Hates it when my time is being wasted just by waiting with no confirmed decisions.
Hates it even more when because of my time is being wasted just like that, I ended up wasting other people's time.
Like a chain reaction, the time wastage continues.

p/s: Sorry I got you into trouble today. Should get a better boss. Yours, erm...

Meeting the parents was easy.
Try meeting the extended family during Mooncake Festival.

I know I haven't been writing much.
Been..,urm..busy? I would say.
But I know I'm slacking. Because I don't really pay attention in class anymore. Maybe because my day did not start on a Monday. I returned to UTP on a Tuesday afternoon, rushing to the first class of the day. Which resulted in me not being able to do anything serious this whole week. The fact that the batch dinner is just around the corner (tomorrow!), all everyone can talk about is "Eh, what you going to wear for batch dinner ah??" Like seriously. How vain we humans turn out to be, huh?

Besides all the hype about the batch dinner, there's also the additional after-prom party. Which indirectly means clubbing, and how much do I missed clubbing...*runs around with bottles in hand!* and the fact that someone is coming all the way to see me. Life's been tough, so it means alot to me to see her.

Mind's been running non-stop, thinking of places to go, food to eat. Only 24 hours in Ipoh. What can be done?

So, if you are reading this, you are to get yourself all prepared for a night of Rum Jungle, and makan-makan NON STOP when you are here. Get loads of rest, because once you are here, you won't even get to sleep.

Something funny today happened over dinner.

Friend A: Actually Ang Khian, you can be very pretty if you become girlish lorr..
Me: Yeah, I know I'm pretty.
Friend A: ......

Off to bed.

After a night of rocking-the-stars,

I wouldn't say it's the best dinner I've attended.

but I have to admit, I kinda like the theme though.
Casual, yet smart-looking. No constraints.

I was having trouble with my shirt. The belly was already bulging. I had to suck in the tummy to button it.

Only half of the civilians made it. First time, I can feel that there's no unity in this batch. Heck!　You can't even find most of the Nons around.

but really, what to do..excuses such as the price of the ticket, the theme, the location, the crowd, the other prom night. Heck.

I know of some people who are going to both the dinners. Back to back. (Including *cough* me..)
I didn't want to go initially. Alot of peer pressure, from all directions. And because I lacked of fun, from the batch dinner, I had actually given some thought to give prom night a chance.

How many of you can actually resist all the juicy *yum* girls there? Hehhe..shhh..don't tell my girlfriend.
No lah, I'm actually excited that she's coming tomorrow.
(Dear, nothing one ah the girls..friends only...)


Nevertheless, it was really a good excuse to camwhore, in a different vicinity, different clothes, different people.

Or should I rephrase myself, that it was definitely YOUR lost, for not being able to make it to this batch dinner.

Where else would you see beautiful people like the ones below?

(we look like the cover for some new drama series right?)

and now, I should get more sleep, to bring her around tomorrow. Hopefully something would change my mind, whether to attend prom or not.

p/s: Too many pictures, simply can't put everything here.

So now that we've gotten the parties out of the system, it's time to focus on work.

Really, I need to. FYP has been stagnant since Day 1. I really need to stop procrastinating!!!!
Someone please slap me back into place can?

So, how was prom night, you may ask..

For RM65, it was something better than the batch dinner. A good venue as well, just that there were comments about the ballroom being too small. But that's what you get; you pay peanuts, you get monkeys. I would say it's a great start to all upcoming prom nights, if they managed to bypass the management to do one.

What I didn't like about the dinner, was the theme. Masquerade. To be honest, I paid RM8 for a mask which I wasn't able to put on, in the first place. And I couldn't get my date to put on hers. So, that was RM16 down the drain. (Joanne, bayar balik!!) And for someone who looks like a geek, I have my glasses on, so my mask was abit inconvenient. That's why I resorted to just let the mask go, but having to pay RM8 per piece was really NOT WORTH IT. The organizers should review on this little bit. For some reason, there was little emphasis on the theme. No one really followed the theme, well, it was great on my behalf, but definitely, I find no point setting a theme, if the organizer didn't make the people abide to it.
Second, the idea of a dinner during a prom, would mean an 8-course dinner, where food would be served instead. However, for this prom, it was really funny to see people, all dressed up, queueing up to get their food. Perhaps it's best for the organizers to review on this as well.

For the price paid, we would expect something better, like an 8-course served dinner. Perhaps, the astrocious price of the ticket was due to the location. Regency towers is a newly-built hotel in Ipoh, perhaps the rental was high. I would understand, but I would still say that the manner how food is served, should be seriously reviewed.

Alright, enough about that..

I am glad that I took Ariff's advice to attend the prom together with her. It was something different that we've done together. And now, we have a Prom experience together!! Even though I know that she does not fancy such events, having to dress up, look pretty and dance to the music, but she did it for me. We did had a slight disagreement during the event, but luckily we got that settled very quickly.

What got me worried was how the crowd would perceive us. It was bad enough that I dress up in a tie and shirt, and to make things even much dramatic, I was seen with a girl holding my arms, making an entrance. There were indeed a lot of unpleasant stares that night, but thank goodness I have a bunch of friends who were very supportive that night.

*HuiChing, SheaTeng, Ariff, KeeHui, Punchee*

She was kinda worried as well. It saddened me when she said, "We are odd. We are an odd couple." Well, like I care.

Right after the prom, we had after-prom party in RumJungle. Deserted. We made the crowd.

2nd time clubbing with her. Meche gang. Ex-housemates. I just hoped I didnt freak anyone out.

and how can the night be completed without supper at McD's?

Awesome night, really.

For me, it was a night out with someone important to me, and the people who made the experience in UTP a different one. :D

I kept introducing her to everyone. Like it was a dinner party to announce our relationship status.
and if you are one of the few ones who still think we are odd, FYI, we received alot of comments after that, that we suit each other perfectly fine.

A night out with a bunch of friends. Doing what I suck most: Karaoke.

Managed to even catch the movie 'Meatballs' as well, and dinner in a Japanese Restaurant. It's a Thursday night, yet the boringness seeps in slowly. I wished I could catch an early bus down to KL tomorrow morning, but I have something on , on Saturday. Deepavali. And you know what festivals are about right?

Open House.

It's almost 3 in the morning. Had organic D24 for supper.

Look at the flesh!

Creamy and thick.

I didn't mean to snap pictures of the durian, but it looks simply gorgeous. And I seriously have nothing better to write about.

A box of this babies, cost RM10. Expensive, but I guess it's the price to pay for the fruit claimed to be organic.

Now, beginning to regret for not buying more. ><

The consequences of having fun, or should I say, too much fun, is burning a hole in my pocket?

I never thought that money would be an issue now, but just got a message from Maxis that my bill for Sept is due soon. Where can I find RM300 to pay the stupid phone bill now?

Mind pacing to hunt for money. Where can I find easy money now?

:::Too tired to pretend anymore.

Sometimes, you get too tired to think. Like for what to eat, where to eat, what to eat..hmm, seems like most of the time, my world revolves around eating. You have to agree with me that eating is very important. I need to pre-plan most of my meals; how to eat, what to eat, where to eat..etc. Sounds simple, ridiculous, but trust me, for a person like me, I need to pre-plan my schedules. I may look like someone who acts on spontaniety, but for most of the things, I like it when I already know the schedule beforehand.

I remember when I went out IKEA-shopping with her sister's friends. I actually asked the sister, what they were going to buy, how long would they take, will half-an-hour suffice in their shopping. I actually asked that. She, in return, commented that at this rate, no one would like shopping with me. I am not offended with this little remark. I admit that when it comes to uncertainties like these, I don't like it. I need to know how long would I have to wait, how can I actually fill in my time while waiting, and most of all, how to minimize the time, waiting. Is this ADD syndrome? I guess I got this from my dad. When we were younger, we used to go to Jusco, every alternate weekends, to get our grocerries. And one thing he would always say was, "Go straight to the supermarket, get what we want, and leave." I used to hate that, because for a kid like me, I would wanna explore the mall during the weekends. Look see, look see.  It's not like we were in a hurry or something, but he often wants to get straight to the point and leave. I thought he was afraid of the tremendous crowd.
But obviously now, when I look back to that situation, I know why he didn't like hanging around in malls for too long.

First, you tend to diverge from your ORIGINAL reason for coming to the mall in the first place. Second, you tend to buy unnecessary stuffs, which you probably don't need in the first place.

--My Creative-Zen MP3 player is up for REBOUND. RM380, comes with a new pair of headphone and a skin protector.

And last but not least, the crowd. If some of you who don't already know, Jusco was one of the only places which offers a place for the crowd to hang out in Ipoh. After a week's worth of working, dad would probably wants to rest at home and not fight his way to the crowd in a shopping mall. How did I finally realize this? When I was doing my 8-months Internship, I realized that after 5 days of getting on the commuter, getting to work, during the weekends, TRUST ME!! you would just want to stay at home and laze. (The reason why I didn't stay at home then was because I had a CRAZY ROOMMATE!!)

Anyway, I'm writing this because I just woke up and thought about the best-est way to promote my Creative-Zen Player. It's only a year old, only used for a maximum of 3 times during this times, and yeah, pictures DO NOT deceive your eyes. I bet you can't even find a single scratch on it.

It's really a good player, and I would use to more frequently, if I didn't already have my trust iPod.

Sleek design, very slim.

If I am not in a hurry to get cash, I would've kept this longer, until my iPod dies. *touch wood!*

It's DEEPAVALI everyone, and yeah, I'm lucky enough to be invited to an Open House. XP

I am still 384kms away from UTP. 

There goes my Monday. And all the other work.

Sometimes I think school is ridiculous.

You just can't throw people into the working force, expect them to adapt to the working environment, the dog-eat-dog world, and when they finally start to accept things to work that way, you drag them back to school and expect them to un-adapt from the working environment and get back to piles of books. (and never-ending workload!)

It took me about a month to realize that it's about time to stop whining about the long hours at work, the short weekends, the long journey to-and-fro, the jam in the city, the surviving skills to be away from home, etc. And when I finally did, it was time to get the working attitude out of my system and adapt to FYPs and what not.

p/s: I hate FYP. To me, it's just an unnecessary burden.

Here I am whining. Still unable to get a hang with the fact that I'm back at school. Seriously, the intense hours of travelling, can really screw my biological clock and all the clocks in the world. I don't know what's what already.

I reached in time today, to attend the first class of the day at 12pm. I ended up going late to class, to have lunch with Ariff and HuiChing in USM Cafe. Little did I know that the SD class for today was cancelled, and no one was in the right mind to tell me! I actually came all the way back, to attend that particular class and to know that it was cancelled and no one told me! Well, you actually learn to see rainbows on a rainy day, because today I also found out that the submission of SD test 2 is on Friday. So, here I am, rushing the last-minute test answers, starting from scratch. No reference from anyone because we honour what was entrusted to us. Well, we are soon-to-be professional engineers after all. No point lying in our papers if we don't even know the basic designings of buildings.

(Well, in actual fact, we have help here and there, but that also need our own effort to try to understand what it's about, right?)

One of the many group presentations expected this semester. Well, at least one down, more to go!

Next week, would be the final week to complete everything. All the tests, all the assignments. Bummer really!
And I was in the contemplation, whether to head to KL this weekend or not..Hmmm..tempting, really..

I send a text to her:
'Wake me up in 15 minutes."

and this is what I got in return.

9 misscalls on phone.
7 misscalls on my other phone.

and a Gtalk message.

Si beh tak tahan.
- you pretentious freak. 

Ever since the management has banned dc++ (a tool for all students to share their downloaded videos, series, movies, songs, documents, etc), I've missed out on most of the series. Okay, don't start with the copyright infringement because believe it or not, UTP's in the middle of nowhere, and our only source to the 'world' would be dc++ where we 'catch up' on series, movies, songs to stay sane.

I recently found out another way to get access to free movies, series, cartoons anytime. Have you heard on Charter On Demand? You may not know it, but if you have Charter Digital, you have On Demand. And you know what's best? It's free to access!

There are over 6000 movies and shows to watch anytime I want. In between classes, during classes, after classes, before bed time, I can catch this movies anytime. I don't have to wait, because there are no schedules. I missed Gossip Girl, Desperate Housewives..Heroes, 30 Rock..so now is the best time to catch up on those.

There are many of the favourites the day after they air on TV. All these, free! For those working adults, your kids probably don't understand or have the patience for TV Schedules. When they want Spongebob, they want it right then. This On Demand helps you fight less and reason with your kids!

I don't have to worry about not having anything to watch anymore. SImply find a movie (there are hundreds of them!) and voila, the night is filled up! You can learn more at charter.net/ondemand. or even get updates and fun extras on Charter's Facebook page.

A quick trip to Ipoh on a Friday, to collect data for my FYP as well as having a hearty breakfast with Harpreet, we ended up witnessing a funny encounter.

While slurping the best white coffee in town, and having the distinguish taste of Har-ee in our mouth, I heard several people shouting in cantonese, "Wei!! Whose Mercedes is on Fire?!!" Obviously Harpreet understood none of those, but I was surprised to hear such statement shouted in such a peculiar manner. April fool joke coming way too late, I decided to peer outside to find that the crowd, just like me and Harpreet, were witnessing this.

Not long after that, an explosion was heard. Minutes ago, many cars were seen parked back to back with the Mercedes. Don't need to take a second to have all cars driving away from this hazardous car.

People were seen crowding near the car, probably not trying to save the fire. But peering to see what's inside. Some standing nearby kept shouting for them to stop trying to be smart, because the fire department has been called.

One funny remark was made.
"Oi, jangan lah buat apa-apa!! Dah call bomba! Nanti mereka marah sebab takde kerja!!"

Me, being the curious prick, decided to capture pictures of the incident. Thank goodness my camera was with me.
I wanted to go nearer, but feared that the car might do a double explosion.

I was busy snapping pictures when Harpreet shouted from afar.
"TANG ANG KHIAN!!"
only did I know it was best to leave then.

I've never witness something like this before. What a day it was!

Today, is when I thought that the day would go on just like any ordinary day but..

Everything suddenly seem so wrong.

Ask me the reason yet I wouldn't be able to answer you. It feels depressing. Like I'm in a state of emo-ness.

One minute, I find myself being all chatty. The next, had a lot in mind. In fact, I was pretty quiet during the whole dinner ordeal. I don't know what's bothering me.

It's been awhile since the tears rolled. No, I'm not crying. Just don't understand why it turned out this way. At the end, no matter how hard we work on something, it turned out the other way in the end.

Been missing out a lot on Uni life, this semester. Suddenly realized, I still have another semester to go before we all bid farewell to one another. Can the friction be ignored, and may peace last until we graduate?

I'm a sensitive soul today, kick me.

You know it's time to stop and rest, when you start to see the letter 's' as 'a'.

Too much of typing, reading, series for a few days now.

Taking a break from work..

Writing down great formula to conquer the world!

Having your devotees dressing up in your royal color!

Having bodyguards to stop paparazis..

taking the first step before everyone else does..

Hoi!! Pay attention in class! Dreams are meant to be on bed only..

The stories of the past, should never be told.
If they were to be compiled into a book, the book should be locked in a dark place, for eternity.
The past should never be mentioned. For the past, brings out the ugly truth about one self.
When do we learn not to be reminded? To move forth, move on and forget. But to learn, we must. From the mistakes that we've done.

--Bad mood last night. Because of whatever factors they were. FYP. Projects. Tests. Finals. Pressure.
That explains the grey hair. Not only one strand. I can perhaps find 3 of them now.  

Miss you.
- FYP Interim Report done.
- and now to study Design of Offshore Structures test 2.
- and prepare for International Business' presentation.

The phone keeps ringing, unanswered.
3am, and I just got back from a Friday movie. 'This is it' - a movie starring Micheal Jackson. I shall not reveal what's in the movie, but trust me, try to catch it, even if you are not a fan of MJ.
This is my 2nd Friday spent in the campus, and yeah, I got a lot of questions asking me why am I not in KL this weekend.
It suddenly hit me that I should go home, at least for one weekend, to see my parents. Feels like it has been a long time since I last saw my dad. And another thing would be spending more time with the uni-mates. Attended the Graduation Audit talk this evening, to realize that we only have another 6 more months before going through the convocation and parting our own ways.
My bad, for spending most of my weekends away from campus. We should do more activities, parties, mamak, makan together. Well, at least for those who I haven't been to Tronoh with, we should really do it, before it gets too late.
Tonight, bumping into many UTPians, was comforting! Many were down in Ipoh to take a breather. I, for once, was glad that I stayed for one weekend. I miss home.

The tortoise-pau. Sold like hot cakes during the Nine God Festival which ended last Monday. I missed this, for the 2nd time already. I felt kinda bad because every year, would follow my parents there to do a bit of prayers, but I've missed it for 2 years consecutively.
When I was younger, used to love buying these pau-s. Stopped at the stalls by the roadside, and bought a couple. Must eat them fresh. Cannot keep in the fridge and reheat it, because the taste would be different. For 2 years now, I've been eating these, reheated. Taste awful!

I was home for dinner last night. Mum reheated this, for my breakfast the following morning.

Felt warm. Mum actually remembered to buy them for me.
Home-sick. Should really spend more time at home. But you get torn apart. Too much demand from here and there. I don't like it, but what is there to be done.

I only eat the white part of the pau. Not the red dyed skin. Bad for health.

Sometimes I wished to runaway. Like, to a place really really faraway.

Found a random picture in my phone.

Considering it's taken by a camera phone 3.2MP, very good quality.

Joanne, Khian, Ariff, Kwong Hoe and HuiChing. During prom night.

Almost 4 am now, need to get my emo self to bed. Sick as a pig now, with the flu and everything. Gosh, no pun intended!

Early Sunday morning. Flipping through the IB text book. Nothing interesting.

Not in the mood to read. Not in the mood to think. Just feels lazy, cold temperature due to the drizzle. Feeling EMO, for no apparent reasons.

Caught  The Exorcism of Emily Rose on AXN. Hmm..

Groccery shopping with parents. Managed to sneak in a bottle of hair shampoo. Thus, don't have to fork out my own money. Which, by now, probably none left. I'm so broke.

Emo. Want to curl on the bed, alone.

Do not question if you don't understand. You'll never do. Fucked up feeling now. Agitated.