So, mum's leaving to China tomorrow morning for one week. Alright, I checked my schedule the last time, and it's absolutely empty. How sad. Even my 15-year-old brother has his whole plans laid out, and here I am, stuck alone in Taman Shatin.

I don't feel like blogging here anymore. Nothing's worth writing these days.

I have Vitamin's C's "Friends Forever" song, playing softly at the back of my room. How long ago was it again? ..2 years since I left MGS? 2 years since we last seen one another? 2 years when everyone took their own pathways, and I took the road less taken..

I remember, the words that we said to one another. The ample promises we made to keep in touch, to stay connected, to not drift apart..2 years later, a small group of people are still making an effort. Though many are no longer in the country,yet we still have monthly outings..,yumcha sessions and movies. It is never easy to stay in touch. With different schedule and different obligations, it was never an easy task to pick up the phone, and call to say "Hie!" It was even harder to group everyone at the same time, to do the same thing.

People change whenever they are placed in different situations. Not everyone likes doing the same thing anymore. Not everyone agrees to the same thing anymore. Not everyone cares about the same thing anymore. No more staying in the same town, and all we had to do was announce about a movie outing a day earlier, and probably, the whole group of friends would turn up in the end. However, now, sadly, we need to make so many calls, just to plan an event, and usually, things wouldn't turn out how it was meant to be.

Sometimes I wonder, whether it was necessary to keep in touch. We wouldn't be meeting with those people anymore. I don't need to face them everyday anymore. I no longer have to work with them anymore. Why would I even bother, making an effort to keep in touch, if the other party couldn't even careless in the first place? Why make a fool out of myself, if the rest didn't seem to be interested in meeting up, and I am, among the few who are the only ones looking forward to it? Each time, I ask myself the same old question. Whether it was worth the trouble?

As we grow older, so many different commitments and obligations which we have to tend to. Inevitable process we must somehow, go through. Shouldn't this be the time for us to stay close, rather than putting off a 11-year relationship? Shouldn't we all be checking the times of our calenders, making an effort to clear them, to be part of the group again, instead of hanging onto your new-found friends in wherever you are now? Do you want to move on, without the past? The times you spend in highschool meant nothing to anyone of us out there?

I know how hard and frustrating it is to organize something. Been there, done that, always failed. *To those whom I have troubled, I thank you and appreciate your time.

The last time I talked to someone I didn't talk to for a long time, would be Maylee, a couple of days ago.
I picked my cellphone, found her number in my contact list, and pressed the dialing button. She picked up, I said "hello" and it started from there. There's nothing more satisfying than to hear a familiar, nice voice after such a long time.

Have you done your part today?
Have you been listening to "Friends forever" by Vitamin C lately?
Have you actually listen to the song with your heart, dig deep within and understand its true meaning?

Yiling was being a dah-ling, to count my birthdate, with the newly bought book of hers: Numerology Decoder. hahha..so efficient, only 1 hour I posted my birthdate, and she was already done counting..haha..she thought me how to do so already!..yaya..and this was what she found out about me..

Yiling said,
YOUR BIRTH NUMBER IS 2
artistic, gentle, thoughtful, inventive, charming intuitive

*cough cough*

NUMEROLOGY NAME: DUAD

Number 2 represents the Moon. It is the number of creativity, feminity, and gentleness. The typical number 2 person is more concerned with emotions than action. Theya re usually charming, sensitive, and intuitive. They are also changeable, and can adapt to virtually any situation. They get along very well with other people, and are caring and supportive. Number 2 people are typically diplomatic and like a peaceful life. This can lead to problems, however, as they prefer to avoid taking responsibility or making decisions. They are romantic and idealistic- sometimes overly so- and have a clear vision of what life should be like. Number 2 people have problems with self-confidence at times, however, and can be reluctant to see ideas through.

Represented day: MONDAY
Color: ORANGE
Careers: NURSING, ANY AREA OF HOSPITALITY, ART, THERAPY
Key attributes: DIPLOMATIC, CREATIVE, INTUITIVE, EMOTIONAL
Negative aspects: PASSIVE, DECEITFUL, DEPRESSIVE
Social Aspects: OUTGOING, FRIENDLY, SUPPORTIVE
 

Quite true in a way. But every test I do, seems to say that I have very high feminity in me. Hmm..but wait, what do I see here..NURSING wor..I am doing enginering here la...how to get invovled with nursing...haha..However, the words that are in bold are true. Every single word, is true.=)

la-la lalala..waiting for a package from kenneth. Can't wait much longer.

I am hurt.
Another Emo post.
Forgive me, please.
Shall write about what I did today but for now, this moment, I am in an emo state.

Hurt
by Christina Aguilera 

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won’t be there

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broken inside but I won’t admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide ‘cause it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you
Since you’ve been away
Ooh, it’s dangerous
It’s so out of line
To try and turn back time

I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

Watched "Love Actually" this evening. Really lifted my spirits up and to know that there's still love out there. Wokey, I quickly returned to my sober mood after that.

So, what did I do today? Despite being told numerous times, that I am gaining weight, gaining weight and growing fat, I had a breakfast date with Michelle Lee and Yeesan, together with Meiling. It was supposed to be only me and Meiling, because we wanted to buy the bus ticket to Cameron Highlands. However, You know me..I decided to drag the MichelleS along. To refrain them from being nocturnal once more. So, we decided to meet in..Ipoh Garden, some corner shop. Upon my arrival to the shop, and after ordering the Teh ais I want, the MichelleS told me that the pastry they wanted to eat earlier is not longer sold. The stall was closed down.

"Ah cheh! If they asked me earlier, I would have told them it was closed down weeks ago.."

So, they didn't want to eat the famous, curry mee sold there, we decided to go to Kam Hor instead. A few blocks away. So, I took my car, drove them there, only to realise that Kam Hor was also closed. Damn. Took some time to figure out the next location, but we ended up in Ipoh Garden South's Kopitiam, and guess what we all ordered? Curry mee! Zha tou!! Balik balik eat the same thing..may as well we eat the first place. And all of us ordered Teh cina ais. Ok...

Next stop, it was sigh..Jusco..(where else?) and we walked around as usual. Less than one hour, we have already finished walking. So, to kill time, all of us went into Vincci, sat down and chit-chat, while Yeesan went around, looking for shoes (again) to try on. It was really something that killed time, until we settled down, near the washrooms..on the benches and talked about things.

Lunch time. We went to Sushi East and ate quite a lot.

Dropped the michelleS back, went to pick bro, and dropped him back at home. Sigh..then drove all the way to Medan Gopeng, went down to get tickets. After that, was supposed to drop Meiling back at her place, instead, we went for Assam Laksa, somewhere near her house. Eat eat eat..and then headed home.

On the way home, I passed by the famous "fang sang wu"(peanut thingy) and the "mah chi"..(some glutinous sticky thingy with sugar and peanuts), and bought two packets of each. Went home, ate together with brother..and came online. 2 hours later,daddy came home, went for dinner again.

So, it was eating, eating and yeah..eating today. Nothing else to write about besides this actually. Kinda sleepy.

"mm yeng lou de mm dak!"
(translation: have to admit that I'm getting old)

Ok, stamina gone.!
Went for a 2-hour badminton game this morning with Meiling and 2 of her UTM friends, Sarah and something-Mei. Guess where we went.?
I didn't even know there's a big empty hall there, but there are badminton courts in Pengkalan Emas.
The mall which, err..you know the abducted girl, TANG KUAN YEE,aged 21..she was being kidnapped from there.
So, it was a big risk to take actually..somemore..i..so innocent and naive right..
We reached Pengkalan Emas around 9.15 a.m. The place was deserted.
A few men kept walking around, looking at us. Posters of the missing girl were everywhere, stuck to every window of every shop.

Found the courts after walking around.
Played a few rounds, and I knew, I lose my touch.
Aaarrrgghhh....

-->Michelle Lee, better blog about what happened in Pasar Malam or else, the world wouldn't know about it!

So, yeah, I went to Ipoh Garden's pasar malam tonight..and had fun eating and drinking as I wished. The bubble milk tea was superb. The keropok lekor was crunchy and crispy. The assam laksa smells nice. The Bill-a-bong bag was tempting, and I so wanted to go back for it. The aiskrim potong cempadak flavoured was nice. The changing-lights lightbulb-like clock was worth every penny.

Ok, that's all about it.

Well, today was not a very productive day.
What I did was, sat at home, changed my whole computer outlook, organize my music files, do abit of chatting on MSN, went out to get lunch for bro, fetched him to and fro, and yeah, more sitting in front of the computer again.
So, tell me where's the productive part?

However, tomorrow shall be another different story.
Casino Royale with Karmun, Dai (hopefully!), Mei Ling.
Lunch with probably Yeesan, who might be joining.
Pasar Malam/Supper with Jin Naa and Goh..and perhaps I would be dragging Si Judy.

Man, I miss Homework.
Gone are the days of rushing my last-minute assignments.
Those days will probably be back in 7 weeks' time.
(Long way to go, eh?)

Cameron's would be on Monday.
Meeting up NS mates this Saturday.
Yumcha with Mel, Sarah and Meiling this Sunday.
Freddy coming back to Ipoh on the 6th, which is aiks?...Today?
[HOW COME HE DIDN'T SMS ME???]
*Jaga you, Freddy!*

Christmas would be here soon.
"iTUNES kept playing "ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS" song.
I know what Yeesan wants for Christmas: Her intellegence to be back!
<ok, it's an inside joke>
and Michelle Lee didn't write about what happened in Pasar Malam.
She's doing injustice to Yeesan's butt.
<How could you, Michelle?>

BBQ with "Atan Tuition Gang" might have to be cancelled. I can't make it.
Probably have to go down to Gombak, Selangor for some district TeamBuilding thingy.
(For what, you ask me. Trust me, I kept asking myself the same question too!)

Read the papers.
Kelantan has a dress restriction code now.
Whaa? if Ipoh were to impose such rule, I will be the first to get naked in public.
Like what the hell right? We have human rights also ok? You think like in school ah? Have to wear uniform, wear tudung, buttons all up.
And to think we live in a DEMOCRATIC country.
DEMOCRATIC with no freedom of speech and a dress code.
Hmm...maybe migration to another country seems to be a wiser choice now.

Eh..wait wait..I can't do so.
I am bonded to the government. CIs!

因为我很得空，所以才决定用华语写今天的entry.可是应该就会写broken 华语，我不是“华语-educated.”.
今天非常开心见到很多朋友，尤其是在中六的朋友们。他们刚刚过了STPM，但然很得空啊！很羡慕呀！还有今天在jusco也看到AMC的学生。虽然很久没见了，但他们还记得我。虽然我有很多朋友，但也时常会觉得lonely.
MGS的女生，全部都讲话会很大声。我怕一天会有人投诉我们。Noise pollution.
今天就镇短啦！华语不是太好。
我想祝福你们假期快乐！Enjoy!!

I guess my Chinese entry didn't work out well.
T'hooi told me that there were a few errors here and there, but I wasn't keen in correcting them, considering the people who read my blog are bananas.[香蕉]. So why bother la right? <They also won't notice, muahahahaha>

I guess, I have something against alcohol lately.
I bought a bottle of Kampai yesterday, with 6.6% of alcohol in it, and after a few sips, I felt like throwing up already.
No, I wasn't drunk but yet, I felt like puking.
This cannot be happening.

Realised that I didn't put up much pictures lately in this page.
The process is kinda tedious, as I have to first, upload the pictures to Photobucket.com, and then the normal process, only can put pictures here.
So, usually I would just resort to Multiply, if pictures are ample, or I would just put some random pictures in Blogspot. Over there, things are easier, I don't have to upload them into one server before posting them up. Straightaway from the computer itself.

It's been a loooonnnngggg time since I've last written a decent post. No inspiration or what sorta thing you call that. Cameron's Trip is next Monday, and Mel's going to be back this Sunday. So gonna occupy her for one whole month.And Meiling's promised me Badminton for a few days straight..Hahha..addiction is back! and I am craving for it weh..

A few days later, Eewan's gonna be back, hopefully bringing my Smiroff..or Bailey's. To probably last me the next whole semester in the campus. That addiction is not so teruk anymore, because I can no longer drink that much. Feel like throwing up after drinking a lil sip , and mel promised shots in KL, next next week?

Hehhe..

What else is lined up eh? Nothing much other than I am looking for Badminton kaki's.And looking forward to Penang trip when WeiVern's back from her annual trip. She's gonna bring me around (not like I need to) and yeah, stuff good food down my throat. Penang "KUEY THEOW THENG" weh..nice!!

Mum's plane touching down tomorrow morning. Nope, won't affect my freedom because, I do not get controlled anymore!! yOOHOOO.....owh, before I forget, supposed to meet up with Chee Hau tomorrow.So long didn't see him ah.

Ok, met up with Jacq and Yeesan today. Parade and Jusco. Hahha, saw Hoiwan who came running back from Pangkor because of the condition of her accomodation. Worst than NS..wah, must be terrible! Saw Kwok Yii, who became fatter..must be Siew Leng feeding him a lot la.. another ACS guy and Shea Spere..Shea Spere was from Ipoh when he moved to Penang in Form 2. He changed a lot since the last time we met, and now, look much cuter weh. Some sort like Korean guy..haha..the hair style only la. Didn't recognise him at first, till Hoiwan told me his identity.However, he still remembers my name! Didn't change much la me, I guess. Hahha..funny weh.. And also, saw Mun Yi and Jee Yin, whom I have not met since form 5 graduation. Hard to meet up with these people, and Mun Yi said I didn't change much, except for the longer hair length.

Wah..I guess I look young la. Forever young! Yay!

Just minutes the bus reached Medan Gopeng, Ipoh, I thought of Chee Hau. Hahha, was supposed to meet up with him the next day but then again, dinner with the friends is much tempting. SO, I moved our meet-up yumcha session tonight. Reached home about 6 pm, yada-yada with mum a lil..and then, take a decent shower, without having the need to hurry, and switched on my computer.

Yiling asked me about the trip. Checked a few emails and had to join Dad and his company friends for some business dinner. I didn't know it was a business dinner, so I wore my worn-out Giordano tee and a pair of shorts. I knew zero about the dinner until dad parked his car outside Overseas Restaurant. I thought we would be going to the hawker stall opposite it, but it didn't happen. So paiseh, to have to meet up the friends, wearing such clothing.

As soon as he dropped us back at home, I had to come out again to Oldtown Kopitiam to meet up with Chee Hau and Tze San. Since Chee Hau told me to wait in Old town, so I mai go to the one in OldTown, opposite SMI. I waited for like 10 minutes, before calling him, only to realise that both of us were waiting at the different kopitiam. I sped all the way to its branch in Ipoh Garden East. Took me 10 minutes, an achievement I reckoned.

Let's not forget, Mel send me a text message, asking me to join her for lunch tomorrow in Jusco with Kalip.

Chee Hau still looks the same, TzeSan looked different. I think he looks a little like Karen Lee now..Hehhe. It was kinda slow chatting because I didn't really fit into the picture. Plus I wasn't that close to Chee Hau all this while, only at certain times, we did spend time updating ourselves. But tonight, was rather slow. Probably it was awkward for us, three to be on the same table.

Cameron Highland's trip was...erm..cameron-ish. Don't know what to say except the fact that Jacq made fun of my ass, and now, everyone keeps saying that I have a big one. Malunyaaaa....Don't know how to reduce its size...Sigh, I'm goddamn fat!! Pictures have yet to be uploaded, waiting for Yeesan to do her job, and till I collect all, I shall not write much about the trip. Oh yeah, I'm RM 154 poorer after the trip. Damn !!
And yes, for a long time, I won't be craving for strawberries dipped with honey.

I had this dream last night. Kept me awake the whole night.

Received SanJeev's text message early this morning, telling me to clear my schedule tonight, because he's coming down all the way from Sungai Petani. Man. What's with people and Wednesdays?? I am still deciding though.

I need to go get food for Atan's tuition gang BBQ party this Friday. Goh and Naa bailed out last minute. So, I have to go get food la..

Update about Cameron Highland's trip is available in www.angkhian.blogspot.com.
Go there and see it there la.

Had dinner with Mel, Foo, Meiling and Sarah in Sun Hup Kee tonight. Had fun. Even went to Indulgence for cakes after that. Things we talked about.=)

Well, tomorrow's another busy day lined up.

Alright, it's a long day today.
Breakfast at 10 in the morning.
Met up with Judy at 10.30 in the morning.
Lunch with HwanJean at 12.30 in the afternoon.
Walk around Jusco after lunch.
Tea-time with her again at 4.30 in the evening.
Tonight, meeting up with SanJeev and Rtn. Arthur for yumcha session.
Or probably going to Pasar Malam tonight.

I am so tired. And tomorrow is another long long day.
Atan's BBQ party is tomorrow night.
MayLee is coming back tomorrow.
Chang Eewan called me this morning, asking me whether I want booze from London Airport or the one in Malaysia.
Hahha, heng dai still remember what I asked her to buy.

Everytime I come online, I check my mails, go to my blogpage, go to the few people's blogpage, without fail.
This whole thing is a routine which I do each time my connection is on.
I only go to a few blogpages, some might not update as quickly as I browsed them, and some never did bother update their blogpage at all.
Hers has been left abandoned for quite a while, I wonder why. She was always eager to write about things, random ones, but now, I keep saying the same entry each time I clicked on her page. It has been 2 months now. Even her multiply was just updated weeks ago.
Getting worried.

I just had a lil Bacardi Rum tonight, with the Atan Tuition Gang's BBQ Party.
40% of alcohol, and I love the taste.
Goh didn't allow me to take in more, coz I had to drive.
Haha, it was kinda dangerous, coz I left Yue Wen's place around 12.10 a.m. which was kinda scary in a way.
I was a lil tipsy, and my actions got pretty slow.
=)

Pictures available soon in angkhian.blogspot.com.
Tomorrow's gonna be a damn busy day for me again. What's with people ah?

It's 11 in the morning, and I am feeling hungry.
I need to shed some fats, so I am skipping breakfast.
It's working though, for today.
Need to 'de-large' my ass, to avoid being the centre of attention in the next trip.

I missed reading.
Got myself a book worth RM36.90 two days ago.
"One For My Baby" by Tony Parsons.
So, I read the two books he written before, and I needed something better off to do, other than driving in and out, and also watching some soapy tvb drama on tv and on my laptop.
So, reading it is.
Just checked out my guitar the other day.
Hahha, I think the strings have to be changed.

The weather is crazy.
Awhile hot, Awhile rain.
Apa ni???
I think I am going to fall sick.
I can't stand the sudden change of temperature.



Look at these happy faces.
We are all happy people.
Or at least, we are all really happy people.

I have a million things to say, but a million more reasons not to.

Well, if you may ask, here are a few things which are playing in my thoughts now.

-- I'm fat.
-- I just had a few pieces of durians, and my heart's pumping like mad.
-- I think one day, I am going to die of stroke.
-- I need to get more cash from Dad.
-- omg. I have chest pain now.
-- I am fat.

See? I don't mean to sound dramatic over myself and all..but I just need to tell someone about how I am feeling now.
It hurts. My heart hurts. Inside out. Chest pains getting severe each time. I'm afraid to let my parents know. Then it'll be no usual diet for me.
I can no longer drink. No longer eat whatever I want.

Life's hard.

*knock-knock*

My Nokia 3230 displays the time : 6.02 a.m.

Who in heavens is knocking on my door in such an hour? I stretched my arms, just enough to twist my doorknob, unlocked it, and left the door ajar. I quickly went back to my original position, using another pillow, to cover my sight, hopefully to be able to get back to my dream. Seconds later, someone came in and I knew, who it was immediately.

"Jan, wake up. Come, let's go jogging in Polo Ground."
"......."
"Come on! I told you to wake up early this morning. Come, follow Pa and Mummy.."
"......."

What jogging? What early? What morning?
My mind slowly pacing back to the previous night, when I last had conversation with my parents. Owh, now I remember. Mum was supposed to wake up at 5 a.m today for exercise. And the worst part is, I am supposed to join them today.

"......"
" Still don't want to wake up?"
I growled softly...hoping that Dad would give up anytime soon. I just managed to crawl onto my bed 4 hours ago and I am a growing child who needs enough or probably excess sleep.

" Come, Jan. Go for exercise. If you do not like it this time, you can always continue sleeping next time. Exercise will do you good, for blood circulation. After jogging, you can continue your sleep."
"....." I waved my hand, telling him that I am very relunctant in doing so.
"Ok, Pa give you RM20, k? Come follow us."
"....don't want la!..Want to sleep ok?"
" Alright alright..Pa give you RM200..hehhe..can follow us not??"
" Aiyaa..Pa ah..I give you RM500, you let me sleep can or not?"
" Ok, so where's your wallet?"

Dang. I knew I had to wake up. Not because of the RM500 that I might bound to lose it to dad..but I knew, it meant something to both my parents, if I were to join them for their Morning walk. I dragged myself off my bed, checked the current time, and then proceeded to do the usual. Dressed in my worn-out Giordarno Tee, exercise shorts, find my socks, and then got myself into Dad's car. Before I left the house, I managed to dug out my phone's earpiece.

The surrounding was dark. It looked deserted from the inside of the car. Only a few cars passed by.

"WHO in the hell, wakes up at this time of the hour, just to get themselves sweaty and all??"
" US!" Well, the 22 years of marriage has brought them together, even talking in unison.

We reached Polo Ground 10 minutes later. I was amazed at the amount of cars parked at the parking bays, and the amount of people walking like ants at the ground. The field was still dark, with only a few dimmed street lights. Dad got his parking space, and I frantically trying to look for my phone's hole,..to plug in my headset.
We got down from the car.

"Are you sure you want to bring your phone with you?" - Mum seems worried.
" Aiya, you paksa me here, takkan you want me to listen to nothing right?"

I am still waiting for my Nano to come all the way from the States. Unc Andrew is kinda busy now, with Christmas around the corner and all. My MP4 player has broke down, so I had to resort to my Nokia 3230 to play some of my favourites. I kept my phone safely in my right pocket, stuffed the earpiece into both sides of my ear, and followed behind my mum, walking side by side with dad. While walking, I can see that most of the people there, are old people. OK, middle aged.

We do have lot of middle aged, retirees, crazy people, deprieved of sleep in Ipoh.

As I was slowly catching up with the pace, I can hear women, talking about what they had heard, seen and done the night before. I can hear men, slowly jogging past us, with weird breathing rhythms. Minutes later, stench of sweats were everywhere.
Don't they bathe before they come from exercise??

Mum went jogging at her own pace. Dad and I walked slowly. Dad's heart is no longer that strong like how it used to be..I do not want to leave him alone, so I walked slowly, with one earpiece stuffed at the left ear. He told me about life, the trees and the bees. I told him that I walked a lot in campus. He told me about the society nowadays. I told him I wanna get a new car. He didn't talk anymore.

I resorted to listening to Jack's Mannequin songs. I have the whole album saved in my phone, thanks to the 512 mb of storage. I walked in a slow yet steady pace, and before I knew it, I finished one whole round. Dad signalled me to walk another round, but I felt like jogging this time. So, I did my thing, only enough to last for half a round. I felt triumphant.

My heart started to beat so fast that I swore, it hits my chest. I held my hand close to my chest, trying to calm it with my palm. It wouldn't work because it's just seem illogical. I was normal. I didn't feel like I was going to faint, but I just felt a jabbering pain on my chest. I stopped walking, found myself a stone bench at the side of the track. I sat down.
Dad told me that it was enough for the day. So, both of us sat down together, waiting for MRs. Mum to come back to us. It was her 3rd round now. She reached our point 20 minutes later, while both Dad and I admire the scenery.

The sun has rised now. It seems brighter. Many people are now leaving the field, probably getting ready to go for work. The 3 of us, jogged back slowly to our car, to get to the next location, for breakfast.

Hmm.. ahh! Lemme see..

Nelly Furtado's "Say It Right" is playing loudly outside my room, with mum's newly bought stereo.
Man, I love my mum now. Only NOW.

Following behind that song, would be Nickleback's "Rockstar" and I am pretty sure Blue October's "A Quiet Mind" is next.
So, this entry ain't about my playlist, or the type of songs I listen to.

So, what did I do today, besides sitting on my bed, holding my stomach close to me, due to the stupid monthly cramps?.
I met up with MEL to pay off the stupid parking ticket I got from the maha-pathetic-uselEss MBI. I told my mum about the ticket earlier, but she stopped me from telling my dad, so I had to fork out my own money.

Guess, Now I am RM30 poorer. Paid that sum for nothing ok? I could have gotten myself 3 pieces of cakes in Indulgence, or pay my phone bill for one month, or pay the car's petrol, or just invest a few nombor ekor. But anything would be better than paying it to MBI. It was innitially RM40 but I know can ask for discout one. Plus mum said that it was on the papers that starting on the 22nd of December, there will be 50% discount.
No, because the bloody woman who was in charged of giving discounts was on the phone when we were there, so I didn't had the chance to ask why weren't we given 50% discount instead. I also wanted to ask her what was my blardy mistake since the place I parked was not a yellow line box.

So pandai wanna tipu Ms. Tang's money.

Oh yeah, I am still laughing by myself now. Dad did the para-para dance in front of us just now. Gosh, I was near tears when he did that dance. Which reminds me, of the dance we did back in Form 2. Anggerikians!! Do you remember?? We did it for some senamrobik competition. Man, imagine my Dad doing such moves.

Dad found me drinking Vodka by myself that day. He had a fit. Ok, I can now say bye bye to it now. Hahha, little does he know, Eewan brought another one back for me. I am so happy. This is the season to be Jolly.

Ok, I should have recorded Dad doing the para-para moves.

Y'know sometimes, when you meet too frequently, you probably end up not having anything to talk about?
Yeah, it's happening to us now.
You probably repeat the same old crap you mentioned the day before, and maybe you will be repeating it again the next time you meet one another.
I guess, we should perhaps, meet a few times in a year., not in a week alone.
Not that I am complaining, I just have nothing else to talk about.

It was a long day today.
From 9 in the morning, my day has already begun, with me, driving my ol'mum around, doing her banking stuffs.
Dropped her back at home, managed to check and reply some urgent mails, and off I went again, to see Rotarian Arthur in his office.
Spend an hour, sitting around his office, listening to his yada-yada's, discussing about my latest project, and he asked me whether I was interested for lunch.
Probably brought me somewhere expensive if I were to follow along, but nope, I had a prior engagement with Foo, Mel, and Dai in Indulgence.
The time promised was 2 pm..
Both Dai and I arrived at 2.15 pm, thinking that we were going to be late.
Received Foo's sms saying that she's gonna be late. And as soon as we arrived, Mel called from her place, asking us the time we were supposed to meet.
???!!!!!!???!!!!
So, Dai and I waited for 15 minutes, until Foo arrived and Mel came, 10 minutes after.

TALK-MAKAN-DRINK-TALK-TOILET-DRINK-TALK-TOILET again.-PAY-LEAVE

Like what Mel said, probably we are running out of nothing to say. There were moments left unspoken.Awkward moments.

Reached home only at 6.30 pm, so wanted to lie on the bed, but Dad was already ready for DINNER outside. So, changed into a more comfortable outfit, and out I went again. I was so tired.
Mel came by again with Lucas, her brother and off we went to the Pasar Malam, with the drizzling. Walk walked for a while when the rain started to get heavier, and we decided to leave, and went to Oldtown Kopitiam instead.
The rain stopped then.
Chatted, talked, yakked.
And now, I have the time to reply my remaining emails.
I so wanted to get started on my proposals now, but looks like plans cancelled. Remind me to get to them tomorrow.

I have this serious flu, and blocked nose.
Can't breathe properly, talk properly, smell properly.
and I have fever to look forward to. It always come in a package with my sore throat, and then flu, and yes, the finale would be fever.
It's the holidays, God musn't do this to me.
All started with the durians. Durians, D24 apa la.

Imagine having to breathe through your mouth. Agony.
 

A small world it is.
A few examples to begin with.

MP, my ex who is now in Melbourne Uni.
Tzeyang who is now my University mate, happens to know MP since he was young.

My tuition mate, Kelvin whom I always laugh at, turned out to be related to my family. I only knew about this fact, in a recent wedding dinner of his family.

Jiang Mun, who's currently Foo's roommate, went for her NS training stint, together with Grace Cheng, who's my classmate. She coincidently went to the same base camp as I did, in Segari Lumut.

It scares me alil actually. To know that we are so closely connected.

On another different note, I browsed through friendster page this morning. And yeah, I got sober after that. I think I am having another phobia now.

*Movie today with Mel and her friends. I am still tired, deprieved of sleep, and yes, still yet to get started on my proposals.

One day away from the internet, and my mailbox is already flooded.
Now now, don't get surprised.
I am back early, I know.
We didn't make it to KL, thanks to Bro, who wants to go home, pronto!
So, I, had to keep my money back into my wallet,and sulk all the way home.

I so hate my brother now.

Anyway, as I was saying, I have 51 new messages in my mailbox; 16 needed replies urgently, 9 of it which was junk and the rest, was just some news.
Busy busy.

Christmas was rather quiet this year.
Hop to www.angkhian.blogspot.com some time tonight, and perhaps, you shall know why.

Just when I thought Christmas is going to end silently this year, out pops Lydia!
So, I was online, and she was online, and so I send her an online message over MSN, and the next thing I know, I was driving my SLK, heading towards her place. Then, Lydia took over the driving, using her Yellow truck and off we went to Parade. I wanted to check out this Nike sneakers, and yes, it's cheap now, only RM179. Oklar, since it's just a pair of shoes with a tick on it.Saw this Nike wallet, probably buying it tomorrow, but Lydia said it was too "aunty-ish"..Hm..

Something is wrong with my keyboard!!

AND then, Yeesan came and join us, and we hung out in Starbucks. My pathetic dinner cost me RM21..aiyer..damn expensive can?
and after that, we went to Chang Eewan's place. She wanted the whole Ipoh to come, so we asked her to call up Hitz fm, Mix FM and My Fm to announce her invitation la.

She didn't call la of course.
6 of us: Eu Queen, Lydia, Yeesan, Cheh Shing, Eewan and I sat around, while finishing the bottle of Hennessy. No, I had a diluted one round, and I stopped. So discipline one ok? I had to drive, and it was dark somemore..So, I stopped myself and Eewan for pouring more into my glass. Chat chat and then planned to have another drinking session. Aiyor..bad influence la!

NO MORE MR MS. NICE GUY GIRL LADY.
DO not ask anymore favours from me. I DO NOT WANT TO BE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF.

I realised people enjoy seeing you fall, rather than helping you succeed.
MANkind's SAD. PATHETIC.

by the way, www.angkhian.blogspot.com is updated, with a happier entry, that is.

* Oh Mel, before you kill me the next time you see me, it was not my fault that my MSN keeps signing me in and out all the time. Blame TM net! Goh, can you please go bomb the building already? *

Tired. Exhausted. Letih.
I have been out every night, till 11 something.
My car's tires burning out, so am I.
I need sleep by the way.

What have I done today?
Sit, sit, stand stand..Nothing in particular.
Squash with Mel and Chongkz and yes, I think I can start playing squash when I am back in UTP now.
#Pinky, you jaga k?!#

ok, that's all la. Malas wanna write long long.

SO FREAKING HARD TO JUGGLE TWO BLOGPAGES. Wanna cry d la!!sob..sob..

Hmm..29th of December.
One of my friends birthday today.
Want to take this opportunity to wish her Happy Sweet 20 FINALLY.
So, Happy Birthday,PooiTing.
--doubt she will be reading this though. Li Leng and YangMay told me that she is in KL.

Aah..I have been squash-ing every alternate days with Chongkz and Mel.
I think I have lose my stamina. Played for 10 minutes, already panting.
Aargh..I think squash is a violent game, one could get hurt.

Dinner with Yeesan and Mel in some Ngah Choi Kai stall. The nicest in Ipoh, but not a tourist spot. Most of the locals go to this shop, instead of waiting for the queue in the normal spots where everyone goes. Supper or rather dessert, was again in Indulgence. That's where we met Li Leng and Yang May. 3 cakes were ordered.Sat for a nice 20 minutes when Yeesan had to leave, and both Mel and I wanted to drop by at Mei Ling's place. So off we went.

Haha, by the way, found me another reason to be a frequent patron of Indulgence now. =)

Year 2007 in just a matter of a day.

I shall not start here about how dreadful my life was back in Year2006. You shall read this here.

New Year's Resolution, you ask?
Yes, I have one.

"To spend more time with my family. To treat them better,especially my brother."

The rest, even if mentioned, might never be fulfilled, so why bother?

Oii...
New Year's eve's morning.
4.00 a.m. to be exact.
Lies me here, unwilling to go to sleep.
Why am I feeling so?
I wonder too, myself.
Am I afraid to let go of the present and the past, and scared to accept the future?
What if I sleep, and never did wake up?
Can I just 'go', just like that?
What would happen to the world, if I leave?
Will they even notice that I am no longer around?
Will the earth stop spinning if I no longer exist?
Or would things remain the same, even when I no longer breathe?

This ain't the good time to have such thoughts.
Sober.
Looking at the bottle of smiroff that is lying on the table.
Should I, or should I not?
I will be opening it tonight, so why not now?
I need to drink to sleep..to ease the fear..to lose the feeling..

I miss her.
It's the New Year, and yet, things remain the same.

I want year 2003 to be back, when I was happier.
When I do not have to fake every smile, every laughter.
Everytime I entertain, but who's going to care about me?

Who fucking cares what lies beneath this happy, smiling body, lies a depressed, unable to move-on, soul?

Guess what, only a couple of hours after my last happy entry in www.angkhian.blogspot.com , here I am, feeling sorry for myself.
Aargh, I am sorry if you have to read this, even numerous times I promised that it's going to be the last.

I just miss her, that's all.

New Year, fuck the new year.
Same things, even being optimistic, can't change the cold hard fact.
That some things, if it's meant to be in the past, it's meant to be in the present, and also in the future.
I do not want it to be that way.

I need to seek help.
Pronto.