I know, I know..Sometimes you call me, and I don't seem to be picking up my phone. It happens now, most of the time. People, the phone is sometimes out of my reach, and I do hear its vibration, but my hands are tied, I can't answer calls.

So sorry, but leave me a text message if you can't reach me.
And I missed so many meetings with people over the weekend. Aaarggh, I really hate myself. I suck in catching up with people.

Life's been pretty hectic for me. Don't be deceived by the updates, I am merely channelling my tiredness to writing. For after this, I am going straight to bed, and drop dead. Well, not dead for real, just you know, peace out?

People whom I want to meet:
(nothing to do with the sequence)

1. Yeesan (leaving soon)
2. Mel (hardly did any catching up)
3. MeiLing (also the same case!)
4. Jiang (always putting her off..)
5. Eewan (probably leaving soon..)
6. Shereen (only back till next friday)
7. Dai (Are you still around?)
8. Wellson (he was back from UK a week ago, omg, and he graduated and I promised to meet him and I still haven't do so..)

I can't think of anyone else at the moment but I swear the list in my head was longer! I really really really really want to meet up but time and health do not permit me to do so. (*Trust me, if you see the state of my looks now, you must have thought that I had skipped my sleep for weeks..)

Hopefully I can be back next weekend. Have your fingers crossed people..I just hope I am able to.

And now..

Look closely and tell me what can you see..？

No, moron..not the thighs, baby..the hand..the hand!!
Can you see the Henna I did during Convofair??
and she told me it reminds her of one of her friends. Sweet..

Don't ask me why but I never bothered to know why.
My blog address has been changed to
http://khian.tabulas.com/

If you want to read what I have to say (at times!) then do drop by once in a while, otherwise, don't bother ok?

Life's pretty miserable lately. Rushing all kinds of datelines..sitting in for meetings almost EVERY night..huhuhuhuhu~~~

everytime I see couples walking hand in hand, reminds me of us.
it's been a long time ago.fuck, I am just so occupied.

God knows how many 8am classes I have skipped this semester.
To be honest, I myself lose count now. The only thing I realized is, I barely see the lecturers of mine now.
And really, I feel as if I am overworked and am now under pressure.

One friend of mine said this to me last night,
"AngKhian, you ought to chill out and relax..If you continue being like this, you will get high blood pressure..take a deep breath.."

Alright, maybe it wasn't only her who said so. They were others.

"Aku tengok kau, makin hari makin pucat muka kau..cuba relaks sikit.."

"Eh, Angkhian, you sick ah? why that face?"

I know I ought to relax, laid back and all..but my hair keeps falling and I swear, not only would I go blind, but I will also go bald!
By the way, I dyed my hair this time, and it has even colours now.

Anyone wants to go to ROTARACT's 8TH INSTALLATION
Venue: Clearwater Sanctuary, Poolside
Time: 7pm
Date: 22nd September 2007
Attire: Batik, Floral or basically anything you are comfortable in.

Price: RM45

Good food. Good atmosphere. You don't have to be a UTP-ian to come. Please do come, and get your tickets from me. I will be there.

*desperately in need of customers*

Read Kevin's blog about him being constantly misunderstood being a Malay.

Then it struck me too. I happened to be in his shoes a couple of times, even when I have fair skin. Maybe it's because I had my early education in a Malay school and I do not mind mixing with the other races other than my own kind.

So many times, I spoke in fluent BM. Oklah, not to say fluent BM, but the slang which comes out automatically, sounds as if I am either a chinese raised by a Malay family or I am a overly-fair Malay. Either case, people tend to give me a look of disbelief whenever I explained that I am not a Malay. Then they proceeded into praising my Malay sounded too Malay-ish.

I dare say, my Malay language is still pretty intact and just recently wrote a whole proposal in the language itself. Geng leh! Not even the Malays were able to do it, of what they claim that their Malay has became ROJAK-ed.

Surprisingly I enjoy Malay food, unlike my other chinese friends who detest any other kind of food which is not chinese.

I was having Ulam with belacan last night, and she gave me a shocking look, and said,
"How can anyone take in belacan? and what is that leaf you are eating huh? I know it's ulam but what is so nice about it?"

Honestly that's not the first time I've heard about such comments about the kind of food I consume. Food such like kurma(even the malays don't really like it), tempoyak (fermented durian), gulai ikan, tapai..
All this delicacies I call them, are all typical Malay Kampung food and some of the modern Malays do not even like them, but I love them very much.

It's the fasting month now, and I just love the fact that there's Bazaar Ramadhan everywhere near the University. And we will be having our own Bazaar in the campus too.! Wow! Usually this means more money spend on food, but this would also a mean a happier Angkhian loaded with food..hehe..

I really hope that the people I am angry at, reads about this.

Alright, here goes..

There's this new couple whom I know of and seriously, they are a bad combination. This is not a case about me pitying who and who you know, it's because I really do not see the two of them being together. Ok, maybe they are this pair of lovebirds, which are so lovey-dovey but the problem is the world doesn't evolve between the two of you shit-heads!

Ever since they got together, the girl got so arrogant with her newly-pimped boyfriend that everyone got so irritated. This is because of her mindless-ness and selfishness that everyone knows what is happening except her. She thinks just because her boyfriend is a superly heavenly dude, that she feels like she's as though the queen of the world.

3 words for you, sucker! "Kiss my fucking ass!!"

And the guy, whom I thought he was quite a good friend, turned out to be a bigger sucker. Just because he thinks he lives with his gf only in this world. Hello! All of us have to endure your stupid fucking attics and we are tired of them.
Trust me, both of you can either just fuck off, or just fuck off.

Seriously, none of us think that the two of you would last.
Let's just pray that this hell wouldn't last long ok?
Stop being an ass.

*The reason why I am being so angry is not because I am jealous of this 'newly-wed'..but it's because this 2 fella spreaded some un-true news which affected alot of troubles in my life and also some other people's.
But Down to it, it's not often that I get so angry over small things, so after this entry, you should probably have guessed that this pair of shitheads really should be banished from here.

Hehhe, people, for your info, there are quite a number of pairs lately in my campus. So, if you are in that category, and you think it's you..,well, the chances are it's most probably you. =)

I am not really that furious anymore. Just change yourself. Please realize that you are giving headaches to alot of people.

I JUST KNOW THAT ONE DAY, MY CAUSE OF DEATH WOULD BE HYPERTENSION, DUE TO HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE.

I was doing my work as usual until 5 something in the evening. My nose started to bleed (like wth, the 2nd time this week!) and my head went spinning.

It was still early I figured, I went to lie down on the bed. Hoping to make the bleeding stop, to ease the freaking headache. It was as if the nerves in my brain are tugging among one another.

2 minutes passed, the bleeding stopped.
The pain in the head was still there.

5 minutes passed, I still can't sleep.

10 minutes, and she called. We were supposed to have dinner over at a friend's. Apparently I was invited to a dinner party as it was MoonCake Festival. I said, I was still in bed, and have yet to bathe. The head's still pounding.

She sounded pissed and she went back to her room.

I forced myself to wake up. Feeling lethargic, I walked to the bathroom, cleaned myself and in 20 minutes time, I was driving to her block. I entered the friend's room, seeing them happily eating. Good, I saw good food. But she gave no notion that I was going to be having dinner with them. I sat and waited, while her friend made small talks. I waited. Waited to be called to eat or something, at least a gesture telling me that I can eat.

10 minutes have passed. I was not going to ask for food. Fine, I was just being a fool there. So I excused myself. The fire in me just suddenly heated up.

I drove all the way back to my block, walked 5 floors up and slammed the door. I was hungry, in need of medical attention.Most of all, I was supposed to head home for dinner when I was told that dinner was prepared by a friend, so I told my parents that I can't come home due to obligations.

I tried to sleep my anger away. I felt like yelling, cursing, and yes, I slammed my cupboard door. Think the mirror's gonna come off pretty soon.

I guess I made the wrong choice. I could have been spending time at home, having good food, maybe seeing the doctor. But now, from where I am now, I guess I am only having instant noodles tonight.

[Sometimes I feel like a joke. It's just a matter of time I get tired of myself.]

So,I think it's time to write about something worth writing about, so here goes..

God knows how many name cards I have done for the past 2 years in UTP.

Anyway, as it stated, I am the newly appointed treasurer for Rotaract Club of UTP term 07/08. I know, have been complaining about this club ever since, but sigh, the sense of belonging is so strong, so I guess, this will be the last term before I leave for industrial training.

As usual, adalah majlis installation to declare the new Board of Directors for the new term. This time the dinner was held in Clearwater Poolside. Listen like very nice right, but then again, there were so many let-downs so it's not as nice as it sounds.

Malas lah wanna cerita panjang-panjang, so I am just going to post a few pictures lah..

 
Yeap, that's me you see, going up to the stage. The one who's giving me something is the president. Joshua Ng.

The whole crew of year 07/08..

I dare not say I enjoy working with them, neither would I say I detest them. I just feel like an outcast at times, only doing what I have to do, that's all.


Frankie and I


Qi Hua and I

After the night, everyone went to RumJungle to party. Whereas JiaLin and I left to a quiet place, just for cocktails and to have a nice long chat. Was pretty drunk after that, so She drove me back.
It was quite a night.


JiaLin and I. Before getting drunk.

Not many pictures were taken this time around. Wasn't feeling well, so pictures are scarce.