the first time, Cres has stayed up so late at night, talking crap and not studying at all..(*yay!!Good for Cres!)

        So, there, at 6.29 a.m., none of them were ready. Even Punchee who seemed to be so hyped about going down to Ipoh, was still tightly wrapped in her blankie..,eyes wide shut. Carina suggested not to get ready first, and to call Tzeyang instead.It was unusual of him to not call first, because he would be down there, waiting for us. So I went to take my phone, while both Carina and Cres crawled back onto their beds..I kept dialing tzeyang's number but there was no answer. It was rather odd, as what Carina said, usually whenever he said he's alright with an idea, he would stick to it. So, we kept calling and calling. Till I called kenneth, and he confirmed that his roommate was still sleeping soundly on his side of the room.

       Sah! All 4 of us went back to our beds. I took an extra blanket from my cupboard, put on a double layer of shirts, tried to get some shut-eyes..Couldn't help myself but kept having thoughts of me, in some 4-season country when it would be WINTER now. It was so cold this morning. Only managed to FINALLY wake up at 11.30 this morning. Wokey, there goes my wild idea of spending time, 24 hours away from the Big Day.

        It didn't work, and I remembered someone saying that "whoever doesn't turn up for dimsum tomorrow, he/she's going to ***chia!"...
Whoa..wondered who made such statement...and fyi, everyone's waiting for you to ***chia!

** UTP's time--> always 10 minutes late from the normal time.
***"chia"--> treat/belanja in Hokkien.

Dear God,
I know it's a little to late to repent now. I have always believed in your existance, just that I didn't know who to believe in. There are just too many different beliefs that I chose to be a free-thinker first before committing myself. Anyway, this is your humble servant from UTP,block v5k, level 5, house2,room3 talking to you now. Hmm, the point is, ya know..Finals is tomorrow to be exact, and I know it's too late for you to do anything now..what's more, after having fun for such a long time, it's definitely too late for me to do anything now. I have less than 8 hours before the invigilator ask us to start writing. I just hoped to be able to wake up and be on time for the paper tomorrow since I have been so used to waking up in the late mornings for the past 2 weeks..and I hope I would be able to brave through the coldness in Chancellor Hall tomorrow. I know, the saying that if I do my best, I shall leave the rest to you. Thank you for your time. I know how busy you are, and the more busier you would get, since there will be more than 5000 UTPians talking to you tonight too.
Here, is little angkhian speaking to you, and I wished you a very goodnight too.
**smiles**

##please don't question my beliefs.Stay away from that topic.

The ticking of my watch breaks the silence.
I could hear the breathing of the person next to me.
Punchee tossed and turned..I looked at my phone again, for the 4th time.
The time shown didn't change a second. It was only 2.41 in the morning.
I stayed still, unable to sleep.
In less than 5 hours, I have to get up and get ready.
In less than 6 hours, I would be sentenced to a 3-hour examination period.
I forced myself to sleep..to forget about everything, let myself go freely.
Minutes passed which seems to be hours..
I checked the phone again,only to realise that it's only 2.54 a.m.
It's a long wait..

It was pretty tormenting to wake up this morning. I can't wake up but yet I knew it was a must for me to do so. Gone were the days when I wake up in the morning, then deciding to skip my 8 am class and go back to sleep. No, not this time. This time, I can't say "Aiyaa,today no mood wanna go class la..*takes phone,text teehooi: "Today cannot go class.Sick"*.." and then continue my sleep.

Today, if I were to say so, which means several things would happen for sure.
1. Expect myself to flunk my first year first sem.
2. Means repeating the same course for another time.
3. Means probably have to see Ms.Chong again(though I might be seeing her for Moral next sem)
4. Means I have to pay more.

See? So many reasons for me to wake up this morning.
The day was fine, until the paper was distributed.
Haiya..angkhian angkhian..somemore tomorrow go for Dimsum wor..Sigh.

Wokey..we are procrastinators. Ok, the W-O-R-S-T procrastinators around.
We have 1 week, 7 days, 168 hours to get ourselves prepped up for this Finals..and what did we do? We wasted it away, thinking that the time is still a lot. Enough for all of us to actually complete our work on time. Damn. How wrong we were.

Just last night, I started doing the past year questions for Technical AND Professional Writing. Eh, what is so professional with sentences like, "The purpose of this report is to yada yada yada..."..
So damn boring can? So sien...where got people wanna read direct sentences wan..Sigh..I can..never score in this paper la..So, there I was, frantically looking for help everywhere in the house..Even Pao was surprised that I kept asking so many questions..(coz usually me the most calm person ge mar...)

Ok, so there was this issue about instructions in one of the questions. No one knew the correct way..So we started to debate the issue in front of my room..


There was an imaginary board or some sort like that on our wall. So long I didn't know but they actually "erased" what they have written, and continued "writing" on it. Wah..Damn scary weh..
Everyone was so serious la..so serious..

"Eh, I think this place can actually rear penguin. No, wait,..can also rear eskimos and polar bears"

Things which WenKiat comes up sometimes.Kinda funny. I have been spending quite sometime in the IRC lately. Realised that it gets so cold at times that even my jacket can't withstand the coldness. Imagine how powerful the airconditioning system must be, to be able to cool the whole IRC..which is 3 floors high..and we are all like popsicles in it.

And to think I actually spent time listening to them, I can barely even finished my work.=) Lotsa work to complete, and guess what, Dimsum really on for tomorrow..No, wait..in 2 hour's time. Dang..!

Feeling disappointed.
Listening to KT Tunstall's album at 5 in the morning. Thanks to Kevin.
=)

Can't help to know that it's my strongest subject, yet to know that my coursework is probably lowest among my batch mates..it's sucks!I hate this semester..!!!!

**2 nights in a row, without proper sleep. Counting today, it would be the 3rd.
Feeling friggin' unwell now..Leaving for dimsum in 5 minutes' time. Chao! 

It was torturous for a 45-minute journey. The 3 of us, who are largely in size, were cramped at the back of the small Kelisa. My initial plan to get some sleep on the journey down, was dampened. I couldn't even get a decent seat to lean my back on. Can't blame no one. It was either we blame Tzeyang for driving a Kelisa or we have to blame ourselves for being too large. Wokey, this could be a neverending argument.

So, we reached "Yoke Fook Moon" which is located opposite Ming Court..The street which has this 2 famous Dim sum shop. The Dimsum Haven, if you would want to add. We reached the place at 7.30 a.m. (finally!) when I was able to do some stretching up..Hahha..on the way to the shop, caught a glimpse of Kwong Hoe's parents and sister. So ngam one..Told ya' Ipoh's very small..

Ok, I didn't snap any delicious-looking pictures like Kenneth's entry. Probably I was too tired to snap any, and it was only normal for me to return to the shop again for some breakfast again with my bunch of friends any time soon..=) So, only after we finished 'sapu-ing' the dimsumS, we took a few pictures, only to prove our point: The food was yum-yum!!

We left about 8.30, only to continue scouting for more food. Yeah, finals resume tomorrow but also makan is a must!! So, there's this place which sells eggtart..(famous for it la!) and several other delicacies whom I believe, once you take a bite, you would most probably buy the whole stall down. Noo,..in actual fact, you have to queue early for this specially home-made eggtarts and luck was in fact on our side, that today happens to be a weekday..and the eggtarts were still there, even at 8.30 in the morning. Try going there at 7.45 a.m. during weekends, you wanna see the crumbs also susah k?

So, I only managed to buy some for Peichie and her batch mates..which doesn't come by cheap.But I didn't know such surprise, unpredicted act of mine, left me with so many sms-es on my phone from unexpected people. A short word of appreciation really lightened up my day.

So, you know that I didn't sleep at all right? I come back, still feeling much hyper, but my friends kept asking me to get some sleep..afraid that I would literally shut down one day. And they said I wouldn't want to get shut down during my paper.

--Trust me, bite once, you really crave for more...(orgasmic I tell ya!)

if (Angkhian FAILS Structured Programming)
  printf("Angkhian grabs rope";
else if
  printf("Angkhian becomes vegetarian one day";
else
  (Angkhian grabs sleeping pills)

So, right now, me heading back to Ipohland. I don't give a fucking damn with what's happening in the uni right now..and all I want is go home, have a decent dinner with ma family, and sleep on my own bed. I don't care about Differential Equation, do not want to care about tennis, lagi don't want to care about my other papers. All I want is to go home and rest.
(and eat KFC without getting food-poisoning!)

Wakakakaka..shall be back tomorrow. Having a big surprise.(yay!)
but till then, I shall sulk and whine all the way back to Ipoh.
while blasting Sean Paul's cassette.yahoo!!

//FORGIVE MY RANTINGS. i AM BORN WITH PROBLEMS.dAMN.!NOT like I want ok?
btw, Yiling down in Ipoh for a makan-makan trip, hosted by Jon.Lam.
So good..(pizza face) so good host them. Yiling, I also wanna go KL, makan makan trip, you host me la?
Accomodation, meals, shopping--all yours ok?

It's those nights again when I wished I have someone by my side..

Back to the battlefields again.
4 MORE papers and I am a free man woman...

p/s: It was sure a lonely night last night. Thinking of MP reminds me how much pain I have suffered all these months. I can't bring myself to forget..yet I know, that our love was real before.
**You know who you are, I love you, for eternity..

Well, well..2nd entry of the day..
Everyone in my house is gearing up for Moral paper at 2.30 pm.
And mua, doing nothing, lazing around, and just got up from a 3-hour slumber..
Best wooo..I tell ya!
So, I GUESS after writing this, wasting so much time, here..I guess, it would only be better for me to continue my Prison Break episode 11 and then get some studying done.
I totally forgot about my Tennis paper this Saturday..
Shikes!!

2.15 in the morning.
Having to talked to Peichie for an hour plus, I decided that it was time for me to get some sleep.
We had just celebrated Pao's birthday party. Only a small group, with only the housemates. Shall upload pictures later though as I have lotsa uncompleted work to finish.
Get back to ya later after this k?..
Have a nice Friday morning..=)

Well, just in case people are getting impatient, one picture to satisfy your hunger..



O well..maybe two...

Want to know why we were holding a red colour, 36 C cup bra?
Want to know why Sharon looks a lil high in the picture?
Want to know what is the bra's brand?
Want to know why I have lotsa pimples on my face?
Want to know what's with Carina's facial expression?
Want to know why we were the only ones in the picture?

Stay tune for more updates.

p/s: bY the way, i hate some people whom is worth all my hatred. Full of disgust.

ATTENTION-la..

Remember the Genting trip we were planning for ourselves?
Yeah, it's on..it still is..
So, the date would be officially on the 11 Dec 2006- 12 Dec 2006
                                                    (Mon-Tues)
Please kindly confirm your presence by 20 November 2006, to ease the job of the organizer..which would be YEESAN this time.
Sms me, at 012-5951882 or Yeesan's number.
For those who are in Ipoh, make sure you are free to join us, as STPM would be over by then..(means no more excuses of declining!)
For those who are in KL, you can go to Genting on your own or we can meet up back in Ipoh first-la..
And please, make this post-class trip work..For the second time!
Call anyone, everyone..whom you wanna see..
but strictly..STRICTLY no spouses...

Been more than 24 hours since I last wrote.
Whoa, that must be a record.
DE paper was today..and just so you know..like what Huiching said,
"DE= DIE"

I would have to admit that the paper was fairly well...ok,ok la..can be done if given more time, and also my formulae papers..I am perfectly sure I would be able to answer rather than slashing all my answers away.

ALRIGHT, moving on..Promised to write something regarding Sharon's 19th Birthday..since my next paper is on Monday, I shall take 20 minutes out before proceeding to my bed, and then wake up later, to pull an all-nighter.(Hey, that's the plan only..don't know jadi-ke tak jadi pula..)
So, at 11.40 p.m, 16th November, Carina came barging into my room,..BARGING ok?..asking us to sigh Pao's card..I looked at her, with an annoyed look..pulling my blankie to cover the light and the sudden hideous figure..I was uncertain with what the commotion was all about..and I was just so close to reaching la-la land..and all of a sudden, pulled me back to the reality pula..So, I quickly signed the card, while profusely being reminded about the surprise party we were going to have for Pao..I checked the time and there was about 15 minutes left..Kay, sah I shut my eyes back..

10 minutes later, Carina came back again, to remind us. I relunctantly woke up, quickly changed into 'what seems to be the same: t-shirt and shorts' and "quietly" crept down the stairs. We didn't want to alarm Pao, but then since Cres and Carina were there, definitely the whole V5K knows we were planning something. I took my Olympus along, to take pictures, since everyone using the max, 2.0 megapixel camera phone nia..[mine, 4 megapixel k?]

So, about 12.01 a.m., we were all waiting downstairs, getting prepared. We used Frin-Frin as the bait to get Pao down.


--Tzeyang was too pre-occupied with his series Heroes that he asked Punchee to bring her laptop along to watch, while waiting for Pao.

--Scheming to bom v5k?
                                                                                    

So, it was pretty obvious that everyone was being anxious with how to pull a prank on Pao. Even these two were having fun, re-enacting "Love Undercover 3"

It was clear that most of the top scorers are mental here.. Both are in dean's list.

So, we quietly walked, following the back path..while walking, and running in little steps..trying to hide ourselves..Everyone managed to hide pretty well, except for someone..Sigh..wanna hide also see la..hide in somewhere bigger la ok?..We didn't blow our cover..because as we approached Frin-Frin's car, they were doing "something inside"..Didn't quite realised the whole group with 100MEGA db approaching from the back..

Pao's expression was priceless..

The Ceremony and Protocol people were inexperienced as while they were waiting for the cake to be lighten up with candles, there was an awkward silence in between. Everyone kept staring at the birthday pao girl while being stared back at. So, as usual, I had to come up with something to crap about, but didn't menjadi..So we kept rushing the cake-man and woman to hurry up with the candles.

Pao was overjoyed+touched until..

You have seen it right.
Not only her face was smeared with icing cream, we also got her a hell of a red bra too..It was sexxxxyyy!! I tell ya. We wanted to get her a G-string to go with it but it didn't match. Lingeries not cheap I tell you..

>>The birthday celebrations here always start with the same old thing.
You hide, you give surprises, then you sing birthday song.

>>It has the same agenda in the middle too.
You take out the birthday cake, blow the candles out, use your mouth to pick them up from the cake, You get smeared with cream on your face, you chase around,and then get back at one another.

>>It ends with pretty much the same old thing too.
You appreciate what your friends have done, and in the end, you take pictures.

Ooopssss, wrong picture..

 
Me and the rest of the couples: KeeHui and Sheateng, Frin-frin and Pao, Tzeyang and Punchee, Cres and Carina...hehhe... Ok, so it's only ME, Cres and Carina who are still pretty much available right now.    

If it wasn't for Finals week, the routine would always end with a mamak session.
Sharon Pao, Happy Sweet 19! Hope you love the bra and the extra top we got for you yar?

p/s: nolar, we didn't only get her a bra la..we got her a Padini Top to go with it also la..don't worry, she doesn't have to wear the bra only.

Aah, Roomie has MYfm on.
It has been so long since I last heard Mandarin songs on air.

Kev send me 2 MTVs today.
The Veronicas' "Falls apart" and KT Tunstall's "Suddenly I see".
Hahha..I absolutely heart both songs..KT's good..=)
*Two thumbs up!*

Has not been spending my time wisely today.
It was announced that Desperate Housewives episode 8 is out in DC++, so apatah lagi, cepat cepat go get it and there I was, for 40 minutes or so, my eyes were glued in front of the screen.
Okay, to balance the scale, i did a few statics questions..and I am happy about it.
Wished finals were as easy as it's on the papers.

Oh, had an awesome time talking to Vern online..though skype was a bitch, kept sending me on and off all the time..but then, we pulled through. For a "17-year-old", level of maturity, quite the same par..OK, maybe mine slightly higher..=)

She texted me today,asking about me.
Lallalaalalaa--lalala..so happy leh i guess..

So, I was talking to Kevin online and he asked what paper will be I having on Monday, which happens to be tomorrow la..
Then our conversation was like this:-

 <[KV7]> esok paper epe
<asylum_seeker> statics
<asylum_seeker> wanna go jump down the builidng d
<[KV7]> that's dynamics
<[KV7]> when you jump down
<[KV7]> statics is
<[KV7]> when you are atop the building
<[KV7]> then calculate the forces acting upon you
<[KV7]> when you jump
<[KV7]> the you come into dynamics dy
<[KV7]> when you reach the ground
<[KV7]> it wouldn't matter how to calculate the forces you experience, dynamically or statically
<asylum_seeker> dang..
<asylum_seeker> no such thing la
<asylum_seeker> but then, all force equals to zero right??
<[KV7]> total F=0
<[KV7]> Total M=0
<[KV7]> simple
<[KV7]> so
<[KV7]> if combine
<[KV7]> 0=ma
<[KV7]> then
<[KV7]> nothing lo
<[KV7]> easy rite
<[KV7]> you dunno what is right?
<[KV7]> left?
<[KV7]> up?
<[KV7]> down?
<asylum_seeker> no
<asylum_seeker> because like..
<asylum_seeker> FBD..
<asylum_seeker> and all i don't really get it la
<[KV7]> ...
<[KV7]> FBD is free marks
<asylum_seeker> ok
<asylum_seeker> (i'm dumb)
<[KV7]> no you're not
<asylum_seeker> aiks?
<[KV7]> go jump from a building
<asylum_seeker> nothing to do with stubborn la
<[KV7]> never consider
<[KV7]> the forces acting upon you
<[KV7]> think
<[KV7]> quite interesting right?
<[KV7]> so faster go study
<asylum_seeker> sigh!!

Interesting conversation of ours.

Hmm..so I had loadsa free time, trying to change my blog template..I did manage to change everything which was so cool..I love the template, gives my blog the "already-dead-look" even more..but alas, I can't even view my past entries.Like WTH! So i had to delete the whole template and then resumed to this..heck!' dull look again.

Now I know why Programming is important.
I can actually write my own html codes with what I learnt in class!.
Wokey, not really, because I didn't pay attention in class..which means, I can only write half of what I want, and the other half..ermz..left it blank?.

Funny.
I shall "READ" up about html codes during the long break and perhaps change the outlook of this page la. *cross my fingers nia*..
So, 5 down, 1 more to go. No, I'm talking about my Finals la.What the heck?!
So statics came and went. It was err..I shall rate it.. from 1-5, it would be 3 la. Not that hard, yet not so easy either. Can answer a few questions here and there, but also can't answer questions here and there. Which makes me an average scorer la. Nevermind la, DE already waiting for me to retake, what the hell with another one right?

NO.(i was only being optimistic)

So, one last paper to go before the booze are being brought out. Hahha..Already had my plans long long time ago.
Going to Teluk Batik with Sheateng and friends.
Going to Malacca with Pinky and friends.
Going to Genting with Dai and friends.
Going to the bank to get more cash.
Going home, be a nice daughter and hopefully, daddy pays all the expenses.

So many places to go, yet only 2 months break.
Hahha!!..So happy...happy happy happy happy..

L-alalalaa-lalalaa..
*See, Freddy? It's a happy post!*

So, we had a badminton friendly game tonight again.
We had the 4 B's again tonight, only the other B was a slightly different B.
We have B for Badak, B for Burung, B for Babi and B for BerNen-nen.
The game started at 10 pm to be exact.

We went to the sports complex, feeling all energetic, eager to get to the court and whack some balls, no..cocks...erm, wait...sounds so wrong..SHUTTLECOCK..and then, as soon I got my racquet, and stepped into the court, I froze. Internally, I froze. My cheerful self no longer am in that state..I became moody. I started hitting like no one's business without smiling, or even slightly amused with what they were talking about. Though BerNen-nen was making silly attics, and Babi was laughing non-stop,doing her favourite move.I just can't find myself to even cringe at their jokes..can't even fake one smile to fit into the crowd.

So, badminton wasn't something I take easily. Badminton was a part of me., a BIG part of me. Probably the ONLY thing I am good at. I never take badminton as how the rests are taking it as. Badminton was my life, my soul, my everything. I dedicated my life to it. The hours of intensive training I went through was tormenting yet I know it was the only way to prove to the world that I was good at, at least ONE thing. The 3-hour of training session in every two days seems long, but satisfying. It was never easy to fit in to that crowd, because compared to the rest, I was nowhere as good as them. I never did give up, or I didn't even give a damn, I just continued practising, practising and lotsa practising.

We were trained. Training was always tough. Each hit you missed, you have to do 10 times of push-ups, then resumed to the training session. Imagine if you miss 10 times, that would be 100 push-ups?. There were uncountable times, I was ordered to drop my racquet, get down to my knees and start my punishment. I learnt. I learnt to see every ball with my eyes, and tried to hit every ball coming to my path. I never did miss any shot after months of training. I always knew where each ball goes every time I hit. I know where exactly it's gonna land, and the amount of pressure I have to apply to make it land at where I wished. It's something which not many would know, but it comes after years of practice.

However, I had a flaw. Due to my health problems, I was not able to last long for matches. I can only go for maximum 2 games, and I'd be out totally. I strived to win every game by winning the 2 games, to avoid the third matches. A couple of times which I had to withdraw from matches, because I was not able to make it. Then, the coach started to realise that I am not much of a strong person. My shots are always not as powerful as my other oponents. He wanted to take me off from the team officially. I didn't want him to do so. As I have said, Badminton is my life. The only thing which I am good at. I started to train more on my wrist. I learnt how to trick my oponents with my swift tactics. I was soon put into the Doubles team.

So, you see, Badminton meant alot to me. It's not some friendly match which people can take it easily for. I mean, I can't. I have never. Each time I stepped into badminton courts, it would mean trainings and matches. It never occur to me that badminton can be fun. I kept doing something which I am good at, that I forgot to have fun.

As the match with the 3 B's pursued, I loosen up and let myself go freely. My smiles came back, and soon, I was doing my famous actions. No, I no longer play as well as I used to but I guess, I am starting to have fun.

Recently I have been dropping hints about moi getting a new blog page. Aah, after statics paper and with the next and final paper, 4 days away, I have decided to speed up the process and after 10 hours in front of my computer, I have decided to reveal my latest blogpage.
I need you to go there, have a look and vote in the blogpoll. I need opinions man..=)
Do drop by and let me know what you think. There's room for improvement though as I have yet to explore its features thoroughly.

It's here.

Have a nice day.

After a day of fooling around, I guess it's time to hit reality and start hitting the lecture notes. Aww..a bummer!! Since The OC season 4 is out and all, I can't just let them lying there in my harddisk, unwatched, can I.?
So, today's goal is gonna be finishing my pile of this...

So, I don't have the smarts. I don't have the looks. I don't have every quality that you expect a perfect girl to be.
However, I have the heart.
So, I understand that a person having the smarts are able to boss people's ass off. I get the point because I, a person with no smart genetics, am not supposed to voice my opinion.
I have to accept the fact, that I am at the bottom of hierachy, due to my un-smart-ness. However, you, who belongs at the top of the hierachy, has the license to boss people like me around.
You expect us to bow down on our knees, to listen to every of your *Cough* brilliant ideas and opinion and then, agree with every single word you uttered?

Alright, maybe I am not supposed to say much, because afterall, my opinions, views and ideas are nothing compared to yours.
I don't have the smarts, the looks and everything which comes in the package.
I am glad that you have what you are supposed to have, but try exercising it over the limit, something is gonna happen to it.

I am getting fed up with smart alecs.
You go to your side of the world, and I shall stick to mine alright ?
I don't have to be reminded constantly of your ol' wise one.., and I shall work in my own pace.
Leave me alone, and stop think that you are right all the time.
You believe in your own opinion, and I can believe mine too.

Aah, this is my blog, and yes, I AM ALWAYS right, here.

p/s: So, kindly fuck off from here.
 

So, the internet was down for a couple of hours due to the rain. I was half-glad yet half-disappointed. I only managed to read a few lecture slides and the rest of the day was spent by napping and also watching Comedy Central-some standup comedy talk.

Alright, since the internet is back on now, I have to come here, write a few lines, to fill in the quota right? Nah, nothing much to write about as it;s exam period and all, and no one is there to actually have time to tend to me. So, all I can say is, I can't wait for the last paper to end!

Oh yeah, no longer going to Genting with Dai and Friends. Plans has changed.
Now, we are going to Cameron Highlands with Yeesan and Group. I am perfectly fine with the changes of destination, because it's the company that matters. =) I told Meiling that it was fine that they have decided to change the location, but always, ALWAYS remember to bring the "drinks" and junk.

*p/s: Dahling Yiling, do you want to join us? Can come stay over at my place, but have to sleep on the floor-la.House manyak kecik, apa nak buat kan?

4.23 a.m. now..

And all I want is time to be turned back. I want MP to be right beside me. I want my lonely nights to end right this instance. I want someone to be there to hold me when I fall, I want someone to catch me when I am down. I just want things to be back like it used to be. I want someone to cling on whenever I lose hope. I want to hear soothing voices whenever I am down. I want you. I want you desperately.

(I love you,dar. Still do.)

*This is another emo post, out of the blue. Can't blame me, I really am in an emo-state right now. Damn.

So, it came to an end.
4 months of torturing, 4 months of endless assignments and tutorials,4 months of rushing to classes, 4 months of chasing for lecture notes, 4 months of everything..
It came to a halt today.
2 weeks of examination, and it all ended today.
Geology paper, VAB1033.
*See the lecturer, wanna smack him already!*

The mood was solemn this morning. Many came to the hall with mixed feelings; it would be our last paper, yet this subject happens to be our core subject.
It was absolutely a BIG no-no to flunk this paper.
I walked in, feeling numb.
Even when the chief invigilator announced that it was alright to have a look at the question paper, I didn't flinch alil.
Probably "immune" to the pain that the papers have been inflicting on me.

The clock started ticking.
I had no choice, but to turn over the paper to PAGE 1.
It was now or never. Now or never. Now or never.
So, it was now.

I scanned through the 1st question, the 2nd one, the 3rd..and eventually the 10th question..
Yeah, 10 questions waiting to be tackled.
10---10----10-----10---- and to choose 7..
Chances are 70%..
Wahh...

10 minutes passed..my eyes were getting heavier..
Guess it was the insufficient sleep I had the night before.
DAMN.
I looked at what I have just written..like chicken's handwriting..*no pun intended*

I raised my hand, asked for another booklet, while asking permission to be excused to the washroom. The invigilator was a very nice guy, came from either Sri Lanka or..somewhere near there la..He nodded and said "Of course."

I rushed down, quickly do whatever I WANTED to do, and returned to my seat. The time showed 10.50 a.m. So much time to kill, aah, what should I do first? I did everything according to my instinct. Most of them have already left by now, probably they didn't know how to do, so I finished up my work, and get out from the hall.

Hmm..the last paper..yet the worst.

*shows fist to Eewan*
- I was going to clear my stuffs, packed them, and then get some decent sleep, when I decided to come online, read a few blog entries first. And then, realizing that I was tagged by Chang Eewan, and I had to be the first in her list. So, contemplating between packing and blogging..Hmm...aah~! Have to give face to Eewan all the way from Manchester!

Part 1:
On the Outside
Name : Ang Khian Tang
Date of Birth : 10th March 1987
Current Status : Single and Highly available
Eye Colour : Dark Brown
Hair Colour : Black
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Pieces (very romantic one ok??)

Part 2:
On the Inside
Your Heritage : TeoChew
Your Fear : Birds
Your Weakness : Emotional to the max
Your Perfect Pizza : Hmm....lotsa cheese toppings?

Part 3:
Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : What? So fast morning already har?
Your bedtime : Depends really. So many things to do, therefore, the average   would be 2 am?
Your most missed memory : Hmm, the one..the one..the one I always mention la..

Part 4:
Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi
McDees or Burger King : McDees
Single or Group Dates : Single
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla
Cappucino or Coffee : Cappucino

Part 5:
Do You...
Smoke : Ocassionally.
Curse : Since I came to UTP, well..err..let's say, I fit into the crowd..

Part 6:
In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : Hmm..not so...bummer!
Gone to the mall : Well, I have only been travelling to Ipoh..so Jusco counts ah?
Been on stage :Nopsey
Eaten sushi : Yes
Dyed your hair : Nopsey

Part 7:
Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : Well..I wouldn't mind though..but nopsey for now..
Changed who you were to fit in : Hmm..

Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married : well..if all goes well...27?

Part 9:
In A Guy/Girl
BestEye colour : Dark Brown
Hair colour : Natural
Short or long hair : Depends..

Part 10:
What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago :Doing this tag thing la.
1 hour ago : Drove friends to the bus station and stopping by the nearest town to have breakfast with Freddy.
4 1/2 hours ago : Hmm..I was watching some TVB Drama which I downloaded.
1 month ago : I was procrastinating my work as well as worried about finals.
1 year ago : Depressed. Lifeless. Clueless.

Part 11:
Finish The Sentence
I love : MP
I feel : that I can achieve more with a little bit more determination.
I hate : squabbles and quarrels.
I hide : how I really feel inside to avoid misunderstandings.
I miss : having MP by my side.
I need : start doing what I say, and mean what I think.

Part 12:
Tag 5 People
1. Mel
2.Meiling
3. Yiling
4.Pinky
5. Carina

Left behind: Noni, Sheateng, MUA, Nancy.

4 in the house. That's 1/3 of the usual number.
Aaah..I hate packing. I have only ONE bag to stuff all my stuffs inside..and I realised I have many clothes which I have not even worn once this sem. Hahha..not bad weh.

Actually I wanted to post the pictures of us, having BBQ in Teluk Batik last night, but something was wrong with Tabulas, so I had to write in my other blogpage.
However, since I am still so hyper with my BBQ dinner in Teluk Batik, I shall write in both pages.=)

Since Finals ended on the 24th for me, and I refused to spend my 2-month break at home only, I decided to spend a day/night in Teluk Batik with the group of people whom I don't really hang out with in the campus. I was kinda worried in the beginning as I was afraid that I might feel left out or something like that..but it turned out otherwise. I had a great time,..alright, I always have a great time during BBQs.

The people who went:
1. Kian Chiew
2. ME
3. SomPhong
4. Chong Kian
5. Gabriel

A picture of SomPhong, Chong Kian, Gabriel and our efficient driver, Kian Chiew.

So, the people above plus me, were in Car Number ONE with the plate number PED357. Hahha..and in Car Number TWO, we have
6. Kee Hui
7. SheaTeng
8. Zhan Pheng
9. Kah Kheng
10. Ching Shearn

Actually I wanted to post the pictures of us, having BBQ in Teluk Batik last night, but something was wrong with Tabulas, so I had to write in my other blogpage.
However, since I am still so hyper with my BBQ dinner in Teluk Batik, I shall write in both pages.=)

Since Finals ended on the 24th for me, and I refused to spend my 2-month break at home only, I decided to spend a day/night in Teluk Batik with the group of people whom I don't really hang out with in the campus. I was kinda worried in the beginning as I was afraid that I might feel left out or something like that..but it turned out otherwise. I had a great time,..alright, I always have a great time during BBQs.

The people who went:
1. Kian Chiew
2. ME
3. SomPhong
4. Chong Kian
5. Gabriel

A picture of SomPhong, Chong Kian, Gabriel and our efficient driver, Kian Chiew.

So, the people above plus me, were in Car Number ONE with the plate number PED357. Hahha..and in Car Number TWO, we have
6. Kee Hui
7. SheaTeng
8. Zhan Pheng
9. Kah Kheng
10. Ching Shearn

Yeah, You have probably guessed it correctly. The ratio was 8 to 2, with only 2 ladies and 8 guys. Since Sheateng, Zhan Pheng has the last paper up to 5.30 p.m on the 25th, all of us were eager waiting for the time to come. Kian Chiew was so excited that he came to my block at 5.15p.m when Keehui just told me that they were only leaving at 6p.m. It didn't matter as we kept circling Taman Maju, waiting for the rest to come. It was only at 6.45 p.m when we really embarked in our little journey. The sky was getting dark and the rain was pouring rather heavily. Sheateng's wiper was cranky, giving out squeaky sounds, which kinda hurts our ears, but the whole journey was fun. With Chong Kian making un-funny jokes throughout the journey, and all of us chatting about almost everything under the sun. We only reached Teluk Batik at 8.15 p.m, with the rain still pouring..

Nevertheless, the rain didn't dampen our spirits, as we quickly bring out the gears, with Ching Shearn leading the pack, in search of a shelter: Pondok. Soon, as we placed our things, the rain no longer pours, and quickly the guys get the fire started. I realised when you put all the guys together, you can't do much. You can't even start a fire.

  

The guys were busy starting fire, each with their own style, and for a second, we thought the fire was going to stay, but nope, it died as soon after. So, TEAM 2 took over the job, which the team members are ME, Sheateng, Kian Chiew and Gabriel, and voila, 10 minutes after, the fire was up and going. Quickly they set up the BBQ pit, which consists of a few brickstones and one kasa dawai.

Everyone was excited but very hungry. So, we came to an agreement to only cook the hotdog and burger meat first, since both these are easier and faster to cook. Everyone was fighting our pieces of meat, especially Ching Shearn who took 3 pieces of burger meat, when it was clearly reminded that one person can only take 1 and the 1/2 of it. Couldn't be blamed really,when you are hungry, your animal instincts all come out. Then we proceeded to the chicken wings. 70 in total for 10 people. There were 3 different types of seasoning..(with SHeateng and I, doing the marinating the night before). *(The guys wanted to marinate the chicken earlier but they wanted to do it in pails..; Pails which they used to wash their clothes, undies and everything you could ever imagine..uh huh..so you get the point..) Luckily they didn't come up with stupid stupid comments about the wings, or else,..we shall throw them into the sea..Muahahahaha..how convenient.

   
 

We couldn't finish the food in one-seating, so we decided to spend some time, walking along the beach and then snap lotsa pictures. We took off our sandals and feel the seawater. The waves slowly carressing our leg as we sank them into the sand. We did lotsa lotsa stupid antics,including camwhoring and writing our names onto the sand. We managed to see lotsa stars that night. 
 


* written on sand: My name in Chinese Characters..

 
 
 
 

After fooling on the beach, and with constant reminder from Somphong, telling me not to shout at the seaside, we got back to our BBQ pit, and continued eating again. With the food almost finishing, we had our little bonding session. Surprisingly, it was a breeze for us to bond together. Honestly, I was kinda afraid that this outing might not be as good as the others I had. One reason was probably due to the fact that these group of people are those whom I don't even mix around with. Everytime we meet, it was either a simple gesture of "Hello" or a slight nod to acknowlege one's presence and that was it. None of my usual hangout group was there but surprisingly, we hit it out fine. We discussed about matters from Hackers, gruesome stories, horror stories and up to dirty movies. Everything we talked about was funny and no one, seriously, no one felt left out. Everyone was practically enjoying themselves.

It looked like it was going to rain any moment, that's when we had to come up with some back up plan. We continued talking up to 1 a.m. and then proceeded to clear the site. We sat around planning when we decided to go to the Lumut Jetty to kill time. The beach was then almost deserted and we saw Mat Rempits near the beach. We did fear that something might happen to us because according to them, sometimes, these Mat Rempits are a little dangerous and maybe..something might happen to us. We all waited for them to leave, then we quickly went into our cars.

The road out to Lumut was rather dark and quiet. As it was already 2 a.m, the roads were deserted and empty. We had to drive in a slow yet steady pace, to avoid any mishaps. KianChiew was afraid that people might jump out to scare us and then rob us in the middle of the journey. However, that did not happen, and we reached Lumut safely. The jetty was full of couples and groups of people. We parked our cars, and then walked to the nearest Mamak stall. (somehow we can never runaway from Mamak huh? Leave UTP already still have to go mamak geh) As we walked to the location, people from the jetty were looking at us with one kind of look. It felt eerie and weird, when I quickly clench onto my camera, holded it near me, instead of swinging it to and fro..

We settled ourselves in the mamak stalls while some of us quickly ran to the washroom. It was so painful to hold what we have to let out because the toilets in Teluk Batik were closed. A sense of relief was felt, when we let it all out.=) We continued crapping and also about all kinds of topics. It was almost 5.45 a.m. when we decided to leave. We got kinda freaked out because there was this Proton Wira parked beside the mamak shop, quite near to our place. Earlier, I saw a group of men, surrounding the car, talking while looking to the right and left. I didn't think much as probably they were just talking la. The same position lasted for an hour, when I smelled something fishy going on. KianChiew realised I saw something, and quickly showed me his finger on his lips. I knew something was wrong, and I loudly announced that we should probably get going. Only me, KianChiew and Keehui sped to our cars, while the rest merely walked. We notioned them to hurry up, locking the doors as soon as everyone stepped in. I managed to look behind, to see that those men were actually stealing the car. 2 men were trying to cover up, while one was using some metal, inserting it into the car. It was the first time I experience people stealing a car, plus doing it so openly in the public. Then, as we were driving back to the beach, I told KianChiew that the 2 tables of men who were sitting beside us, were probably their gang, because they were staring at us, with one kind of look..

Imagine what could have happened to us, if we were to approach the men, asking them what they were trying to do?
Or they decided to steal our car instead when they fail to steal that particular one? Or they could have chased us and followed us..

We drove back slowly and cautiously to the beach, with Gabriel and SomPhong fallen into deep sleep. Upon reaching the beach, no one dared to step out from the car, until KeeHui's car door opened up and they came to our car. We didn't want to go out from the car, as it was dangerous and who knows what might happen to us right? The street lights were all out and the beach was definitely deserted. We agreed that everyone has to stay in the car, which is safer plus they will be able to get some sleep. It would be better for the drivers to get some sleep, as they were driving the whole day. Haha..but the 3 of us, KianChiew , me and chong Kian was unable to sleep. Felt disturbed and started to talk about the crime prevention in the country. At the same time, my nature called..and I was trying so hard to stand..Finally when it was getting brighter, Sheateng, Me,Chong Kian, and Pangkor went to the beach to look for the toilets. None of them were opened. It was easy for Chong Kian as he was able to finish his business anywhere whereas it was hard for both me and Sheateng. We looked for suitable places but none of them were suitable. We then, went to look for toilets in the resorts. Luckily there was one, and the management has to charge RM0.50 per person. So expensive la!

                                               

The sun was rising, and the beach was brighter. More and more people were coming so we walked to the beach..doing the same thing, dipping our feet into the sea. Most of them wanted to swim, so they took off everything and jumped in. People like me, Gabriel and Kian Chiew stayed dry onland. Gabriel went around, taking pictures, looking all-pro like a professional cameraman, while KianChiew was being a nice guy, taking care of all our belongings,while entertaining me. We had fun, seeing them play in the water and doing stupid actions. Hahha..funny..

We left only at 8.45 a.m. because everyone was hungry. Went to AyerTawar for breakfast and we headed back to UTP after being out for 10 hours straight without any sleep. The BBQ was one of the best outings I have since I stepped into UTP. The company was great, the people were superb and the food was scrumptious.
Can't wait for the next one though. When ah??

I really did enjoy myself very much..and it explains the double post in both my blogpages..coz I am still not over the excitement!..=)

 

Wahh..now I very disciplined la. Only one entry perday.
Cheh cheh..cheh..

Watched "Happy Feet" with Ah-Looi today. It was kinda odd to go out with him alone, we weren't that close anywayz. Knew him through Mei Loo and all I remember was calling him "Broom-brroom" and that was it. Hahha, however we clicked perfectly fine, even laughed so loud when Mumble Happy Feet did his thang! Cute penguins and the animation was..whoa..damn real weh..Wanna go watch again..maybe can cure my avianphobia..=)

** i HAVE yet to watch Casino Royale..Damn damn damn..Anyone??

Hmm..sien la..sien..

There has never been a day that I have nothing to write about.
I am always deep in thoughts, and never would anyone caught me with my head,being empty. One of my regrets is that I think a lot.

Think too much that sometimes, it scares me and the rest too.

I consider myself as a pessimist.
I think about the consequences of one issue all the time. Instead of thinking about how it's gonna work, I always think about the possibilities of something failing. Never did it cross my mind that something might work. It's always, "what-if ?" or "why should I ?".

Not to say that it's wrong being pessimistic, but then the spirit is not right. We should always have fun in whatever we tend to do, and not just to do something for the sake of doing. 

Forgive me if this entry doesn't make sense. I am absolutely tired and pooped out.

Thanks to Kenneth, I am stuck playing the same old song for 1/2 an hour, straight.

"Good Enough"--Lifehouse

I never did like Lifehouse, don't know why. Everytime I hear their song, "You and Me", I would quickly change the channel of the radio. The song irked me. Many kept telling me how much I am missing out because the song is perfect. Lifehouse sings the nicest song ever, but I detested. Until Kenneth introduce them to me, some time a year ago? I started to fall in love with them, and not him. =) And now, I am stuck with most of their songs in my head. My personal favourite: "Blind".

Songs make me think, non-stop. And all I want is her to come back.

5th day of holidays and I am already breaking down. Sped a 120km/hr with my lil kancil today and I swear if i had to do an emergency break, I would have done a turtle. I can't help myself from being emo. Too emo.

It was a record.
19 hours straight on the bed. I skipped breakfast, lunch and dinner, and went straight to supper.
I have never slept like today before..and yes, the more you sleep right,..the more tired you are.
So, I shall finish up with this entry, grab my keys, go for a short nice drive and then come back, right up to my bed.

I am beginning to hate the holidays.