And when I thought New Year's eve celebration was going to be crap.

No, in fact I think it went perfectly well.
Just how I would want to have it.
Quiet, silent, and tranquility----NOT!

I had never liked the idea of rubbing shoulders with other strangers in crowded areas.
I am rather an Introvert, you see..
I don't see the point of arriving early to a place, squeeze my way into the crowd, mingle around, yak yak in the middle of the road, wait for the clock to strike 12 midnight, while counting the last 30 seconds to a new year, being attacked with cans of foam, and then fight my way out from the crowd, coming home late, clean up, and then be happy that it was a great countdown party.
Nope, perhaps I am not such kind of a person..YET.

For the time being, I just love a nice quiet, booze-free heart to heart talking session, and that was how I did my year end countdown to another year.
The whole story would be in www.angkhian.blogspot.com, sometime tonight or tomorrow morning.
WITHOUT pictures that is.

I just love meeting new people, people whom had no other intention, but just to know a new friend.
Yes, forget the part when I said I was an introvert.
I am just being protective over myself, you see.

Sometimes, when you had a lot to drink, you sit around with a group of people, whom you might not even have guessed that it would be them, and you start to talk.
T-A-L-K, is better than any booze in this world.
Sometimes when you get confused with what to do, and how to do, where and when, all you need is to talk it out.
Probably because I do not give a damn the consequences of me, not being able to keep MY secrets to MYSELF.
Goodness, I am even writing them down to the whole world, so why the limitations?

I had fun, being laughed at and laughing at people.
Laughing is good for the heart.

All I can say is, it's definitely a different kind of celebration this year.
A good beginning, to start off with.
=)

*Remember, the whole story would be available in www.angkhian.blogspot.com
 

Even animals have emotions..
Alright, Jiang Mun told us that Dalmations happens to be the stupidiest domestic animal.
[Random facts which I didn't know about]
Like what she said about pig being the smartest domestical animal around.

No more scolding people "You are a pig!" ok? It's a compliment already.
                                                        
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So, on about the brief trip down to KL in My Place apartment, Subang Jaya, Foo's and JiangMun's little abode.
After everyone was settled down, took their showers and all, we sat down, and had a little chatting session. And then, cards were took out, and apa lagi, coins were taken out also. I did bring along my small bag of coins, because I knew that there's no running away from cards in KL. People would wanna con me of my coins, you see..

Mel told me, that she's the senior guest now in MyPlace apartments. Jiang Mun told me that Phui Whye's the VIP in MyPlace apartments. I, on the other hand, am only the Junior Guest there. Moreover have to pay membership fees to maintain the room.

Me wor..Junior Guest..Wait la wait la..the more times I go, can upgrade my membership status leh..Hehhe.

The usual card games were BlackJack and Chor Dai Dee.
I won quite a little sum of money in BlackJack, but lose all my coins to someone during Chor Dai Dee. Just because someone PANDAI MAIN TIPU, and me, PANDAI KENA TIPU..so eventually, the game stopped because I was running out of coins to pay my bet.
The card game resumed to the chatting session soon after, about 12 in the morning.
Everyone was bored, and I was hungry, so mamak it was. The host brought me to a mamak stall nearby..and food was..so-so only la!.
As usual, someone took my coins to pay for her food. Mengada, must pay in front of me pula!..Hmm, luckily me got duit kertas! Hehhe.
We talked a litte more in mamak stall.

We soon realised that the night was no longer young, we made a move back to MyPlace Apartments. It was near, as in the mamak stall was not far away from their place. We settled ourselves comfortably, and yes, continued our little chatting session.

One thing which I realised, we certainly talked a lot. From going up to the apartment, and down the apartment, which is 4 storey's high..to the time when w had our meals together, right up to the very last second before I boarded the bus back home to Ipoh. Not to say it's something bad, in fact, it couldn't be better!
Imagine the group of people you hang out with, has nothing much in common and doesn't have anything to talk about.
You berkulat la there~

We only managed to get shut eyes at 6 am. Mel was the first to "konk" out, leaving the 3 of us, lying on our beds in he dark, still talking about nonsense. Foo got high with cammomile tea, so I took the opportunity to question things which I wouldn't have dared to ask when she's awake.
Hahha, who wants to know, have to wait until the next gathering..Muahhahaha..

I was the first to wake up. No, actually I didn't get myself a nice sleep anyway, due to the sound of rats scurrying on top of the roof. Being a light sleeper, it's kinda hard to ignore sounds like this, unlike people whom I know of. I had to get myself ready to meet up with yiling for breakfast. We did meet up, and I got to see Jonathan Lam too. Guess where Yiling brought me for breakfast?
--Oldtown Kopitiam, Subang's branch.

Scary huh?? I also got scared of the food. But it's the company that matters. So long I didn't catch up with Yiling in person and Jonathan Lam, I only get to see him when I go for movies, you see. So, there we were, talking about stuffs. INTIMA's president you know..haha, must have connection abit right?
One thing's for sure..., I wouldn't want to be under Yiling. She will keep reminding you that she's the BOSS.

Yiling dropped me off to join the 3 stooges who were waiting for me at the entrance of the apartment. We took the cab all the way to KLCC for a fee of RM25.
Yeah, so cut short, we went la do our shopping,makan makan..talk talk, met up with Dai and all who came from Ipoh for One day trip, then walked the same place all over again, and then makan makan again, and walked again.

I didn't get to do my shopping though. Only got myself a book. That's an achievement you know. A great way to start the new year. Angkhian got herself a book..

Then it was time to leave KL, my bus was at 6 pm. So, the 3 stooges brought me all the way to Pasar Seni's LRT station..when it rained. We walked all the way to Pudu Raya under the heavy rain when we reached, we were all drenched. I felt so bad for making the 3 of them accompanied me all the way to Pudu. I think it was unneccesary since it was not the first time I've been to Pudu and so mm hou yi si walked together with me under the rain somemore.They even waited for me to board the 6 pm bus before going off for dinner in KFC.

Hereby, I thank you, the gracious hosts, and the person who brought me to KL, Mel. Chinese New Year's Holidays' dinner shall be on me. No expensive food though, only sincere, nice, reasonable priced, good food.

I shall continue this tomorrow.

How many of you are actually bothered to finish reading what I've written?
With the maha-small font that I have always used..and the font which can be difficult to read,at times..
So,how many of you actually read until the very end, or maybe, only up to this line?..

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About my little trip to KL this time around, the company was fun.
And I just found out that Mel lied to me about me leaving my toothbrush at Foo's place. It was in my bag all along. Cis. I had to go buy one new one, which cost me RM7.50.
*Mel, bayar balik!*

[Owh, Foo's online already. Though Jiang Mun just said she just woke up like 5 minutes ago.]

JiangMun, though being a Convent girl, was fun. I always had something against Convent girls, something about rivalry between this two schools..you know, the locals always know what Convent girls are like..and what MGS girls are like too.
Jiang Mun didn't prove the theory wrong also.
She was just different in her sorta way.
Good sport!..always kena marah and ejek..
But still able to laugh her heart out always..
(*Jiang Mun, no..no..the total opposite of you..Not you...don't perasan*)

Foo was being nice too. No cranky moods.

Owh, i had a short conversation with her on MSN yesterday, and we sorta talked about general stuffs when I asked her whether I have changed.

Foo: You used to be joyful, very bising but now, you are like emo all the time.
Me: Why do you say so?
Foo: Sad face all the time, suddenly keep quiet..Cannot hear sad emo songs.
Me: Aiks? Where got sad face all the time???
Foo: You go see the mirror la!

Short but a very educational trip this time around. Learnt alot from JiangMun's problems. Hahha, told them that it's better for them to lecture her, than telling it to me. I get to learn along the line too.
=)

Education fair in KLCC was also abit redundant for me. Only there, to accompany Meiling at first, but went to take some information for bro also. He's like only 16, but Dad's already planning. Haih, guess our future lies in Daddy's hands also la.
The place was packed with people.
People from various booths kept approaching us, as we walked past them.

Jiang Mun was being a pest, when someone approached her, and she said, "No, I am now pursuing doctorate. Call me, Dr., Dr. Chong.."

Mengada la right?..Where got Doctorate la..degree also belum habis, wanna doctorate..hahha..some even came to me and asked, " Hmm..so you are in form 5 now?"
Like what the hell right? Do I look like a 17-year old now?? Cannot blame them also la right, I look young and pretty la right??
I was pretty good in saying "NO" to those who kept handing out brocheures about their institutions.
On the other hand, people who I know, kept taking them, even if it's not for any usage to them. What for? Wanna use them to balut *** ah?
Rubbish also ma right?take home also..what for leh?

KLCC is actually a sucky place to shop. Like what Michelle Lee said, "It's not for normal people like you and me to go".

Next time, whenever I feel like upgrading my membership status, I should probably pay a visit to MyPlace apartment. Good, convenient, and good gracious hosts.

And now, back in Ipoh..when everyone's back to the battlefields, I am here, sitting, waiting for people to come home from battle, and at the same time, waiting for my verdict.
Aih..now, I am beginning to hate the holidays..

Life Is Short
Butterfly Boucher

When it doesn't rain it snows
Yeah the cookie crumbles but in who's hand?
All things said and all things done
Life is short

Oh I am young but have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done...life is short

Ooooh could this be....
Ooooh could this be the day I've waited for?

Another door to peek in through
The floor is filthy
But the couch is clean
At the end of the day
That's another day gone
Life is short....Ooo life is short

Ooooh
Could this be....
Ooooh
Could the be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plently done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled for to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is to short

Ooooh
Could this be...
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...

                                                   ***

Alone.
Done my shopping alone.
Went to The Store alone.

Surprised that I went shopping for clothes in The Store?
It's because they have Oreef's there.
Love surf shirts and pants.

I went there, pick pick pick and said, "Don't have to try-lar!"
Paid.
RM200 gone, only for printed shirts.
But I am happy. And that is the only thing that matters right?
Me, being happy.

S'long I didn't shop alone.
Alil disappointed that I didn't get to buy anything in KL.
But I am happy now.

The aunty next door is singing her heart out again.
Perhaps It's just me who doesn't appreciate her singing. No one in the neighbourhood is complaining, except for me.
I wished she could have just taken singing classes, perhaps I shall grow to love her singing.

"I am weasel" is on Cartoon Networks now.
"Cow and Chicken" is next.

Oh yeah, I finally finished "One for My Baby" by Tony Parsons..starting on The book that Foo lend me.

I think I would wanna have kids of my own. Motherly instincts sinking in.
When I had family dinner last night, all my cousins aged 5 above, came sticking to me..Talking to me..and the way they laughed.
So naive. So funny. So childish. So innocent.

I wanna have a baby boy.And he's gonna be named Yong Jun.
It's something me and MP wanted, when we got together.

I was about to finish my entry, when I closed the window.
Like WHAT THE F**k RIGHT?

As if waiting for your results is not bad enough.
My laptop decided to die on me last night.
My internal HDD HARD error.

Damn!! All my series gone. Songs gone!. My pictures all gone!!
I didn't had the time to backup my files so they are all gone now!!! And I have no pictures left!!..
Dammit!!!!!

I am so fucked up at the moment. Without my laptop, I am like without my clothes.
Exposed.
I have no computer to use, and this computer which I am using now is my brother's. Itu pun curi-curi use one..Die la me!!

Everyone from UTP is online now.
Waiting for the page to load..It's still blocked by the management.
Say accessible by 12, but now, almost 1 already.
Damn..anxiety is killing me la..

*God, I'll be good. Let me get in the 3.0 gpa at least..No fail ok? I will study hard-hard next sem..I promise..Lesser hours of mamak..ok??ok???

www.angkhian.blogspot.com is updated.

2 more days left, and my hope's crushed.

I can never say Goodbye properly.
I cannot bare the feeling that this minute, this person will be there, and next, he/she will be flying off somewhere.
I am terribly emotional in such a weird manner.

Even when I visited my friends who were only in KL, I felt like crying when I had to leave.
Just like that, my emotions are affected.
Fragile, you would say.
But I can never deal with farewells and goodbyes.

Every semester before the break, there's this heavy feeling inside me.
I feel sad, knowing that it's time for me to leave the place.
The rational you would think that it's only a goddamn break, what's wrong with me?
But, no..I can feel that something has been detached from me.

I felt weird today.
Seeing her, having to leave tomorrow.
So much for me to say, yet I couldn't find the right words.
I can't even gather my courage to tell her what I have inside me.
Even when she turned around to walk away, I felt that deep inside, I so wanted to shout to her, telling her she would be deeply missed.
But the voice never did come out.

There was something in my throat.
When she turned around, waving goodbye, all I did was a polite nod.
That was all I could do.
I couldn't even say " Take care !" properly.
I just looked away.

She texted me, after that.
Asking me what I was doing.
And the chat continued from there.

She might end up in this blogpage as soon as she reached her place.
I wouldn't mind though.
I want her to realise that I feel her more now.
It would be even better for her to read it here, then for me to struggle for the best words to describe how I feel.

Feelings are odd.
They come without knocking, but leave silently.
I wonder how long this is gonna last.
And how she's gonna react after knowing all this.

Sorry everyone.
I know I have disappointed you, but I know best.
I finally found the medicine for my broken heart, and it's just left.

Everyone, meet WeiYuen, one of the Wei's sisters I kept talking about.


Man, already 22, but still looks young and gorgeous. *Jealousnyaaa*

Meet another Wei sister..WeiJin..


After being busy for the whole week, finally WeiJin asked us out for yumcha before she leaves to Melbourne. There was only a 2-hour slot for us, so we had to choose the time she allocated for us, or else, we wouldn't be able to meet her.
Although I merajuk-ed a bit because we didn't have any choice, yet because I am a friendly person, I decided to say yes.
So, since I don't know where to go, WeiJin decided to meet up in Jusco instead. (I was kinda shocked to have to drive all the way to Jusco to meet up with her) plus you have nothing in Jusco to do..but then, she mentioned that WeiYuen was going to tag along, I went for the sake of WeiYuen. =)

Sigh, guess where we ended up at? The kopitiam at the ground floor.
We could have easily gone to some old town kopitiam branch, and the coffee tasted nicer there than the one in Jusco.

                                                   ***

She had to leave to Ebox after 1, because she had this appointment with her friends. See????
We are only given 2 hours perslot..

Anyway, I went home, dropped EuQueen back to her place on the way back.
Had lunch with mum when WeiJin asked us to join her group of friends for dinner.

She said it was gonna be Thai Food in Ipoh Garden East.
So, the first thing which crossed my mind was the restaurant is KohSamui.
I asked her, though she wasn't that sure about it, she said, it might be the one I said.

We reached there about 7.30p.m, and there was still no one around.
Waited and waited.
So, we called WeiJin.
It was clearly a bad idea, because she didn't even know where she was.
She passed the phone to her friend, and Lydia passed the phone to me.

The directions were given, but the place wasn't Ipoh Garden East.
Consider lah, but it was on the way to Bercham.
Luckily for her, I got the rough idea, so we were there, about 10 minutes later.

It was not a restaurant.
It was only a shop.
Ok..coffee shop.

EuQueen and Lydia wanted to go to Indulgence instead.
But we have to give face right, so I parked my car,and met up with WeiJin and her friends.
So, it was 3 MGSians, and 6 AMCians.
Gosh! Outnumbered!!..

As soon as we took our seats, names were exchanged.
There was an awkward silence after that. Probably everyone was afraid to say something that one side might not get it.
So, being one who couldn't stand such silence, I decided to break it.

After that, her friends started talking and I talked to WeiJin instead.

Food was nice. Ok-ok..Cheap..RM11 Perperson and we had a variety of food.

After dinner, was supposed to drop WeiJin to join her family for dinner, but when we reached the place, her family wasn't there yet. So she joined us for a short Yumcha session in Oldtown Kopitiam.
Send her back after that.
Man, crappy entry today..I am so goddamn tired.

By the way, before the dinner ends, her friend who gave me directions, asked who did she talk to earlier.
WeiJin pointed to me.
She said that my voice sounded gentle and soft, like a homemaker..

Wow!!!! I have a nice voice!!Gentle and soft..Hehhe..

I am officially pronounced SICK.
A slight high fever, headache, coughing and watery eyes..
And a hoarse voice; no more soft and gentle voice..
Sob...

*cough*
*cough cough*

(I am really coughing one ok?)

She took off today.

I am battling with the inner me, whether to let her know how I feel.
I am still in battle.
There's rationality to fight, and love, and maturity..
Aah...

Spent an hour plus to talk to Eewan on SKYPE just now.
Aah..she wasn't that supportive in a way..
I guess, she was just being practical and realistic.

I told her about my past last night.
She still thinks I am joking, but I told her I was not..With a dead, emo serious expression.
Yet, she still thinks I am joking.
*sweat*

I don't know what to do, and I don't know what else for me to do.
Sit and wait?
Or just move on with my current life.?

Already 20..Already 20...
Grow up, khian..Do Grow Up...

I can feel my guts coming out from my throat.
The coughing is getting from bad to worst.
I can't even breathe properly, can't even talk properly, can't even eat.
I kept feeling that I wanna throw up..and I think I am going to, soon.
This is not a good start for the semester.
Why can't I be healthy and start the semester with a smile, instead of a pair of useless lungs which kept failing on me?

Damn.
*cough-cough*
*cough,cough,cough*

Enough already! *cough*
*ROLLS EYES!*

Aah, leaving in an hour's time.
(Thanks Mel, you have a safe trip too!)

Life is not fair, when you get blamed for being nice.

See, it's starting already.

By the way, I have a devastasting news to announce.
I have classes on Saturday and Sunday NIGHTS starting next week.

Goddamn Uni.

Well, undeniable..I am missing home. I am missing Ipoh.

Even being 30 minutes away from home, yet I can't help myself but feel uneasy being away from it.
Yet knowing that even when I am home, my friends are not around.
They are either 3 hours away in KL, or 13 hours away in UK, and a few here and there..Several in US itself..

I am not going to sound corny here, but I definitely miss the times I spent with my family and friends.
Well, Look here. I don't mean to sound pathetic, but I want time to go back when everything is so easily accessible. When friends are just a call away, or better still, I can always wait till the next day when school starts again at 7.30 in the morning.



So many funny moments that is fresh still, in my mind.

Like how it took 2 civil engineers, 1 psychologist and 1 random fella (unknown career still) to actually open 2 bottles of wine.
and how the random fella actually contributed alot in this process.

Or how we had fun playing truth or dare, when everyone was kinda frustrated because the bottle we spun, never pointed to me.

Or how amazed some of them were, when they were in the Yellow Truck.

Or the time when we went for dimsum as early as 6.30 a.m. in two different dimsum restaurants.




The times when we actually went for badminton and squash sessions, with different company.
But I enjoyed the badminton sessions most, especially the ones we had in IPOH SWIMMING CLUB.

The uncountable times when I actually called my friends out, just for lunch or dinner, or even supper, randomly.
The first time I went to the newly built McDonald's Drive-Thru was with Ms. Naughty of MGS.

I miss driving my SLK, picking up friends who live faraway from mine.
Yet I didn't mind, because I know they would appreciate it.



I know I won't be able to name everyone in my friendster list, but I know deep down, who to call whenever I am in trouble.

Well, I presumed it's hard to gather everyone again together. Unless, we turn back time to where it was in the year 2004.

And most of all, I miss


Lydia..erm..No....Euqueen...errrr...not really....hahaaha....(I was only joking!!)

I am back for the weekend.

No, this is not an open invitation for you to give me a call or something. Nope, no yumcha that sorta thing.
I am only back for the weekend, because I want to see the doctor, treat my stupid cough and rest for the weekend.
I have this stupid headache now, and I have lots to do.
So, if you want to talk on MSN, just for the weekend, it's fine, but nope, no..I am not free to go for any movies or yumchas or anything ok?

Aah, made myself clear.

Anyway, I was at Building 17 today, for the class of the day: Moral Studies.
The time was 11 a.m., when Ms.Chong split us into several groups to discuss about the daily dilemma.
Not more than 20 minutes, suddenly the fire emergency alarm rang.
We initially thought that the alarm has gone wrong, and they are only having a test or something that sort.
So, we laughed about it.
Suddenly, over the intercom, the recorded voice, told us that the alarm has been turned on, and for us to stay calm while they check the validity of the fire.
For 5 minutes, the same message was played.
Ms. Chong went out of the class to check, and in the meantime, the class was into a frenzy mood. Everyone started talking in a high state..thinking that it was another one of those days that the bell decided to play a prank on us.
Soon, we started to smell something funny.
Smoke. We knew it was no joke and the alarm was for real.
Ms.Chong told us to pack our bags and walk down slowly. She even had the time to tell us to use the stairs instead of the lifts.Lol.

The whole building was evacuated. On the way down, I passed by the lab, which was only situated next to the class.
The whole lab was full of smoke and was starting to omit some sort of undescribable stench.

Maybe short circuit gua..

So, we reached the ground floor..while Ms.Chong tried to gather all of us. She gave us the task, and we were released early.

I think, we should have this once in a while.

Drowsy.
One word to sum it all up.

Aaarrrghh..Should have known that cough medicine has this effect on me.
Shouldn't eat it in the morning.

=)

I am happy today.

Sick like a dog, but I am happy.

Emails are nice to received.
Especially unexpected ones..

I think I am getting better. Hahha...

The weekend is gone. Pretty fast. Period.
Damn.

I have a new lecturer for Solid Mechanics and thank goodness, he converse in pretty clear English..and he was telling us that the number of students taking this course is pretty large, and he is not used to taking so many students, and probably, the lab assistants will face problems dealing with us later. So, he said,

" There's only 3 ways to deal with this problem (while making a gesture with his 3 fingers)
One is to pursuade as many as of you to drop this course this semester..."

At this point, there were murmurings around the class..because Solid Mechanics is the fundamental of Civil Engineering, which means, if we do not take this class now, we might have to extend our academic semesters, which means we won't be able to graduate in the year 2010.!! And who would wanna take that step???

" Secondly, I'll kill the extras because I am an Iraqian and I know the ways..."

Owh, so now we know he's an Iraqian, and obviously, he has a sense of humor.

" Or thirdly, I can ask the Lab Assistants to device a way to fit in all of you into the lab sessions."

Phew. The third option seems to be better. No death involved hopefully. I mean, he looked serious while talking about killing off people..Hahha, and I swear, he looked at me, and his eyes twinkled for a second.

*Shudders*

Back d lah, in this horrid place.

At the age of 20, I shall not pretend that everything is all fun, no dull in my life.
I have problems with my family, problems with friends,and yes, acne problems too!!..
(Oh my gosh, at the age of 20, I thought I no longer have to wake up one morning, and to realize that the whole acne population has infested my face but still....aarrgghhh!!)
and yes, this is rather horrible to say, but I still have tummy cramps which kinda sucks in a way.

Class was at 8 this morning, with Moral Studies to begin the day. What a good starter, right?
I thought I was not able to wake up due to the effect of the cough syrup that I took in last night. I swore that I was walking sideways to the toilet last night..damn..so strong one!!

I decided to skip medication this morning, afraid that I am not able to focus in class..
Yeah, and currently I am feeling sleepy..I think I need to go for a nap, probably after a few episodes of the new tvb drama that I am currently watching..

I am losing the momentum to blog., really..
Any ideas what to write about, other than my mundane life here, in Tronoh?

*I am waiting for her email..Aaiih..torturing yaa!!*

" Overall, you have presented quite well. The topic you have chosen is very general, and you have a good voice projection. On top of that, you have a very nice smile. Just be more interactive with your audience."

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Why do you think it's important to be happy?
Being happy releases a certain hormones, Endorphin into your body system and you'll be tolerant to stress.
When you are happy, you tend to lead a simple life, and it will go smoothly, your way.

I believe we only have one shot in living, since I am a free-thinker.
I don't really believe in reincarnation, and for those who doesn't believe this as well..So, my point is, why, why when are only given one shot in life, we choose to be upset and depressed?
Why can't we be happy instead?

Happiness can bring you an easy life. And the chinese believe that if you are happy, the more "ong" comes into your life.Happiness can lift the mood, your mood, and the mood of the people around you..

Happiness can be achieved in so many ways.
Different people has different level of happiness.
For women, they usually love chocolates, and for the men, driving and golf perhaps?
Just by doing something you like, can actually make you happy.
For instance: Me!.I love driving, being behind the wheels excite me.

Nowadays, there are so many books on the racks, sold, teaching people the ways to be happy and contented in life.
Books like this are for people, to motivate people, and to tell them that happinesss can be achieved easily and depression can be avoided.
Andrew Matthews is one author, which writes about ways to be happy.

Hahha, i don't even know what I said.