I am back in UTP.

I think I am so screwed.
2nd week being back in Ipoh, and I've already been to the doctor twice.

This time, I terpull a muscle because of coughing so much, and hurt the muscle near my bladder and kidney..
And now, everytime I cough, it hurts like SHIT.
Shit.
And the doctor gave me medicine to relieve my muscle, and some painkillers.

I hate the idea of taking in medicine all the time. ALL THE TIME NOW.

and yes, the doctor told me that kidney looks like something is wrong too. So, have to go do checkup next time I go back.

WHAT THE FUCK...

and I am so bloody upset that I didn't get to call her.
I was thinking of what to talk about after the call get through and all..even got myself a few pieces of reload cards, but then she texted me, saying that she won't be home early.

Bummer!!

I am so hopelessly upset!!

If one word is able to describe how I am feeling at the moment, I will use the word.
Yet I can't point out how I am feeling, what's more to find the exact word..
I miss MP.
and I have to lie to the whole world that I don't.
That I have moved on..but I miss MP.

And sometimes, you can't help feeling a little foolish and silly..
However, how you think, and what you are going to do, in the end, might sometimes turn out differently.

When asked, whether it was worth going through all the financial expenses, and the time wasted,
all I could say is, "If I were to be so calculative in whatever I do, how many calculators will I need?"

No, I am not trying to sound as if I am noble or that sorta thing.
I am just acting on what my impulse commands me to.

To divert this serious topic for a while,
Read this.

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Tze Yang Lee says: u scratch my car i rape u!
>khian says: RAPE LAH!!
>khian says: I AM SEX DEPRIEVED ALSO!
Tze Yang Lee says: OPEN LAH!
>khian says: U SENDIRI COME OPEN!
Tze Yang Lee says: I"M ALSO
>khian says: SO??
>khian says: COME LAH!!
Tze Yang Lee says: NEED TO RELEASE THIS BURNING PASSION
>khian says: COME
>khian says: U COME V5K NOW~!
Tze Yang Lee says: y not u come to my room? i have all my equipment here
>khian says: u come here lah!
>khian says: u wanna rape me!!u come
>khian says: actually i really sex deprieved ah!!
>khian says: sigh!!
Tze Yang Lee says: for god's sake u are a lady
Tze Yang Lee says: i'm a guy also not sex deprived
?khian says: so?
Tze Yang Lee says: well at least i can ease my self of that urge...
>khian says: REALLY?
>khian says: how?
Tze Yang Lee says: MASTURBATION
Tze Yang Lee says: HAVENT U HEARD OF IT
>khian says: so..
>khian says: U WOULD RATHER MASTURBUATE THAN RAPING ME?!
Tze Yang Lee says: I'M ASKING U TO GO MASTURBATE YOURSELF U BIRD BRAIN!
>khian says: tsk..tsk..
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Now, don't ask me why were we having such conversation at such ungodly hours.
Pure randomness.

I can't believe that I am actually sitting here, in front of my laptop, revising Vector Calculus, waiting for tomorrow's lab at 8 a.m. This sucks balls to the max, can?

and today's long distance call to Melbourne cost me a bomb.
RM30 for 30 miserable minutes.
The conversation was rather...erm...i am not sure.

I am still deciding whether it's the right time or the otherwise.

#The pain is starting to get on my nerves already. It's there, no matter I am coughing or not. Dai thinks I might get Hernia, she's starting to freak me out already.What's Hernia?
All this medic Jargon is not tallying with what I read here, in Engineering school.

ROTARACT MEMBERSHIP DRIVE BEGiNS TODAY.

I am just so tired of being placed in one place for 2-hours straight.
I am seriously angry of the fact that the membership drive is not working at all.
Ok, just because you put a few display board about the club doesn't mean it's gonna work..
Let's face the bloody fact.

I don't even stop by any booths when I am rushing to classes ok..?
So, what makes you think the people are any different than I am?

Sigh, just a good wastage of time gone ok?
Plus another board meeting tonight at 10,..see? another blardy 3 hours gone.

Sigh. I am so fuckingly pissed.

On an unrelated note, happier entry tonight expected in www.angkhian.blogspot.com

I think I said something wrong...
and scared her off....

2.54 A.M.

4 HOURS more to the next class.

Why am I still awake at this hour?

Alot of things are mind-boggling right now. So many unsolved puzzles. So many missing pieces.
Every piece is scattered around, waiting to be found at the right moment, at the right time.

It's actually nice to be back here, with a good old friend.
Or it feels comfortable to know that people see what I choose to avoid.
and they understand how I feel deep beneath.

I would love to have a nice coffee at the moment.
Ice-Blended Caramel, topped with whipped cream.
Sluuurrrrppppp....

If One day, someone actually brought me a glass of Ice-Blended Caramel, together with the whipped cream,
then I will know that, I have found the right one; the missing puzzle.

Hahha, if you think I am freaked out of having to spend Valentine's Day alone, well,..you are right.

Work! Work! Work!

Today's a Sunday and I am working.

Hehhe, I have PCS presentation this tuesday, Quiz on Wednesday, Assignment due on Wednesday, Lab Report due next Tuesday, Assignment due next wednesday, yada yada yada.
*Not that any of you are interested, and even if you were, you wouldn't be able to help me also lah right?

Now, I am waiting for Punchee to get the room cleaned.
*Note: Her side of the room. =)

And then going out for lunch.
I am so freaking famished now.

Shall write more if time permits.

and I am craving for sushi now...Now...

I have TWO (blardy) reports due next week, and it's the Chinese New Year, for goodness sake..

and to complicate matters, I have a presentation tomorrow and I am so freaking nervous now.
And just last week, I was telling the others there's nothing to be worried about. It's only a presentation..but now, not practising what I preached.

By the way, my community service is in Children's home this year. Yay! Kids simply adore me..and of course, I adore little boys.. =)

I had a late night call last night. Around 11, when I declined Punchee's offer to Mamak and I thought I was going to turn in early. I saw my phone lights blinking for a several times, as I put my phone in a silent mood ( The last time my phone has ever rung was 6 months ago!)..I thought it was an alarm, but nope, it was a long distance, yet unexpected call.

All the way from UK..
Wellson called, out of the blue, and left me speechless, half expecting the call to be from hengdai..
However, the conversation was fun, and interesting as I had to use mandarin to talk to him..and he was probably having a hard time, understanding what I was saying..
It was fun, really.
And to know that he purposely got an IDD card, just to call me, was simply sweet of him..Aww...

Well, good to actually tell the whole world about what I was being happy about.
And now, to get my nap and to go for class later at 3pm.
Damn.

Oh, bumped into Kevin today, and he smacked me with his file. Darn. And I was so blur, because I was looking for Crescentia, that I didn't have the time to react to him, and simply just walked away, smiling.
Funny guy..He's always keeping me accompanied online. =)

2 guys who made my day. Sigh.
Not looking forward to this Wednesday though.

4 hours of field work today, under the hot sun.
Ok, it was abit tad tiring, but I enjoyed it.
Team work worked, I supposed.

After that, we had lunch together and one of the group members asked, whether I was a tomboy.
I dare not look into her eyes, and shifted my attention onto my food.

What is that supposed to mean?

Some people thinks it's just another day.
Some says it's the only time of the year they felt loved.
Some thinks it's a waste of time and money.
Some feels lonely and wasted.

So, tell me, what do you think?

Tell me what do you think about Valentine's Day..
I know, when I was asked to write about Valentine's Day and whether it's something good or something bad, most of them would always answer that it's a waste of money. This is the time when they hike up the price of chocolates and roses..The time when the cinemas and dining places are fully booked and packed with people.. The time when hundreds of people are seen strolling in the neighbourhood park in the middle of the night, holding hands. And this is the time, the singles frown and make negative comments about Valentine's Day.

So, really..what do you think about Valentine's Day?

Those attached would be pretty occupied during the day and night of this Wednesday. With dedications over the campus, those couples are busy sending teddy bears and roses to their other halves..The singles are trying their luck, hopefully that no one would be spending the night alone, on a Valentine's Day.

The big hoo-hah about this day?

It's a sign that you are growing older each year. It's time for you to buckle up, and reflect on why you are still pretty much single till now.
It's not wrong to celebrate Valentine's Day alone, or rather, the singles would always have a bachelor party at this time of the year.

Oh, the guys in my campus are having a "Maggi Party" on Valentine's. A party where they actually eat Maggi non-stop. (Oh, you don't know how dumb guys can get..)

Wondering how I am going to spend mine?

I have 2 lab reports due next Wednesday, a quiz this Thursday and a whole weekend off, to look forward to.
Yeah, tell me about it!

I see myself, looking at the mirror.
Half-wishing that the scar was not that visible.
Can't help thinking..and thinking..and yeah, thinking...

It's Valentine's Day, for goodness sake.

Valentine's Day is abit different this year.
Larger group, more fun.

Dinner was in Falim. The food was not as nice as I have expected, and eating with the guys is abit troublesome. They don't splurge on food, and they don't eat what I usually eat.
Problems in eating with people.

They eat different things!!

I must say, it was rather enjoyable. 6 Guys and 3 Girls.
We had chinese food.
Nothing much to mention about, as we do go for dinner together sometimes in Tronoh.
The only thing which made this different is we were in Ipoh, having dinner.

Wellson called during the dinner. Couldn't hear what he was trying to say..but I guess, it's just the 3-letter-words: Happy Valentine's Day.

Funny isn't it?

Current Status: Pissed with some ass who created havoc and it turns out that, that "ass" was a stupid ass, afterall.

I think I have abandoned this blogpage of mine, and also the one in (www.angkhian.blogspot.com) ..I have been busy, and naughty at the same time..With work pilling up and all, I have already finished the 20-episodes of tvb series "The Canopy of Love" and just recently, the 35-episodes of tvb series "Du Chang Feng Yun (Casino)" within 2 weeks. Haha, I am just being plain lazy and my usual self, a procrastinator. Oh, sue me!

I have 2 lab reports to hand in next week, Chor 3.
And also one piece of assignment on chor 5.
Another piece of assignment on chor 7. And one test on the same day.
The remaining tests would be held the week after.

Like I have so much time to study liddat!

Received a surprising text message from Ja-ah today, Ja-ah from NS.
She got married and currently, looking after her kids.
And she's only 20 this year.
Some girls are just pure lucky.
Some girls like me, are just not.
We gotta work our ass off, in studies and after that.

Currently playing in iTunes: Slam Dunk Da Funk by 5ive.

I remember that Tin and Mel and Foo were all over 5ive back in STD.5..Kids.
Just like how we were, back in those BackstreetBoys' and Boyzone's era.
Now, those bands also not around d.Extinction.

Hehhe..

Ah, now I wanna go do my stuffs online. Like checking mails, and replying them.
Oh yeah, my hands are getting blardy itchy.
I wanna gam_ _ e (Fill in the blanks yourself.!!)

Call me during the CNY. I will be absolutely, entirely YOURS.
I need to occupy myself..things will get ugly in New Years.
"Ahem, MP is gonna be around"

I don't know what the guys see in me..
They think of me as their best friends, or sometimes, just someone, confused in her life.
I can always sit here, listening to my guys friends, whining about their problems..about how their girlfriends are treating them..and about the major issues about their lives..
But have they forgotten that I am a lady too?
A lady waiting for someone to arrive in white horses, waiting for that some day to come?

When I need someone to hear me out, where do these guys go?
Where do they hide?
When they need someone to accompany them to hear them out, they will always text me, and call me out..
But when they want someone to go clubbing, or just a simple dinner with, my number is always missing from their phonebooks..

I am sick of becoming the ear all the time.
At times, I need a strong, broad shoulder to be there for me, when I am down..
To listen to me cry, to bring me out for dinners, to bring me out for movies..

Why do you only need me when you want someone to be there?

Just so you know, I have feelings too.
I don't really care about who you love and who you like.
I can be your friend, but I have a limit too.

I hope you will wake up one day, and realise that the person next to you, might sometimes be offended by you.

(Sometimes I think people should not lead other people on. If you have no feelings for the other person, tell him/her straight. Leading him/her on, will only give false hope. What's more, if you are already attached.)

RM400 plus gone, in just a mere 5 hours.

This Chinese New Year, blood also come out..ahh..
Dad was being generous with his wallet, and I got to get a lot of things..
Must be the scholarship I am on now, and he's probably happy that I don't have to use his money anymore.=(

There's this Nike Sandals I had my eye on, and I am going back to get it, when the annual income sinks in.

I am so gonna go angpow hunting and gambling this Chinese New Year..
To hell with assignments and reports.
(I can always deal with that later....)

I got myself, a handbag, a wallet and a sling bag today.
One shorts.
Bra and undies.

Wow..money worth spending.
It was all under Jiang..hehehe..
(nolar! have to pay her back one..)

Oklah, reunion tonight. wanna go get a nap, and empty my stomach.=)
Ta~

Pictures which sum up what I have been up to, for the past 3 days.
Only a quarter of what I have been doing actually.

Money keeps going in, and also out,even quickly.

To the kids out there, do not gamble. It's not good. For the heart, and the wallet.
 

Gambling either brings out the good side of people, or otherwise..

It's during the Chinese New Year that people gamble, though illegally, yet it's like we are so used to the culture of gambling during the new year that it has became a routine.

People asked, why am I so into gambling or more specifically, playing poker cards during gatherings.
All I can say is, "What can you do when you are gathered?"

"Chit-chat lah! Exchange thoughts and catch up withwhat they have been doing for the past few months that you didn't get to meet up.."

And what if this people are those whom you always meet..at least once a month..so what is there left to catch up anymore?

You have nothing better to do, and you realised that we actually had the same conversation for a few times..and you know that it's time to do something else.

I have been losing for the past few days, and I am not complaining.
My bets are not small either. RM1 the minimum.

And I do not mind. Because when I start to get into the game, I have already prepared to lose. It's another kind of socializing actually.
Winning, is just a bonus.

Alright, not everyone thinks like me. I know.
You wanna play 10 cent, 20 cents..it's fine with me.

But don't you dare tell me that "Angkhian is different lah.Angkhian has lotsa cash..bla bla bla..."
I am just a student like you too.
Maybe loved alil bit more, but I am willing to sacrifice for the sake of having fun.

I am not forcing you to bet the same as mine.
But keep your opinions to yourself. I do not need to be reminded that I am loaded, which I am NOT.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to y'all.
I am having fun as the time goes..

Somehow Tabulas page fails to load when I am back in campus.
Which explains my hiatus on Thursday night.
So, if you lack of reading materials, try hopping to www.angkhian.blogspot.com, and perhaps, if you are lucky, and I am in a cheerful mode, there's something to read there.
Other than that, it's the weekends when I back in Ipoh, and there's broadband, only you would be able to read something here.

Lab report due on Monday for Solid Mechanics.
Lab report due on Tuesday for Geomatics.
I, Angkhian, am due next week. Of exhaustion.

Anytheway, I am now using DiGi as my second number.
If you are interested in catching up with me, and you are using a DiGi too, feel free to text me at 0165112765.
Hopefully I got the number correctly.Hehhe.

Oh yes, I am only using that number during the weekends. If it's not urgent, you can wait till the weekend, then text me.
Otherwise, my hotlink is still available 24/7.

I am back for the night.
Rushing back tomorrow morning at 7, for field work at 8 am.
G-O-N-E.
Geomatics test tomorrow night at 8pm.
Yeasssshhh, just great.G-R-E-A-T.

and please, to some people..stop calling me "ANG-pao",..my name is fucking "Angkhian"..It's not funny.

(sheeesssh, just grow up, will ya?)

Oh..I wanna..wanna..wanna..holiday!!! I need a break...

Fuck. I just remember I have a test on Fluid Mechanics this Tuesday.
Memang fucky lah like that!

Ok, I am still upset with the fact that Yiling has declared to stop writing online.
Which means less one blog to browse daily.
Which also means, I have less one thing to do daily.
Which of course means, I have less one excuse to not do my work now.
Well, thank you Yiling!!

I am still upset though. Hmmmph..((((((((merajuk!)))))))))

Look what I found!!
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